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  1. Please don't tell people to stay away from antidepressants. They have been a huge help for me and could help someone else.
  2. Hello, I'm sorry you're struggling so much. From your story it seems like you have a tendency to impulsively take drugs. I had similar behavior when I was your age (I am now 32). This led me to eat 15 hits of good LSD in one night when I was 18. For me, recovery came in stages. I first had to realize that if I continued with the way I was my life wouldn't amount to much plus my sanity would likely be demolished. I had some warning signs that my mind wasn't tolerating psychedelics well anymore such as panic attacks, visual distortions and DR/DP. These scared me enough to take a lon
  3. Have you tried antidepressants? I have had a great deal of success on SSRIs. In general, there is no one size fits all remedy for improving mental health. Yes, psychedelics can be useful in the right setting, right dose, right person but there are risks. HPPD being one of them. I have to echo Jay's sentiments and add that for me, being honest with the doctor, staying sober and living the most healthy existence I can has lead to stability. I tell everyone the same thing which worked for me Exercise as much as you can, even if your symptoms get worse. Eat healthy an
  4. Hello, I'm sorry to hear about your struggles. For me, meditation and maintaining a physically and mentally active lifestyle helped in my recovery. Time is usually the best antidote for HPPD and doing everything you can to minimize anxiety. For me there were dark days but there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I will tell you the feeling of getting back to an acceptable level of normal is truly wonderful, you will experience this. I tell everyone who is struggling with this disorder the same thing: Maximize your chances of recovery by placing your body in the best condition to d
  5. Hello, I am sorry to hear how much you are struggling. I have a few thoughts. First, where there is life there is always hope. I firmly believe this and also empathize with the fact that in the pit of despair, this might be difficult to believe. Next, I would highly discourage you from taking any additional psychedelic drugs. At least until you have a handle on your mental state and some stability is achieved. I know the wishful thinking of what one experience created can be extinguished by another such experience. This may be true but it has its risks. I am a f
  6. I'm not sure what to call it, however it may be useful for you to talk to a doctor about this. It could be some kind of panic attack. Unfortunately there is really no direct treatment for HPPD, however there are treatments to help with anxiety which directly affects HPPD. On the subject of meditation, I think it's important to maintain consistency to really see results. Start out small (1-5 minutes) but keep it up daily and in a few weeks you'll start seeing subtle changes in your thinking which can become major if you stick with it. Hang in there, you'll be fine.
  7. Hello, I'm sorry to hear about what you're going through. The best advice I can give is to keep doing what you're doing. You've made it through with this disorder before and it can manifest itself in very strange ways indeed. For me, staying physically and mentally active and sober were key to the progress I have made. Meditation is something that has been a big help in my recovery as well as spiritual and intellectual growth. I will attach a recommendation for an App that I have found useful. Hang in there, day by day you will get better. Take Care, Nick https:/
  8. Thanks Jay. As always I value your opinion and advice. I will keep you guys posted about this, although if it's successful I hesitate to share that information for fear of it backfiring for someone else. I have smoked weed many times post HPPD with some drawbacks but for me, it never produced lasting crazy results. I have found sometimes regressing back to being a pot head for a few weeks can actually be beneficial for my mental health. However, it has been a number of years since such an experience. Who knows, I'm just trying to get by and be reasonably happy. I wish you the best.
  9. Hello Everyone, I hope you are all doing well. About 7 months ago I was going through some difficult emotional times and got prescribed medical marijuana for a condition that I have. I tried 4 edible attempts over 1 month and did notice an uptick in my visual disturbances and some anxiety. After the last attempt I decided to leave the gummies be and I have since been sober from everything and am again going through some difficult stressful things. All positive but very exhausting; my wife and I just had our second daughter and I am on my 4th year of mathematics PhD studies. The idea
  10. For me, I have been on an SSRI for over 3 years and classify it as a success. Other people report that it exacerbates their symptoms but I have not found this to be true. I would follow the advice of your doctor especially with something like this. Be honest with them, mention your apprehension about the need for an SSRI and why.
  11. I can relate to the suicidal ideas myself, thankfully I have gotten through those rough times. Please DM me if you'd like to talk in a less public setting. You're young and have only done acid once which will work in your favor. Also, I know that it might not seem like it but 2 months isn't very long for a recovery. For me 6 months seemed to bring about real change. It's subtle, but overtime you'll see improvement. Try not to worry and believe that you will get better. Hang in there
  12. I understand your frustration and I'm sorry to hear how difficult things are for you. I have a few basic questions: How old are you? How often and how much did you dose? When was your last trip? Do you smoke weed? These factors will affect your recovery time as well as your chances of making a full recovery. The weed can keep you in the same headspace for extended periods and also bring it back. Try not to focus on the condition, it will get better you just need to let your mind heal. I like to use the analogy of letting your body get over a cold or another
  13. Welcome to the forum! I wish we could meet under more pleasant circumstances but here we are. You are indeed very young and I think that will work in your favor. For me, I also contracted HPPD about 14 years ago from excessive and frequent LSD use. It does get better! But your recovery depends upon you. More drugs will almost always make the condition worse. For me, sobriety, time and a healthy lifestyle got me back on my feet. What do I mean by sobriety? Well, weed always exacerbates my symptoms as well as drinking so I stay away from those things. Even years later, I tried a small am
  14. Hello, You sound like you're in a tough place, I'm sorry to hear that. This is a difficult disorder and everyones experience is a little different. I tell everyone the same thing: Stop all drugs (even alcohol for a bit if you can) Get as much sleep as you can Exercise regularly even if it makes your symptoms worse Eat well Stay busy with work/ school/ hobby etc Try not to worry Learn to meditate if you can (this was really helpful for me) If you're open to it, start praying to God (it doesn't have to be any particular religion and yo
  15. lol, how old did you think I was? how old are you?
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