Schizo699 Posted March 6, 2019 Report Share Posted March 6, 2019 Tried psychedelic exactly 3 years ago. Died right after. Lost all my thoughts, for a year I could not speak. Since then I am fully unconsciouss. I don't know where I am, who I am, I don not exist. Don't have subjective reality. This is Agony. Have been 4 times in psychiatric hospital and 4 times in jail. Also, all 3 years I have been homeless... This is the most bizarre experience that you can ever imagine. I don't have beliefs, personality, past memories, I am left with my body, there is no one inside anymore. I tried 6 meds so far, maybe in next few months doctor will give me Keppra, this will be the last shot. After that I will be 99% sure I will be like this forever... Before ego death I was already a vegetable, I had the most severe, life long mental disorder, I have been living in a limbo. I could not accept it so I decidec for the last resort which was psychedelics... That's all I wanted to post Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jay1 Posted March 6, 2019 Report Share Posted March 6, 2019 Sorry to hear this, sounds very scary. Do you have any visuals disorders, or is this dpdr? What meds have you been put on? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Schizo699 Posted March 7, 2019 Author Report Share Posted March 7, 2019 DP/DR Wenlafaxine, Sertraline, Mirtazapine, Citalopram, Olanzapine, Quetiapine, Tried Lamotrigine once (got heart pains and stopped) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jimmy Posted December 16, 2022 Report Share Posted December 16, 2022 What disorder do u have before ego death? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Fawkinchit Posted December 19, 2022 Report Share Posted December 19, 2022 Damn bro, sorry about your condition. I think what you have just described might actually be the most extent symptoms I have come across. You have my deepest sympathies, I wish humans were more understanding, but they are not. I hope you stick around and post here more. We're all trying to find a better solution to all this. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jh875 Posted December 19, 2022 Report Share Posted December 19, 2022 He hasn't visited this forum in many years. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
AF44 Posted August 18 Report Share Posted August 18 On 3/6/2019 at 3:39 AM, Schizo699 said: Tried psychedelic exactly 3 years ago. Died right after. Lost all my thoughts, for a year I could not speak. Since then I am fully unconsciouss. I don't know where I am, who I am, I don not exist. Don't have subjective reality. This is Agony. Have been 4 times in psychiatric hospital and 4 times in jail. Also, all 3 years I have been homeless... This is the most bizarre experience that you can ever imagine. I don't have beliefs, personality, past memories, I am left with my body, there is no one inside anymore. I tried 6 meds so far, maybe in next few months doctor will give me Keppra, this will be the last shot. After that I will be 99% sure I will be like this forever... Before ego death I was already a vegetable, I had the most severe, life long mental disorder, I have been living in a limbo. I could not accept it so I decidec for the last resort which was psychedelics... That's all I wanted to Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
AF44 Posted August 18 Report Share Posted August 18 Just now, AF44 said: On 3/6/2019 at 3:39 AM, Schizo699 said: Tried psychedelic exactly 3 years ago. Died right after. Lost all my thoughts, for a year I could not speak. Since then I am fully unconsciouss. I don't know where I am, who I am, I don not exist. Don't have subjective reality. This is Agony. Have been 4 times in psychiatric hospital and 4 times in jail. Also, all 3 years I have been homeless... This is the most bizarre experience that you can ever imagine. I don't have beliefs, personality, past memories, I am left with my body, there is no one inside anymore. I tried 6 meds so far, maybe in next few months doctor will give me Keppra, this will be the last shot. After that I will be 99% sure I will be like this forever... Before ego death I was already a vegetable, I had the most severe, life long mental disorder, I have been living in a limbo. I could not accept it so I decidec for the last resort which was psychedelics... That's all I wanted to Expand Hello, I’m really sorry to hear about your terrible symptoms. There is something called Cotard Delusion. I thought of it when I was reading your post and looked it up. I can’t figure out how to send the article or whatever, but it’s healthline Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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