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Jagermeister

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  1. Hello dear sufferers,

    I'm going to give you a little bit of hope. My hell started ago one year, few months later of taking MDMA, cocaine and one unique dosage of shrooms, you know, all this shit. I started with panick attacks, despersonalización/derealization, and then all the horrible visual disturbances like strong palinopsia/afterimages, blurred visión, halos, closed eyes visual and visual Snow( vs is the only symptom I Had before develope all that shitty stuff).

    Today, almost two years later, I feel my life is coming back. I would like to say my life is perfect, but althought it is not... It wasnt before hppd!!! I'm neutral at this point... I feel in my way again dudes. I have met a wonderful woman who have hppd with two childs... I have moved my self around 1300km to met her and her family... And i have found a work!!(which I cannot accept because she have broke with her bf and her little childs need time to adapt themselfes...)

    If I hadnt hppd... I couldnt met her so... Is this so bad? In my chase it is not. I met her on visual Snow grupo and she never Had taken any type of recreative drug.. Only ssris.. So... Nobody deserve that.... She have the same symptoms and she never never sus drugs... So that is my opinión... People who never did drugs can have it... So... At least we dos drugs and we got funny!!!!

    I wish you luck and I'll be happy to talk to anything of my techniques to deal/cope with it.

    I have taken a lot of meds tryng to fix diferentes symptoms.. Antipshichotics meds, which made me insane, antiepileptics, ansiolitics, hipnotics... And nothimg nothimg helped me... When I quitted all drugs(i only smoke one or two cigarrettes Per day and it helps with anxiety). Klonopin is a shit for ne... No meds help a shit. I run everyday for one hour and go to gym around one hour. Thats how I del and my dp is gone at 90% at this moment.

    Wish you a merry christmas and a hapoy new year!!

  2. I go to the gym everyday and play 4-5 football matches everyweek. I still smoke bad hash and tobacco and my body is getting beauty slowly. I gained 20 kg when I took Gabapentina 2 months. I was 69 before Neurontin and 89 after. Now Im 84 and still waiting results.

    I prefer play football to aerobic exercise because I dont like running in bicicle at gym.

  3. I have been sober for 8 months now, but my girl have broke up a six years relation... A friend came yesterday to pass few days helping me with the depression and I have smoking a lot of pot..

    I know I shouldn't... but I need forget her having a relaxing time. I'm taking gabapentina and it has helping with dp a lot! Maybe 75% or more when my depression dont hit me.

    My girl who was the only person that helped and believed me have left me and I'm very depressed because I love her really.

    Sorry fot bad english but I'm high

  4. I'm depressive because my girl have broke up :( she was the only one who support me but she is tired from me and now im lonely. My family dont brlieve me, my friens have forget me... im lonely man but thanks for your words.. im takng gabapentina and i should be great because it has helped me a lot but i cant go out from depression andi want to die shit

  5. I'm negative guys. I know I shouldn't says that, but I have suicidal thoughts. My hppd contain severe palinopsia, dp and colours (purple/blue) in my pheriperical vision. I'm taking Gabapentina and it has lifted the brain fog for 95% but I can't live knowing I won't be the same again. I only want die and don't feel that pain anymore.

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  6. There is a doctor who study hppd called Dr.Abraham and he said hppd have 50% chance of recovery hehe. Mine is getting better slowly. I dont't know if my mind is adapting itself or I'm getting better, but I'm doing things that I couldn't do ago 2-3 months, like go outside, just sign to the gym, playing football.

    Just stay sober and try do normal live, but reduce stress man. Your chance of recovery depends from things you'll do since now.

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