Passion

Thank you for your words Jay. Do you think that this will ever go away? :c

Is hash the same as weed? If not. Then we smoked HASH.. o: Sorry I told you wrong. Maybe that will change some of your opinions. Eh, under my bad trip I felt like falling into the same "dream"-sequence over and over again. I couldn't stop. When everything felt right.. I just fell out the world and came back to the "beginning" of the story. And it replayed over and over again. I felt SO uncomfortable, it was so unbearable that I remember thinking that suicide was the only way. But now I don't have this thoughts. I know I will survive it all, even if it lasts. I am just a bit scared. Because I want it to go away. Eh... Sometimes I feel a little bit of the "DP/DR" symptoms.. I feel like my mind is a bit away from my body. Can't really explain. Hmm.. But I don't think that DP/DR will be permanent on me. I am just worried about HPPD. o: None of my friends had similar reactions. They just got high and the next day they were fine. It's only me. I think I took a REALLY deep breath/puff. I still have my hppd symptoms today too. I am not going to go on any medications or do doctor appointments. MediTATION on the other hand, I'll try.

Hello everyone, answer to your questions: The points are flickering.. It' all kind of static. I don't remember the taste or smell so much. The smell was kind of stronger. I remember I lit the bond for a very long time and forgot to shut it off. I took one puff. And then I couldn't breath, I started crying without any control of it. I heard myself screaming but couldn't stop. That's the things I remember ;c Not much for help. And yes, it was with the people I trust. We smoked the same stuff in the same bong.

Hello everyone, I just need to get this off my chest. For the first time ever I was going to smoke weed by using a bong. (Have only smoken weed, never done any other drugs besides that.) It took me one big puff and then.. my world was torn apart. I survived HELL, I was in 3-5 different demensions, I kept falling from one to another and so on.. (It's like when you fall in a dream and get this kind of a tug when you wake up.) It went on for an eternity.. or it felt like that. The worst day in my entire 18year old life. When I woke up the next morning I could see that something was wrong, because white walls had many small black dots on them.. It was like "snow".. I couldn't focus on the entirety of the room, only in the objects. But when I focused on them the background was so disturbing.. It made it hard to see.. :c And everything leaves traces after itselves.. It's like those pictures that you can stare at for like 25-40 seconds and then look at a plain wall or something and you will se the picture there. But now.. it doesn't even take me 1 second to do this.. I see.. traces. :c My sleep has gotten worse, I wake up many times a night. But before my bad trip on weed I slept like a baby.. <: It was one of the best feelings ever.. to go to bed. But now I am just worried. Eh.. I have problems reading now, because of the traces. My white paper has like.. black dots on it.. They change possition every little second.. You with HPPD surely know what I mean. SO, I have been having it this way since 14 april 2012, at 1 am.. What should I do to make it kind of better? (I'm keeping myself from weed and alkohol from now on) Are there any tips on how to make it better/gone? How long time have you had yours? + I just need people who understands me. :c I am a little worried. But... I think I can manage to live with it. It just sucks not seeing things the same as before. It gets you that feeling that you are a bit "distant" from your body. But.. at the same point not. Because you know that everything is just like it used to be.. It's just... weird and new. :c Please help. <3