SomebodySomewhere Posted July 17, 2012 Report Share Posted July 17, 2012 Some of you might remember me from maybe 3-4 years ago. I'll give you some hints: I've met David Kozin multiple times, I was accused of being a rageaholic when I was last here, and I was kinda mean to Jay1 and Saga for a dumb reason when I left. Anyway I've changed and I'm back (and I apologize). -- I first contracted HPPD and DP/DR after a really bad trip on 4-AcO-DMT about 6 years ago. I was a frequent poster here after discovering it and often sought to help myself and others as much as possible. I thought for sure and often argued that HPPD and DP/DR are permenant. However 2 years ago was the last time I noticed any symptoms of HPPD. I just suffered DP/DR. However now it's been 1 year since I last noticed any DP/DR symptoms. I'm back to let people know that there is hope and it CAN go away. I'm not entirely sure how/why it went away...it just did. I treated myself with Clonazepam at various dosages as well as a short trial with Keppra at one point that didn't go well. I did not stop using alcohol and I've even been so dumb as to use nitrous oxide multiple times over the past two years. I was also a tramadol addict for a while (and I don't care what anyone says, the withdrawls from that shit are downright terrifying). If I can be of any help to those of you still suffering I'm here for you. Also hello in advance to some hopefully familiar faces as well as the new people we now have 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ludwig80 Posted July 17, 2012 Report Share Posted July 17, 2012 Good to see ya back around swartz.. Love seeing people come back with good outcomes. Think we really need to have a recovery section where we can place these posts! Maybe Jay or Merkan can help with this. Unless i'm still just missing it- then I apologize! But good to hear man! Keep on keepin' on and don't got mixed back up. Hppd can pop back up if you give it a reason too! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
rollingregret Posted July 18, 2012 Report Share Posted July 18, 2012 That's great Swartz! Extremely happy for you and hope you make the most of this rebirth. Did you end up recovering completely medication free (you alluded to failed clonazepam and keppra treatments)? Must have been tough getting of those meds in addition to your HPPD going into remission. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jay1 Posted July 18, 2012 Report Share Posted July 18, 2012 Welcome back mate... I can't even remember what we used to argue about, so no worries there Glad to hear things are better... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
SomebodySomewhere Posted July 18, 2012 Author Report Share Posted July 18, 2012 Did you end up recovering completely medication free (you alluded to failed clonazepam and keppra treatments)? Must have been tough getting of those meds in addition to your HPPD going into remission. I should have explained the clonazepam better. I'm still taking it but I'm currently tapering off of it (rather fast too and with success which surprises me). I've dropped from 3mg to 2mg with no symptoms returning, and I plan on hopefully going off of it entirely if possible. Also thanks guys for the kind words. I hope you all have your HPPD and DP/DR go away too, the disorder sucks. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
rollingregret Posted July 18, 2012 Report Share Posted July 18, 2012 Ah I see. I know this might sound patronizing, cuz I'm sure you know what you're doing, but just a word of caution. If you see pretty much all my posts in the past year, they're about what happens when one reduces clon too fast, even without having developed prior tolerance. How fast are you talking? My plan was to go from 3.5 to 2 (after a successful 4 to 3.5) and I got stalled at 2.75 about 30 days in cuz it hit me like a wall (it catches up). I'm still messed (since December). Maybe you're going slower or just react better. I hope that's the case. Last thing I want is for all your hard work and successful recovery to be thwarted by the benzo drop. I can see the DP/DR returning after a few weeks if you don't space it out enough. Like I said, it took awhile for it to present itself so I thought everything was going fine until whammo! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
cs1234 Posted July 18, 2012 Report Share Posted July 18, 2012 So did you have tramadol WDs after or before recovering? How did they affect your symptoms? Also I'd lay off the nitrous if I were you Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
morbide Posted July 18, 2012 Report Share Posted July 18, 2012 Great to hear! Posts like these really does keep me going, thanks! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
SomebodySomewhere Posted July 18, 2012 Author Report Share Posted July 18, 2012 @rollingregret: Thanks for the heads up but I'm well aware of benzo withdrawls and the different taper methods. I used to come here and say that the Ashton Protocol was the only way of doing it. However for me personally I can do about 0.5mg every two weeks with only mild withdrawls. I've done this many times. @cs1234: I had tramadol withdrawls while still having DP/DR. It made me depersonalized as hell. That combined with the opiate and neuropeniphrine caused withdrawls was very unpleasant to put it mildly. Think Trainspotting but with lots of crying and the inability to even leave the house (I was using huge amounts and went cold-turkey). For me the worst of it lasted about three days. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ferret Posted July 18, 2012 Report Share Posted July 18, 2012 Thanks for sharing your success story. Is your snow 100% gone even in the dark? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
SomebodySomewhere Posted July 18, 2012 Author Report Share Posted July 18, 2012 Thanks for sharing your success story. Is your snow 100% gone even in the dark? I guess I never really considered snow an HPPD symptom but I guess it is. I still have that but it doesn't bother me. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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