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Absolutely beautiful is a terrifyingly HPPD fueled way... where did you get it?

As I understand, Xanax is similar to klonopin. I used xanax for a while for emergency situations when I was freaking out very badly. I would say that it can certainly raise your base line because you need take keep taking higher doses to escape base line yet at the same time doing so raises your base line. Many people here have found out the hard way about what benzos can do to your HPPD. If you get a prescription for xanax make sure to take it sparingly - on in dire situations. For what its worth.. Dukkha

Nice! It is important to have specific and valid criteria for diagnosis. D

I would have to disagree with the claim that 10-15 mins a day is not beneficial. You need a strong meditation practice before undertaking a retreat, especially one as long as 10 days. For most people on this board who don't meditate, sending them jumping into to an intense retreat would just be cruel. From my experience with meditation, I believe it is more beneficial to sit regularly for short periods of time than it is to sit for a really long time once a year. Of course ideally you would be sitting decent lengths of time everyday and taking occasional retreats. I am very glad though that you mention how you mention the power and influence of perspective and perception when you write: "these changes are not catastrophic or damaging in any way, unless you decide they are." I feel that I'm similar to you, in that I've been on both sides. I have done time in a very dark HPPD hellhole and today I'm living with HPPD taking a seat in the background. I think one of the turning points for me was realizing that these changes are permanent and becoming accepting of that and the "new me." By not demonizing every single visual that I experience I was able to begin to live free from the much suffering caused by HPPD (or really, caused by ourselves in reaction against HPPD). In the Vipassana tradition it is common to do a 10 day silent retreat. I'm not sure where you can find one that is free because they cover your accommodation and food and everything.

Ya mine came on 6 months after psychedelic usages. I had no idea where it came from and was fairly convinced I was somehow being dosed. So resonate with you your situation. Dukkha

Yeah, definitely looking forward to summer. Sounds like you've got a pretty nice summer ahead of you Jay. So far, it looks like I'm giong to be spending a lot of time in the mountains and chopping wood and pushing blocks of ice around in wheelbarrows. Dukkha

I scanned it. Didn't realize it was such a large file! Sorry about that. DUkha

Yes! Be careful! Cocaine with HPPD can be highly addictive and damaging to the body! wait a minute .... In all seriousness though, I can't comment on cocaine having never done it but the general rule of thumb is that stimulants do increase HPPD namely visuals. Dukkha

Hhey pretty good stuff! It's kinda put me in a particular mood that I don't visit often enough. I was expecting some battle of the bands thing but this is very legitimate sound! Thanks for sharing. Any chance we can hear some more tunes?? Dukkha

Hey man, no need to apologize. That's what these board are for. Glad you're feeling better Dukkha

It's interesting hearing about where people are from. I guess the majority of us are either from the UK or the US since its an English board. I feel for all the people out there who for a lack of English and resources in their own language or access to a computer but access to drugs are struggling and lack the resources we have on this site. Dukkha

Hey Welcome back!!! I don't recognize your name unfortunately. I bet i'd recognize your avatar though : ) Dukkha

Very excellent post. I can relate a lot of the anxiety bit. It was a large part of my struggle with HPPD. There are some great coping strategies and insights here. Hope you are doing relatively well these days mate! Dukkha

Hey everyone, It's about time we all "met" up on Skype. Please suggest times and dates that would be good. I propose some Sunday a few weeks down the road. You can RSVP and post your Skype id here too. Cheers, Dukkha

I was being shown the power of Mandalas this weekend and created my own! The scan quality isn't so hot but you can get the idea. Dukkha

Nice stuff Jay!! Being a website designer is a great job if you want to be able to travel I would imagine. Dukkha

Hey Eric Absolutely stunning art work!! I didn't realize you're from Germany. Keep up the good work! Dukkha

I'm rather curious about this. What is your current relationship with psychedelic drugs? As for me, I find it rather unnerving just to be around them or sometimes even talk/think about them. I know others, even with HPPD still desire ingesting them. Let me hear your comments! Dukkha

Very Cool!! Maybe I should check out this NPR show the infinite mind... Dukkha

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When I first started experiencing HPPD I had no idea what was going on. I thought I was being secretly dosed and was constantly checking my pupils and eyes. I am hesitant to say that the red eyes are directly caused by HPPD. More likely it is caused by poor sleep (possibly from HPPD/anxiety) or irritants in the air. Try out some eye drops if they are dry/irritated and don't stress about it -it'll only make it worse. DUkkha

Good to hear back from everyone! So let us be dedicated to the truth behind HPPD (whatever that may actually be) yet still consider even the most outlandish theories with an open mind before revealing their fallacies and flaws. The restaurant wasn't in the UK actually but I've heard there are some of them (not connected though) in several major European cities. I imagine there must be one in NYC at least. Dukkha

he synthetics are the worst!! Please be wise and if you're going to smoke, just smoke some weed. It was research chemicals (those fucking R2D2's) that gave me HPPD. Who the hell knows what these new synthetic drugs will do. Don't be the guinea pig! Dukkha

Hey Penny Arcade it's good to hear from you. All the best, Duke

Ya, small amounts of alcohol can put me in a cloud the next day. Large amounts crank up the intensity of my visuals. -D