New and relieved...

[discodamage]

Well it is quite emotional to finally be here. Firstly from the six months after I was spiked with acid without realising (whilst on a concoction of ecstasy, ketamine and weed) until I was told that yes someone had unintentionally spiked you with LSD and a lot of it! I thought I was going insane. The first trip directly afterwards lasted nine hours of pure hell. The next time after that that I did drugs took me straight back for nine hours and I have never recovered fully.

No one understood. I didn't understand myself. I cut out all party drugs which were a big part of my life but only when I realised they were detrimental. I learnt it all on my own. I presumed I was chemically imbalanced. Then after a couple years of trying to cope with the hellish feelings that never went away just slowly slowly slowly faded with time, I self diagnosed post traumatic stress disorder. The dr said anxiety. It slowly faded. I went for a routine filling, and tripped for two days because of the anaesthetic. And now I am scared that I can. Ever have it again. I need more fillings and I want to have children. What the hell am I going to do?

Still it lingers, I can't ever just relax I have to keep my brain busy. If I'm hungover or sleep deprived it rears its ugly head.

Is there hope? I dont want to take medication, I'm so scared

[zukov]

Many say it is counterproductive, but research on the subject generates a lot of pain but also makes you feel you are not alone and that there is hope. For any psychiatric disorder theres not a pill that will instantly cure and this isn't the exception. Everyone has to find its way to fight this and move on.

What exactly are your symptoms?

[Jay1]

Welcome to the forum.... There is always hope, even if you get this for life... It eases off and you can live a fine and worthy life with the condition.

[windscar]

Welcome to the forum /2.

I share your feeling about remedies and don't take them. You'll be fine, just live health, stay strong.