morbide

Stop making fun of passion

Hi, i cought hppd during my last year in school, which is the easiest year in Sweden. Now i'm working 9-12 hour shifts in a crowded factory enviroment and it works out just fine since i don't really have the time to worry about hppd. And at work, our lamps give away a yellowish light which makes my visual snow less noticable. Motivation is key! How about you?

Mandy has not been on in a while. Which is weird, considering how active he was. Starting to get worried about that guy, he seemed really down on himself last time he posted.

No worries, he seems happy on facebook. It's good that he's keeping himself occupied

I also get bad after drinking but it only lasts for 48 hours tops, i had one (!) beer yesterday and i had a majir flare yp this morning but niw i'm back on track! Although i haven't gotten shitfaced for months i'm not planning to either, hangovers + hppd really sucks.

Sooo... Salami is good? Goid thing i work in a sausage shop

Shame on you jay, paracetamol is really bad together with alcohol! Ibuprofen is better

You know whats funny I have a cyst on pituitary gland that I've had all my life, and they said there was no way it was causing these symptoms. My cortisol was normal when they tested but who knows maybe it excreted and then stabilized at some point. Regardless, I feel all of our conditions, visual snow, hppd, dp dr are similar and maybe the cure would cure all, that's why I think we should all unite, for a movement and a market for those bastard pharm companies to put research into

I'm thinking the same about a cure, we should gather the guys over at the visual snow forum and make them do what they can!

It's awesome! I almost have the best gear, the only thing that i'm missing is nightvision I love the games' complexity, you always have to think and evaluate and analyze, goid to get your brain working. And i've never had such adrenaline rushes from a game before.

Bleh, play DayZ instead! Gets your brain going as well

When i contracted hppd i had been together with my girlfriend for almost three years, i told her about hppd then and we are still going steady and are soon celebrating our 4th anniversary! I still drink moderate amounts, i never get shitfaced anymore but i guess my wallet and my liver thanks me for tat. What i want to say is that HPPD doesn't have to change your social life, i mean i have friends that barely drinks and nobody seems to bother.

I'm sorry to hear this but i wish you all the best. Du är lite utav min förebild haha, dina trådar på flashback har hjälpt mig mycket. Skulle inte förvåna mig ifall vi genom en slump möts i hufvudstaden. Spana in Taylors & Jones på kungsholmen om du är glad i maten, mer säger jag inte!

And again, i wish you all the best, take some underwater photos when you're diving and post them here atleast!

Since i've pretty much beaten the psychological part of hppd i think that i can't beat the visual parts as well, ignoring them isn't that hard for me anymore. I mean sure they bother me but durung my onset they were a hella lot worse.

If i wouldn't work 12 hour shifts then i would have the energy to understand what you are saying, I barely get anything but i love you guys for doing so well! I feel like an annoying mosquito not being able to help...

Hppd has made me appreciate all the little things in life, a girl smiling at you on the subway, an ice cream (fuck yeah) someone making a joke etc... I havr also began to care more about my little sister and brother, girlfriend and well, pretty much everyone i love. I'm not as focused on my own well-being anymore. I mean, i could've started doing this pre-hppd but it feels more right now since there are such few things i can do about hppd. I like myself now more than befire, i'm more self confident,, more laidback.

Internet shoulder-pats to all of you / Harry

There is always hope, the question is where we can find it. I'm a complete nutter when it comes to medical language and terms so where the hell shall we look? And what are you reffering to when you mention the "hppd grant"?

I still do things like going out at the club sometimes, working full time, i'm doing pretty well since i'm not noticing any difference in symtoms when i'm drinking. There are always stuff to do to get by, being sober at a party actually isn't that bad, spending time with your friends really helps. And get yourself occupied for gods sake, work, workout, play videogames etc. etc. Right now i feel like hppd doesn't have a big place in my life, it's just a background nuisence. But of course i go to bed every night hoping that i will become hppd-free, i am also thinking about meds since i'm soon passing the 1 year line.

So basically, fuck the dope in all of its shapes, you can have a terrific time without them.

Never does for me.

Wheres visual at when u need him

Hahaha exactly my thought as well!

But anyway, i may try betablockers, they are easy to get prescribed and nothing points toward worsening of hppd.

Go for it and tell us how it went, i've read about people that've taken a small dose of a hallucinogen and recovered from hppd.

Go for it and tell us how it went, i've read about people that've taken a small dose of a hallucinogen and recovered from hppd.

This is new. Why isn't mine working, dammit!!!? lol

Hahaha indeed!

Interesting reading though.

I've actually seen this show in Sweden, it's impressive that they talk about disorders that i've never heard of sometimes!

The point is for the first 2 or 3 months I steadily improved...my hppd was 80% gone. Now its worse than ever. What the fuck did I do to deserve this shit. People murder children and rape the bodies and get 20 years in jail, I take drugs and get a lifetime of this hell? This is why im not religious. My life has been nothing short of an absolute shambles the past 4 ywars, its like someones pushijg me to see how bad it can get before I kill myself. I need a holiday before I actually do

How is it worse now man, can you describe the symtoms?

Aren't you pretty young too?

Me too. Drum n bass raves stella and gin. Even just sitting at home listenin to music with a bottle of wine and some cheesecake. Wtf did we do to deserve this

That actually sounds really awesome!