alice-acid

im telling you that isnt the uk too pretty

and yeah it was well good mandy (im gna call u that always haha its easier)

seeing as i don't really have many hobbies ): i thought i'd post one of me when im out, with afew mates, as well as J:Kenzo, and Distance

2 fuckin sick djs/producers that i met at once wahaay

this is after i got HPPD, but im still out clubbing, just sober for a change and i still managed to have fun

HPPD doesnt have to take your social life away

i do look ridiculous though

you can apparently get salvia in a hash / resin type form

i dont think in any sense weed could make you react like that, it just doesnt have the hallucinagenic strength if you get me

doesnt seem realistic

what did your friends say they felt/saw?

i got that in the first few months but it went away near the beginning, proper acid style stuff as well

i once or twice a week i;d say and it doesnt effect my hppd in the long run, just on the hangover day

i think it's fine to drink as long as you arent having a horrible time the next day. but like jay said i'd maybe not drink to the point of blackin out every time that might cause issues i;d say

i believe this is very possibly something that might work

my BPD is also linked to PTSD as well as anxiety and various dissociative symptoms, and i have aid on this site before that i think without my BPD i dont think i'd have this either, like i have a certain part of my brain (that i cant remember the name of) that is alot more vulnerable than most peoples

maybe thats the case for us all, and ppl with PTSD etc!

very intersting thankyou ;D

i know where i'd be without this site

probably still with severe hppd because i never found a cause and therefore the anxiety never started to improve

seein as my doctor ignored me pretty much and i was near to giving up!

yh yh its mxe, its a terrible drug everyone i know that took it never touched it again

haha mdma is like being on a much better version of mephadrone tbh, much more euphoric and happy and energetic

noo its a time when i dont even remember hppd exists, i would trip out more than ever when hungover though

i researched abit into starbursting when i saw this apparently its an occasional side effect of lazer eye surgery o.O

how can starbursting be caused by 2 such unrelated things, maybe it suggests damage to our eyes?

i think its very possible it happens for 50 % of people because i didnt come on this site until i'd had it for like half a year or something a little more i think its hard to find out about hppd without a long time of researching

and mines about 95% gone to be honest i hav bad days sometimes, if im hungover for example but even theyre 10000 times better than the best days when it first started. i think it'll slowly dissappear completely

ew no not mephadrone mdma is well better!

not really much dp/dr no

mild dp on bad days i think but ive had various dissociative symptoms from my bpd since i was about 13 so it concerns me less than my other symptoms

it probably is playing with fire if im honest so i pretty much never do it any more

i also tried tegratol and it took about 1500mgs to even work, but it did enentually

however that much tergratol leaves you unable to even lift your head the next day with dizzyness, couldnt go to college for like 2 days because i couldnt walk straight and had double vision

codiene was behind what might have been my worst ever hppd day. i fell over and seriously hurt my neck and thats what they gave me at the hospital, didnt even consider that it might affect my symptoms, so i took quite afew, i had just been given free codiene after all

drugs dont seem to worsen my visuals at all in the long term. even mdma, it does make them stronger while im wired though, but im wired so i dont care at all ;D still dont ever rly take it any more seems like i'd be playin with fire after what everyone else has said about it. and ket doesnt either, yay for meeee

looks like my kind of festival i wish i could have gone! ): beatherder for me tho this year i think!

that was a beautiful song but not really my taste ;P

naah i dont see coke or speed as a fake reality, i think it depends on what you've personality gotten into as a way to escape reality if you get me? for me its ket of course, but i dont think many ppl could really keep in touch with real life in a k hole

and yeah i miss drugs alot, when im clubbing miss md too

yeah and sometimes in text! if you know what i mean? like the spaces between the words form shapes in long paragraphs

yeah i suppose, is it constantly? mine was only really during the evening so its not as bad

yeah over 2 years it does really suck

theres afew versions ive just found on youtube finding that sarah mclachlan one you just mentioned

thats an even more depressing version! i think i prefer the portishead maself i love em so!

its also known as the suicide song..... lovely