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mandy dont be sillyyyyy festivalling is amazing its 3 days of whatever the fuck u want and amazin music

my music taste includes alot rly

but mostly dub and dance hall and sublow dubstep

then drum and bass and jungle and stuff too

im not sure you know art is more somethin i enjoy doing than looking at, i appreciate anything that i can tell involved skill and effort, thats what makes art good, not all this bullshit modern stuff that ''makes you think'', theres no skill in half of it

i do like h r giger though some creepy art, and he does some bad asssss guitars

me about 14, passed out from drinkin tooooo much and then smokin bongs haha

ive been in much worse states but there are no pictures lol

what a fantastic idea! i wish i had more money i'd just buy tickets for loads of them

i honestly think we are simply unlucky people who are more prone to ptsd etc

dr abraham himself said that he has never seen a patient get HPPD from any drug other than LSD that didnt have pre-existing signs or diagnosis of disorders linked to that kind of disorder.

i assume this also means lsd can actually cause issues like this as well but thats a different story

all very important to the reason behind our suffering though

well is a job in economy what you want? if it is you should go for it!

and i know what you mean about art but thats only the lucky ones really

i think that whatever helps you get over your anxiety about it getting worse will cure u in the long run

im sure everyone will ahev noticed that there symptoms are hardly there when they dont think about it, but once its on there mind is when the hppd hits hard

but benzos are a short, more dangerous answer so maybe explore other options first

uve already said ur already getting better so i know ur probably quite strong minded, i doubt benzos are even necesary, u can do without im sure!

not so much thats more what university is like

college is a little bit in the middle, half mad fun and half geeks haha

and at least you learnt something from economics that is usefull, art is more a but of playing around, still fun though

depends on the benzo bigron!

and its all definately down to a balancing act

we all know the saying 'healthy body, healthy mind'

and follows the less common 'healthy mind, more managable HPPD' haha

also economics sounds very intersting

i still wish i had the brain power to apply myself to a subject like that!

well done man congratulations!

i have 1 week left of college before im done

nearly didnt make it though! i had to drop maths to cope with the anxiety and insomnia caused by HPPD but who needs maths to study art anyway!

hope u get good grades

lucky for u mandy ;D visual snow doesnt bother me too much its easy to ignore really once ur used to it

and good to hear u graduated morbide!! what did u graduate from lol

been drinkin quite abit myself today haha twas my hometown derby today so had to celebrate

dont even like football to be honest but its an occasion thats still entertaining lol

its not too bad i get a generally good day done before it kicks in

mines generally in the evening

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oh yh what stewardin company do they work fro do u know? or have they voluteered through the festivals themselves?

and yh i dont know much about american festivals to be honest because i can never go

yeah deffo get a new doctor

and because a drug history as well as personality disorder = extreme risk of addiction lol

when i took a sleeping pill because hppd was worse than ever and keeping me awake i just ended up feeling really heavy, but that meant that i got the extreme feeling of falling whenever i closed my eyes, or sinking into the bed (like on acid kind of how u can feel like you're blending into objects you touch) just made it all worse until it kicked in strong enough to knock me out haha

aah i right i see, im scared of sleepin pills too, just made it worse when i had 1, but then i did just pass out so i guess it still worked lol

and you can get valerian in holland and barrat i think, in pill form or you can get it as a tea, its also in herbal nytol

yeah i can buy it but free valium would be nice haha and i cant get prescribed it

yh tramadol isnt good i dont think but i dno what zopiclone is ? wat is it?

hav u tried like valerian and things like that, they really can just take the edge off things and make it easier to sleep etc

i used to take herbal sleepin tabs when i had insomnia from the hppd, just helped me relax into sleep much more easily

finding a bucket load of valium would be brill, i occasionally fantisise about being at boots or somewhere and one of the the pharmacists leaving a big box of it unattended for a lil while lol

yeah i just read it actually, i think it probably was abit of both, did you get any visuals? all my panic attacks these days are also flashbacky hppd type things too, as theyre panic attacks ABOUT flashbacks aha, so visuals come too.

just try and find a way of dealing with the panic, and try as hard as possible to ignore it

or yh valium

and aah another person with pre existing mental conditions ! another thing that makes me think its all caused by our way of thinking!

yeah visual, mental, erm... textural? if that makes sense

the pillow i put my head on was overly squishy and of course the tongue teeth thing i felt physically

i personally think the main cure is probably councilling or something, as well as medications that regulate dopamine levels and stuff like that

im pretty sure hppd is mostly anxiety based, get rid of the anxiety, get rid of the visuals! hence the positive effect benzos have

i read somewhere that all flashbacks and hppd are caused by the brain reverting back to an lsd (or other) state because something triggers it to do so by reminding it of it something like that i'm terrible at repeating things...

for me i licked my teeth, and my tongue and teeth blended together as 1 (something that i did the day i had my bad trip after id come down, that caused me to come up for afew minutes) and it caused me to have a very strong flashback, and the anxiety that came from it made me unable to get it out of my head, so it kept happening etc etc etc

sounds good i was supposed to go to outlook but cant afford it )':

im definately going to boomtown and beatherder WOO

and im stewarding loads since thats my job now, should be good, startin with download

its supposed to be safe i think

i used to take herbal sleeping tablets every day with it in, nothing bad came of it

very useful supplement!

and which ones?