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Hey, sorry for not answering back! I forgot to check my content. Thanks for the feedback. I think I better understand what DP is now. I feel for you guys, really. It sounds like something may have gotten messed up in your brain from drugs. I was almost there after a very bad 2cp trip. However, I came down from it and only have the HPPD visuals. You guys tried Keppra for the DP?

Dpselfhelp.com might help you.

How did you first enter that state? Was it from hallucinogens? Like you woke up the next day after a trip and were depersonalized

I hope it works out

Hey rollingregret, that's what I'm afraid of, that my doctor will tell me "it's all in your head" even after I see Dr A.

Ethically I would hate to do that. But given the ignorance of the medical community (excluding David and Dr A), I might just have to do what I have to do. I may just be developing some restless legs here in awhile that might require a script for Requip or Sinemet

Who pays for this site?

Visual what were your issues with Wellbutrin? Would you recommend the regular, SR, or XL version?

I get the gist of what it is. But I guess I don't really get what it is because I don't have it. I just have the visuals from HPPD. I will say that it DP/DR sounds like you are still tripping a little. Like you are stuck in the that out of body trip. Like you aren't totally grounded in your senses maybe? I know that's how I felt on my one and only trip that gave me HPPD.

yay! it's back. What happened David? Hey 2much!

Ok thanks for that seriously. I thought I could tell a difference almost right away on the first day. But my couselor acted like that was placebo and there was no way it could act that fast. I think Zoloft is agreeing with me as far as benefiting my anxiety but it's making my visuals worse. I'm going to recommend my doctor get me off this asap and switch to Celexa. Any idea how I can get off this Zoloft? I taken it 6 times including today. Each dose was half a pill at 25mg. My visual snow has gotten worse, the density and flicker rate have increased. After images are somewhat worse too. Starbursts and halos about the same. But hell, I haven't even been on it for a week and its this much change.....I can't imagine the long term impact. I just hope I can find an AD that agrees with HPPD visuals and helps my anxiety.

If my doctor doesn't believe in Hppd then how do you get them to prescribe Keppra? Did you lie about headaches?

My ophthalmologist recommended waring amber colored lenses while driving at night. Probably could even wear during the day

How long did it take for the AD to kick in when you first started taking it?how do you know you are feeling different and not just placebo?

hell yea, i get a sinus infection yearly without fail. Be careful with Dexthromethorphan cough suppresant. It made my HPPD worse for sure.

Was it after you got hammered?

Thanks guys. Most of the time I don't realize how hard on myself that I am. You are right, it is unrealistic to think I can just cold turkey beat this thing after so long a time on drugs. Gill, I'm trying to convince her that I have HPPD so I can suggest meds such as Lamictal like Jay recommends. Otherwise, I have to take whatever she wants to prescribe (SSRI) and potentially make things worse. I tried to get her to prescribe Wellbutrin as Visual has recommended for HPPD dopamine treatment but she said it wouldn't help much with my anxiety. And my main goal is anxiety treatment not HPPD treatment. I'm hoping I have a flashback or worse from this AD and have to go to the hospital. Maybe then she'll let me suggest a something more sympathetic to HPPD treatment.

Haha that cracked me up. I totally agree with Boogres. Not seeing any of this shit is normal. I think other people think they have seen what we are talking about but they really have no idea. They might have seen a floater or have trouble seeing sometimes but they really don't know.

Sup everyone, so after 4 months of being sober I relapsed a few weeks ago on 4/20. I took a new research chemical called 5 methyl ethylone. This is knowing that I have HPPD and I have some kind of nerve damage to my penis, all of which is of course worse. Having extreme fucked up anxiety especially social anxiety is destroying me. Living with shot nerves, barely able to look or converse with people, no fun ever, no real relationships, watching everyone else live life. It's like a kind of torture and eventually I say fuck it and get fucked up. I was doing well, eating organic, no caffeine. Was chatting with VIsual and trying to remain positive. But my extreme anxiety, some depression, no life and addiction to pornography drove me to say screw it and do the drugs again. I can't deal with this anxiety. It's been a lifelong issue for me that I've tried to beat without meds but I believe I need meds. So, I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place. On one hand I need ADs/anxiety meds like a diabetic needs insulin. On the other hand I shouldn't take ADs due to making the HPPD worse. I ignorantly took Dexthorphan cough medicine for a week and my HPPD has stayed permanently worse for it. So I definitely believe ADs can make it worse. My best friend, couselor, and doctor are urging me to take the AD. Although my best friend and counselor think HPPD is just in my head. I think I've halfway convinced my doctor that I have it and am going to give her some articles on it. I'm going to give Zoloft shot because if I don't I'll just relapse and fuck myself again anyway. At this point, I'm just trying to convince my doctor that HPPD is real and that I have it so that someone can support me as I try these ADs. I'm thinking of giving her the article from this site labeled "Ophthalmology_Article_1996" which talks about HPPD being real and persistent and not a transitory flashback. Can you guys recommend any other good articles that might inform my doctor that this is a real medical disorder?

It sounds like what I had while I was tripping. Is it a feeling of disconnectedness from the world? Like you aren't grounded fully in your senses?

Hey dsync, I don't suffer from DP/DR just visuals but thanks for this post man! I think we all need to hear inspirational stories like yours.

Thanks bro. That definitely helps my decision. What type of HPPD symptoms did you get from Lexapro? Are you implying that you got visuals and DP/DR from it? Wow, i didn't even realize people could get HPPD like visuals from ADs.

Thank you David! Now I have something concrete that I can share with my doc.

Damn, thanks for the advice. Sounds like you really know your stuff. I didn't ask Dr Abraham about Klonopin. If I tried anything, that would be it because I had read somewhere that was what he mainly liked to prescribe. Couldn't think of any other questions bout it. I'd like to take something to take the edge off because I can barely walk around at work. My nerves are so shot that I tense up around people to the point of not being able to say a simple hello. If something doesn't give, then I may be fired before too long which may lead to suicide. However, I've decided to not take anything for 1 year. If I still have HPPD in one year and I still have major mental issues then I'll try some anti depressant. In the meantime I'll do as you suggest and tackle anxiety by every other means possible. Meditation, social exploration, group therapy, whatever. Thanks Visual!

Yeah, it sucks to think that I can't even partake one more time even if the moment was right. Like at an outdoor festival or whatever. I mean....I got to trip once and it was a bad trip. sad panda. If I'm gunna pay such a high price tag I could have at least got to go to the stars. What is a good trip like?