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  1. I agree with MadDoc. One practice that helped me in the beginning was counting the breath from 1 to 10 then repeat, 1 on the inhale 2 on the exhale and so on. I like this because it's simple and gives you a small task. It also helps to have a timer, start where ever you feel comfortable, even 1 minute is good. Overtime you can increase the duration as you get more comfortable. Also there's no right way to go about it, and like MadDoc said the benefits will take time so it's important to stick with it. Good luck!
  2. Hey, I hope you're well. I do meditate and find it to be very helpful. For me it reduces anxiety and anything that does that will help with my HPPD. I have found that sticking to a regular schedule (at least once per day) with a comfortable position, over time provided some wonderful benefits. These include increased feelings of wellbeing, better memory and increased energy to name a few. As far as whether it will aggravate the symptoms, I wouldn't worry about that. If it does it's only temporary and in the long run is likely to do more good than harm. Also I have found that a
  3. This is a difficult topic. I am a recovering alcoholic, about 2 years into sobriety and overall pretty happy. Alcohol is a tricky friend that can cause major damage if left untethered for long enough. That being said, I'm not claiming that you are an alcoholic but I think it's worth evaluating ones relationship with alcohol. I think this is good practice for just about everyone. Try asking yourself the following questions: 1) Do I drink when I don't want to drink? 2)Do I usually regret drinking? 3)Do I think about drinking to get through the day? 4) Is it
  4. Hey everyone, I hope all is well. I have been doing pretty well but I have a nagging fear that the supplements I take are not trustworthy. I will first off say that this fear is really not based on anything other than my own obsessive personalty. I find it difficult to vet online retailers, even if they provide a certificate of analysis of their product. I currently take: Curcumin from Nootropics Depot Fish Oil+ Vitamin D from Life Extension. As far as what the internet has to say both of these vendors are apparently legitimate. I am curious whether anyone has
  5. I agree whole heartedly with what's been said. All I have to add is try not to get too wrapped around worrying about whether you have it or not. Like Jay said, stay sober for a few months and see what happens, chances are you will make a full recovery. However try not to make the same mistake many of us have, going back to the drugs once the symptoms have cleared up. I have made that mistake more than once and each time the recovery was more difficult. You can take this experience as a warning sign that you may be a member of the population that is susceptible to this condition. An
  6. I am also in AA and fairly young (30 years old). Please feel free to contact me at any point; I am willing to give you my phone number. Anyway, hang in there. A day at a time is the way you'll get through this, if it's any consolation from my own experience I don't think hppd affects intelligence. But rather produces serious anxiety, social and self disconnection and of course visual distortions. All of which are correctable (maybe not visuals) if you put some work in. I know it might seem like things are hopeless now but give it a few months,.... then a few years and you'll look back w
  7. Also were you prescribed abilify for a reason other than depression? That can take some time to recover from but you will. I personally have never been on it but a close friend was and he said the recovery time was a few months but things eventually got better. Make sure to consult your doctor and give time for the meds to work, also if you were on Abilify or anything for longer than a few weeks make sure to taper slowly.
  8. Hello, For me a standard dose 100mg of Zoloft helped in the beginning when dealing with HPPD. I like to think of them as a stepping stone to recovery. It's hard to say if it made symptoms worse but it definitely helped with anxiety which can exacerbate HPPD symptoms. It's tough though because most people don't want to be on it forever myself included but my situation required some type of external help and I am now doing really well. The catch is getting off antidepressants can be hard but that's a bridge I will cross later. Two years since I started the Zoloft and about the
  9. Glad you're here. As MadDoc mentioned we are not qualified physicians but only able to share our personal experience. For me, I am also currently sober (going on 2 years) and have been on Zoloft for about that amount of time after having a relapse of strong hppd symptoms due to reverting back to psychedelics. I believe the Zoloft really helped me but that's not to say it's going to be the same for you. Unfortunately with these meds you sort of have to try a few different ones until something responds well with you. I also had the issue of starting a challenging new life endeavor; I a
  10. I actually had a fair amount of success with SSRIs. It's difficult to say what the exact impact on visuals was but they certainly helped me deal with the anxiety associated with them. For me anxiety always made things worse, and then over time the visuals have diminished likely due to being completely sober. I have heard some people report that they directly effect their visual field so who knows. We are all different, my advice is to stay sober and find a routine that works for you. Eventually life will get better and your symptoms will diminish or at least become more manageable.
  11. Welcome, I am sorry to hear about what you are going through. A few comments: First, life WILL get better I promise if you give it some time and stay away from drugs. I too deal with anxiety that is a separate issue from my HPPD however the two intermingle quite dramatically. Meaning one can cause the other and vice versa. Anxiety can be absolutely debilitating and when you have something literally staring at you through your vision it is fucking scary. That being said you can learn to deal with it and eventually the effects will begin to fade. For me what worked is stayi
  12. Hi Tyler and welcome to our little community. First I know it can be daunting to try and come to terms with this condition; it is scary stuff and can be very debilitating. With that said a healthy fear is probably a good thing to keep us from making the same mistakes. It sounds like you have a good head on your shoulders and are aware of the best actions you can take i.e. exercise, sleep, eating healthy... Definitely keep that up. Time is another friend of yours, the longer you abstain from drugs the better you will get, believe that and it will happen. I also recommend trying to learn me
  13. Hello, I’m sorry to hear about all you have gone through; life can be very difficult and each of us have our own battles. From my experience if we focus on our problems they only get bigger. In the age of the internet this can have terrible results because there is an endless stream of information available that can make us feel worse about ourselves. My advice to you is to try and not focus on your condition or the troubles from your past. Therapy can be very good with the right person to address what’s troubling you. Meditation is also an incredible tool that is free and
  14. You said you don't have an outlet, maybe you can create one. Find a healthy distraction from what's going on. I am filled with anxiety as well and I know it can be absolutely debilitating; I also have OCD. What works for me is keeping busy. I go to the gym a lot, I play chess, I read, meditate and I go for long walks. Find something that brings you joy and can take your mind off of the current situation. Keep coming back to these forums, when you share your problems with others I have found that it has the effect of making them seem smaller. A lot of anxiety I think is rooted in o
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