Who am I

[Primeartco]

Hello people . I’m new to this website and idk how active it is here but I just wanted to tell my story as short as possible. I first started taking LSD at age 16. At age 18 I had my last LSD trip. Not knowing it was going to be my last. That last trip was different. It wasn’t bad or it wasn’t good . It was different. But that same day I had smoked once it started to go away. And I was driving and all of a sudden I lost connection to reality . It was scary. And I didn’t know what it was . A week later I had this flashback. And it tripped me out. That night I woke up at 3 am in the morning to thunder and rain . When I woke up I felt scared. I thought I was feeling that way cause of the thunder. I’m a painter and I have this painting of a fish I did on my wall. I remember looking at it and it looked different . I got out of bed and I went to the bathroom and I saw myself in the mirror and I just felt very very off . And I knew something wasn’t right . I was fucking terrified. I went to my parents room and took a shower in a bathroom they had in they’re room. I remember showering and all the thoughts going thru my head . I felt as if I wasn’t in reality same time I knew this had to do something with my constant taking of LSD. I got out and I slept in my parents room on the floor. I was a 18 year old. Sleeping in my parents room cause I was tripping bad . I had to . My little brother was already sleeping on the floor so I slept near him literally grabbing on to his foot while sleeping cause I needed to feel like I had someone normal connected to me so I can stay sane. I didn’t say anything about what I was feeling. Idk how but I fell asleep . I woke up the next morning and that was day one of HPPD. Everything was different . Everything. My life flipped...... that was a year ago. October 28, 2016. And till this day I still have it . It has its ups and downs . And my answer to it is to stay bright, stay sharp, love yourself and love others. Keep yourself busy and please stay sober. Spread the word. 

[MadDoc]

Keeping busy helped me.  Focus, be it a hobby, work, reading, meditation (now, you knew I'd throw that in there), or whatever.  Keep the mind focused and never stop learning.  You're a painter!  What a wonderful creative outlet!

I took psychedelics basically non-stop for over 6 years.  At times, I dosed for weeks at a time.  The first year after I stopped was difficult.  I started dosing as a kid just shy of my 14th birthday.  It took time to relearn how to be a normal enough to functon in society.  Stay clean and you should start to readjust.  I also felt a deep depression when I quit.  Part of that was due to the fact that I could never go back to psychedelics.  It had been my constant companion for a long time.  I missed that psychedelic "place".  Don't make the mistake I did by drinking too much.  I spent the better part of my 20s drinking.  I was functional and accomplished a lot, but drinking delayed dealing with a lot of issues.

I'm approaching 60 and still have visuals (open eyed only) but life is wonderful and I'm happy.  Keep fighting, never give up!

Edited May 20, 2018 by MadDoc
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[Miller]

It gets better. I was dosed without my knowledge for almost ten years as a child. HPPD was hell at first, but a few lifestyle changes and some support from family has changed my life. I feel much better today even with a few (though much less severe) HPPD symptoms. Stay away from mind altering substances, eat a healthy diet, and train your mind to recognize what's happening when you have symptoms and react accordingly. Recognize that these symptoms cannot really hurt you and a more emotionally draining than anything. Understand that your mind is not broken and you still have your grasp of reality.