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  1. Nope, with my eyes closed its a kaleidoscope of colours and patterns constant movement, 100% 'normal'.
  2. Haha, definitely! I know this will be a long-game on the Niacin, and maybe there is an element of Placebo in the short term, but I am definitely going to soldier on with it - the brand I bought was from Amazon, "Supplement Tree - Nicotinamide ( Niacin ) 500mg". I'm taking 2 caps a day, one around 8am and another maybe 8pm, along with a 500mg vitamin C Tablet again, twice a day at the same times.
  3. Still soldiering on with the Vitamins, and feeling pretty good - the 'flare-up' I had has definitely eased and 'things' are back to a baseline I think. I am experiencing some crazy-ass night-time anxiety, falling asleep and feeling like I am falling into a bad trip, but nothing that last longer than a burst of fear/adrenalin, and im used to that as that has been one of my worst feelings the last 30 years or so of living with this. Started the Balck Seed Oil too, and for the record, it really does taste like crap. I do feel it has a calming effect tho, so ill keep taking it. Work
  4. When I read the letters vibrate and jump all over the place, but strangely enough I can still read perfectly, even with the crazy visual distraction!
  5. Hi all, a quick update! Ive been taking 2 x 500mg now for a month ( + 2 x 500gm Vitamin C + a general Vitamin D tab I have ben taking since Covid appeared in the world! ) , morning and early evening and have definitely felt some more clarity in thought and generally mental well being - i've been 'working hard' on my HPPD the last couple of months ( after a real bad flare up that really affected me and set me back a LONG time, I could have would off a bridge honestly, but I didn't of course! and am really concentrating on the anxiety side now as that has been tough - since the Vitamin '
  6. Also, as ive been giving my HPPD alot ( probably too much.... ) thought his past few weeks, i've definitely identified my anxiety as being the fear of 'that night' happening again, which is weird, as after I had that positively mind-altering and MENTAL experience/FlashBack I did take loads of Acid and Trippy E's again and have never worried about those night, I actually have fond memories of my mis-spent youth, its always that one 'event' that has really messed me up. Managing my Brain and trying to relax and get it our of my memory has been help, so I really think mindset with this cond
  7. Morning all and for sure, will keep you posted on how I get on - the flush is definitely a but strange at first but I've found it has passed in a few days and I don't really notice it now - felt a bit like sniffing poppers the first few times! Thanks for the link to you research Fawkinchit, i'll have a read through this today for sure! I have decided to up my Vitamin C as well, gotta be worth a try! More soon...... P x
  8. I've been taking 2 doses a day of 500mg Niacin after reading about its potential mental well-being properties this past week. I had a real bad flare up 2 weeks ago that lasted for about 5 days ( literally thought Was loosing my mind again, like that night a LONG time ago! ) so was looking for anything that could help. Note, i've had this condition we all share for nearly 30 years now. Yup, Rave generation and too many years beyond that ( after the bad trip and subsequent HPPD, which happened when I was 15, CRAZY looking back..... ) of Extacy and Coke. Now completely coke free for 9 years a
  9. Im totally aware I do this but now my kids ( well, my youngest kid! ) has noticed and this has turned into family ' lets poke fun at Dad' thing - if only they knew the cause!! Hah! :-$ So, anyway, I have a really weird thing, and I quantify if my thinking, if I touch things 'they will be ok and won't start moving again', i.e., start tripping again! I mean, when I'm in the car, I regularly flick/tap the windscreen with my nail on my middle finger, sitting at home I do the same on tables if I'm walking past a wall to the wall, even lying in bed, ill often reach out and trap the wall, also t
  10. Yeah, its definitely a crazy old thing, and honestly, I've never felt 'better' about this thing since I realised ( in the past week or so!!! ) its actually a 'thing' and I'm not the only person in the world that feels like this! Just shows you, well, in my opinion now, it really is a case of your brain playing tricks on you, your not mad, or tripping, or trapped in a mad-house, you need to be stronger than the symptoms - I think I am! Would still love to know the physics behind it tho, the brain doesn't do this for wow, nearly 30 years for no reason! And I still mainta
  11. Thank you, and defo - and good for you! Its a CRAZY thing to deal with, and honestly, knowing that I'm not the only person in the world feeling like this, even after all this time, I feel better already - I know I'm NOT going mad - although I may be a little crazy from time to time!!!
  12. Same as me, 3rd time id ever take acid ( Purple Ohms ) and the first time id ever had any real crazy visuals, had a kind of freak out but it passed. 8 days later, smoked a bit of weed, went to bed and felt myself 'falling' again, straight into that mental bad trip id had just over a week before - ever since then its never really gone away, well, the ripples of it anyway, the 'flash-back' lasted all night, crazy visuals, thought I was forgetting how to breath, all sorts of crazy shit - to this day the trailers are there, geometric patterns on carpets appear, even that crazy feeling in your mou
  13. Hi all, its only been in the past 2 days I've started to try and figure out what this 'shit' that goes on in my brain is, I'm under no illusions its due to LSD, as a lot on here are the same I'm sure - I honesty have felt ever since I've had this 'thing' going on I'm my life I was the only person in the world who was experiencing it, a life long trip that was never going away. Well, my symptoms started when I was 15, a long story of drugs and debauchery through the 90's Generation X fun and games that ill tell soon, I'm now 43, so have been living with this for a long time! Now I kn
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