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  1. I found that hppd didn't limit my intellectual or physical abilities. I got through college, had a career (a challenging one IMHO), got married, had kids, and all that good stuff. I've been working for approaching 40 years, and am now thinking about retirement. There's nothing really special about me. I just worked hard and stayed sober. If I kept using I doubt I would have accomplished much. My main issue was anxiety which I fortunately learned how to keep under control. Also, all the psychedelics I took made me kind of a strange soul. The visuals, my most prominent symptom, is
  2. I don't play video games, but I watch my share of movies. I honestly don't notice visuals when I'm watching the screen. As I've said before, when I'm focused, my visuals aren't apparent. I guess watching movies keeps me focused enough to shut them down.
  3. Advice/tips, sure. I've lived with this disorder for a long time. That doesn't make me an expert by any stretch of the imagination, but I know what works for me. Be kind to yourself because you've done nothing wrong. Exploring the mind using psychoactive compounds is as ancient as human thought. We're curious beings so taking the plunge doesn't make anyone a bad person. We're just in the unfortunate minority to have contracted this disorder. Get focused. Be it school, work, hobbies, philosophy, whatever. Stay focused and try not to focus on symptoms. If anxiety is an is
  4. Welcome. You dosed quite recently and the after shocks of a experience can linger. Give yourself some time. I'd also suggest you stop using drugs, at least for a while. You mentioned that you've done "hard" drugs infrequently (did i get that right?). However, the cannabis today is POWERFUL. Give it a rest for a while to see how you're doing. Also, don't panic! Try not to attribute every anomaly to hppd. I'm not a doctor, but at this point you symptoms sound relatively mild. I realize that they don't seem mild to you, but understand that hppd can be a debilitating condition. I'm not
  5. Your life sounds similar to mine in some ways. I took LSD about a month before my 14th birthday. By the time I was 20, after years of gobbling down psychedelics, I decided it was time to give it up. I dealt with terrible anxiety so I self medicated with alcohol. I felt like I had alcohol under control. Got through college, got married, had kids, started a career, and all that good shit. However, for me, alcohol became more and more of a problem. One day I decided I'd had enough and I quit. However, the anxiety was waiting for me once I sobered up. Fortunately I found a doctor who help
  6. Hello, welcome, and thank you for posting. I found it very difficult to open up to anyone about hppd but doing so helped a lot. It sounds like you're doing pretty well and your symptoms sound mild (in my amateur opinion). They might not seem mild to you, but hppd can be a truly debilitating disorder for some and it sounds like you're living your life. You've already taken the most important step to being well, that is staying away from psychoactive drugs. I'm not a doctor or a medical professional. That being said, I suspect your symptoms will moderate over time provided you stay cl
  7. It's very possible that your hearing issue has nothing to do with hppd. I'd seek out a hearing specialist to get a thorough hearing test. After that, they may be able to suggest a treatment. At a minimum, they can rule out common causes of hearing anomalies. I hope that helps. Thanks.
  8. I've been away for a while as well. It's been a tough year for everyone. We lost some of the more senior branches of our family tree to Covid. I need to pull myself back together and try to be helpful in this forum.
  9. This is what scares me the most when it comes to giving advice or encouragement to someone is writes that he/she is considering checking out. I have no training as a therapist. What if I unknowingly write the wrong thing as harmless as it might seem? Scary territory.
  10. It's always wonderful to hear about a positive outcome. Hope can manifest itself.
  11. I have been married for 40 years now so dating is a distant memory. Finding another compatible human has so much to do with communication. I figure, just be honest and open. The "one for you" is out there. Your paths just need to intersect. I guess I'm lucky. I met someone willing to put up with my strange.
  12. That's wonderful news! I think you are very wise to stay away from psychedelic drugs including weed. I realize weed isn't technically a psychedelic (or is it?), but it sure is when introduced into my nervous system! Keeping focused is one of the things I've done to manage this condition over the years. Anyone on the road to recovery is good news. Take care of yourself!
  13. I take CBD oil to help me fall asleep. Not every day, but if my mind isn't shutting down at night it really helps. It doesn't do anything for my visuals (good or bad). I've never had visual snow. Hope that helps.
  14. Our stories sound similar. I fist dosed in 1973, i was almost 14 years old and thought I knew everything. How drugs like LSD were available to a kid of 13 is beyond me. By the time I was 20, I figured it was time to hang it up. I struggled with hppd, and still do. I also have a remarkably "normal" life. I've been married for almost 40 years and have two great kids (kids in their mid-30s). I refer to myself as a "misplaced alien". My view of the world, reality, humor, etc. Is definitely strange. I'm certain the truck load of psychedelics i took had something to do with that. Over
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