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It isn't sooooo hard to learn. But it is pain in the ass. I am from Latvia originally... My first language is russian.

It isn't sooooo hard to learn. But it is pain in the ass. I am from Latvia originally... My first language is russian.

I can add you both now <:

I am sure Jay is well. He seems to be a really strong person. And yes. I find him kind of as a hero myself... He is my hope for a happy life even tho I suffer from this shit. <: You guys are my hope too.. So.. get well and cured soon XD

He doesn't have dpdr.. That's my problem. Hppd is okay.. I think I can manage it. But dpdr sucks.. I don't want to be like this forever. :c

My mother suggested for me to go to the doctor, so we can get some medication that might help against DPDR.. I am so scared. What have I done to my life? Why have I done this to myself... I ruined my life.

Does your friends and everyone know about your condition? o; (Question to everyone)

Morbide, gief your msn

Looking at computer monitors sucks xD You stare at it for hours. Then look at a wall and kaboom.. A black sqare appears.

Morbide, do you have afterimages?

And do any of you experience that the walls and furniture are moving when its dark? Like.. If you are looking at the corner of a wall, it is moving. It is like looking through a fire. If you get how I mean.. I think that it is because of the statics. The dots are moving and it maybe makes it look like the walls are moving too.

Thanks you two...b. (See what I did there? 8D) I am feeling much better right now than what I did before. In the morning when I wake up, I no longer feel like I am continuing dreaming. I actually feel that I am awake. I think. It is so hard to explain. You think that some of the symptoms have gone better, but you aren't really sure if thats the deal or if you are just starting to get used to them and forget about your life as it was before. However, I very rarely experience anxiety now. But last week I experienced it every day.. 24/7. I was scared of not existing. I was scared of everything. Hmm.. I must ask. Does alcohol have a bad effect on your hppd and dpdr? I am asking that because soon it will be summer and I am going to some festivals. And just wonder what effect it has on the disorders. And how bad does it get? C;

Have the site been down? ;o Haven't bought the magnedium or that stuff. Bought something called "Ginkgo".. It is good for the brain and helps you concentrate better. Didn't made any difference to the hppd or dpdr... I think. But now I can actually think about other stuff. And forget about my disorders for an hour.. And my mind can rest. Eh... Hmm... I went into one week depression earlier.. It sucked. My brain was so.. Overloaded. Wanted to die. For real. Was crying every day, was so tired of "life". It wasn't life... I just.. Existed, but I didn't live. Now I can just.. Rest a bit. It feels good. Was in the woods last week, freaked out so much. Everything eas so 2D and flat. Like a popup book. Don't like being in the woods. The trees scare me.

I have decided to start use non-prescription medication, in hope that this will save me from my DPDR. Read about a guy who used "Magnesium" and "b12" and the DPDR vanished. I hope it will do the same thing for me. Will order both tomorrow. Fuck yeah. Hope for the best. If I find something that help me, I'll share the info later. Since I think that both HPPD and DPDR has something to do with the brain and it's balance.. o;

The doctors won't help us until half of earths population will suffer from this. And only THEN they will take us serious and try to work something out. Nepuinthesky, love your signature.

Oh Thank you.. Looked it up. And yes, I too think that this is one of DPDR's symptoms. I must thank everyone who ever wrote in this thread. You have been a big help to me.. And I am the luckiest person because of the support I got from you. Thank you for being there for me.

LUCKY BASTARD :C Hahaha... My hppd is almost gone or.. As I said before.. I am used to it now. The only strange feeling is when I think I see in 2D sometimes.. the there are those dots that I see sometimes.. And the afterimages. Life sensitivity too.. The worst thing is my DPDR. :C Hahah.. But otherwise I am good.

Thanks for the answer <: But it is so strange that one can feel this way. Totally cut of from reality. The worst part of it all is waking (don't know how to spell it, help) up in the morning and feeling like you are still sleeping. I get so sad because of that feeling. >-< I used to love sleeping and the waking up part. Hahah.... Still love sleeping though... It feels like I have asked this before but, for how long did you who recover had your DPDR?

Does anyone know why we feel this way? What has been changed in our brains? ;o

I hope so :C Cuz I am scared. :C Hahah... Do you have the feeling that the world is not real and you don't know what you are and what you are doing here?

I get scared when I read stories about hppd and mostly dpdr and people say that they've had it for 40 years. ;c

I think that I am going mad ;c I know that this is life.. This is world. That everything exists.. But I keep asking the same question.. WHY DOES EXISTANCE EXIST?.. I don't only ask it. I FEEL weird when I ask that question. It's like.. Where the heck am I and is this real? ;c Have any of you had this feeling?

Half-"swedish".. (A) Lived here for 8 years 8D My biggest problem is my DR right now. Because I keep having this " WHAT AM I AND WHY DO I EXIST " feeling time to time. :C Had it since yesterday.. Not ALL the time. But it hits me to the point where I don't even know why EXISTANCE exist. ._____. I can make myself feel this feeling if I question everything. But I try not to do it.. Because it only makes me fall back to the beginning of everything. :C But yeah.. I'll live.. or "live".. I don't know. Life is good even if my mind isn't in my body. .____. Hard to explain. I am so.. sad. Because of the thought that in two days it has been ONE WHOLE MONTH since it all started. :C I can't even tell if I am on my way to recovery or just getting used by it. And when I read others posts and they say that they have "recovered".. I don't really get it if they recovered meant as THEY GOT BACK AS THEY WERE BEFORE THE ACCIDENT.. or.. that THEY GOT USED TO THEIR DISORDER SO MUCH IT BECAME "NORMAL" FOR THEM. .___. Have anyone of you TRULY recovered from HPPD or DP or DR? For real? How long time did it took to recover? (I know, it is different for everyone, but I just want to know.) <: But yeah, anyway, have a nice day! 8D

I had worst DPDR ever 5 minutes ago. I am scared. ;c ;c I didn't knew if my teacher was real or not. I didn't knew if I existed and what I was.

At least I am not blind c; And I'm so thankful for that.