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Jes34
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Hello everyone!

Im new here!

Sorry if my English is a bit hard but I come from Sweden and I will try to do my best for you to understand.

 

I took about 8 years ago an LSD that I thought it was but found out later that it was (RC) I experienced a traumatic trip and it was hell as I sat in bed and just shook and was even left by my friends before that and my mom had to pick me up. I did not experience the trip itself but I only experienced anxiety and panic, I felt after a few days that it felt strange but thought nothing more about it and it moved on the walls and under my feet but also I saw faces in cars for 1 year after but I ignored it and it disappeared and after these days and months everything floated on I started studying and lived my life again, so I stopped all drugs. I then started with Mirtazapine + Fluoxetine and I could not combine them without getting DPDR and I only took Mirtazapine and it worked for a while but then I wanted to try something else .. I then started on SSRI (Sertraline) and I lived my life completely I got married, had children and got houses. Now 8 years (2012) after I lay one night and held my wife when we watched movies everything was very good, then I start thinking about this evening and it was like a shock in the brain everything started to move it was like that it was a lack of oxygen as an electric shock and I panicked, I started to think what is this .. it calmed down after a while and I thought it was Sertraline and I then stopped using these .. then found out after that was a flashback. The next day I notice that it is still there and things are still moving on the walls I think I have experienced it before and I can get rid of it again after this I started to see faces in things again (paintings etc.) then I started to experience that I live on the 7th floor but it feels like I live on the 3rd floor it feels so close to me and everything with distance. I also got to experience a dreamy way as if I live in another world and over time everything has become foreign and strange to me even my own home, I also experience purple color when I close my eyes sometimes and my visual snow that I have had for 8 years has gotten worse (afterimages etc) now I have also noticed that the trees look so fluffy and that it is so green to me. It's autumn now and it feels like the leaves are really yellow, everything is just fucktup .. been told that it's more DPDR? I feel like im bigger and everyone of my family too..  I feel really bad and have severe anxiety and my daughter came into the world 4 weeks ago, my son is 4 years old my wife wants me back I hear every day and I try to fight everyday but not fight it my wife are understanding and are there with me all time .. because before March I was myself and I do not sometimes know what to do because I am so afraid to leave them but there is nothing I would ever do. I know everything will get better but is it so that Hppd can come after 8 years? I think it's weird .. I also got Lamictal prescribed by my psychiatrist and he wants me to test it. Am a little fussy about it just getting worse but it can also get better as I really want to do it .. any experience? Sorry for this long story and I hope you are well because you really are not a warrior until you have been through this misery!

 

Jes

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