cs1234 Posted January 12, 2012 Report Share Posted January 12, 2012 Before I start, I'm sorry for writing this tome but please if you could just read my story and respond it would be great! Hi! I'm not really sure what's going on with me but it isn't normal and signs point to HPPD... So to start out, I've tripped acid 3 times so far. The first time was 4 and a 1/2 weeks ago and it was incredible. The hallucinations were a couple tracers, a concentric circle pattern during the peak, some things turned green, and a TON of distortions. The second trip was 2 and a 1/2 weeks ago, and it was crazy. The trip started off with a couple circles bunched together in the center of my vision. About 2 hours in, i smoked half a bowl of dank and that's when i started having a bad trip. The hallucinations were crazy and completely indescribable. The whole world started to melt, wave and drip. I was freaked out for about an hour and a half until one of my family members 'talked' me out of the bad trip, and i started feeling good again. The rest of the trip was enjoyable, but I couldn't shake the nervous, anxious feeling. The circles came back off and on for the next 3 days. I saw them with open and close eyes. They were kind of annoying, but nothing too bad and I just thought that the acid hadn't left my system yet and sure enough after 3 days (which is the maximum time acid stays in the body) the circles stopped. The third and most recent trip was 1 and a 1/2 weeks ago. The huddle of circles came back and were pretty big this time, and it stayed with me the whole time. Everything was really bright and lights had a big rainbow aura around them (this was a first for me). The anxious feeling came back from the last trip, and the trip almost turned sour when I had a hot flash (fortunately I stepped outside and prevented the bad trip though). The anxiety stayed with me the whole time. The acid pretty much kept me up all night and for the last 3 hours before I went to sleep I felt incredibly enlightened and to be honest, the feeling was kind of indescribable Ever since then, for the last 1 and a 1/2 weeks, the circles have come back off and on. Sometimes the circles are really big and sometimes they're small. They get worse in the dark and when ever I start to panic. To describe them in more depth, its a bunch of really small circles huddled together with a ring of concentric circles around them. They're in the center of my vision and they aren't that big. Sometimes when I focus on the circles it seems like they are moving inwards/outwards or flashing. I can also see through them. I try not to think about them because I don't even notice them when I don't think about it. In the morning I usually don't even see them at all, and they just come back later in the day. I've also noticed that lights have an aura around them, but not as big or as intense as the auras around lights I saw on acid. Anyways, these circles are a huge source of anxiety for me, and the anxiety just gets worse the longer the circles don't go away. I don't feel like myself anymore and I just want them to go away. I constantly live in fear of a couple things: a)the circles get bigger b)the circles won't go away c)I'm gonna go crazy It's also worth mentioning that the day after the last trip, I smoked some grandaddy purp and the circles got really big. The other times I smoked the circles were the same as when I'm sober. I smoke weed 0-3 times a week and I'd rather not give it up. The circles totally don't get in the way of my life, like I said before they're just annoying and cause a lot of anxiety. I'm 16 years old and frightened. I don't know what to do or who to go to, all I want is for the circles to stop. Any advice on how long they will stay or how to get rid of them will help so please any responses would be great! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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