Jay1

From my very loose understanding, the 3rd eye is something often described in eastern spirituality. A 3rd, invisible eye that once opened gives you a new view on the reality around you. 

If it didn't also come with crippling anxiety and dpdr, i'd possibly be able to see it as an ok, maybe even good thing, over time.

I do think there is a grey area between the spiritual and scientific though, and all ideas are welcome. 

Interesting thought, i've always felt that my brain could be reset in some way by electric/magnets or similar. As you say though, a 3 day period is not long enough to draw any conclusions... Before i had hppd, i could feel like shit, mentally, for a few days coming down off drugs, even a quick 5 minute sleep could sometimes make me feel 99% better. 

I think it's way too early to tell. I would forget about hppd for a while and just focus on recovering from your recent drug use. Stay totally sober and try to de-stress as much as possible (including panicking about hppd).. See where you are at in a few weeks. 

I hope your current symptoms go away in a few days and that you can continue the year drug free, as planned. 

Yea, that was one of the myths around in my drug taking years too, that it could stay in your spinal cord for years and was what caused flashbacks! It has been debunked, one of the good things about the internet is it is a bit easier to get to the bottom of some of these myths (I also remember an urban legend about a guy who strapped 1000 tabs to his leg and accidentally sweated them into his skin and was so messed up he thought he was an orange). I imagine all those myths were born from some people's experience of hppd being blown out of proportion. 

Happy new year! Good to hear you have found some coping mechanisms to help with this. Did you ever go down the medication route?

Hi, welcome to the forum! I'm sure it's been a relief to put a name to the condition and know you are not alone. We share a similar drug history, it seems (even down to the cartoon world trip!) ... It sounds like you are at peace with your hppd though and have lived a full and normal life! 

Happy new year! Let's hope 2022 sees more people talking about and researching hppd, there definitly seems to be a renewed effort to make things happen in various areas (films, documentaries, research, support etc)

Welcome back! It's good to take a break every now and again. I 100% get you about the people reaching out who are suicidal, it still gives me sleepless nights. I'm sure everything you said or did was done in a sensitive way though and helped those people.

Hope all is good though and retirement is treating you well!

I don't really get what's going on here and don't have time to get involved... but please don't post personal websites/emails etc, as we got a complaint about doxxing.

Thanks Ed, good to hear more articles are soon to be published on this disorder. I've pinned the post.

12 hours ago, Blossy said:

At one point Jay we used to call ourselves "The Brotherhood of Waste", I do think our groups would have got on well back in those days! Haha! x

Haha, well... If you ever were clubbing in Birmingham or any uk festivals, there's a chance we probably did share a sweaty hug at some point!

I used to rave with a group of about 20, i've chatted to quite a few of them about mental health in general and pretty much no one escaped scott free... Three that i have chatted to have visual snow and see occasional tracers and after images, but it is not enough to cause them any worry. 2 of the group got drug induced psychosis. Others depression and anxiety. 

tbf we did hit it a bit hard though 

17 hours ago, Blossy said:

You know, I recent months love been thinking about how much the Extacy tablets ( MDMA ) also added to this thing of mine/ours. Many, many years beyond "that night" when I was 16 when the LSD opened a door i've been struggling to close since, I took lots of crazy hallucinogenic tablets after the initial euphoric E's started to disappear and they got all 'smacky' and heavy on the visuals - sometimes I do wonder how much that contributed to this. I actually handled those days and nights well as I was in my very late teens and early 20's and was enjoying the 'rave generation' I guess, and sometimes I put down my age and inexperience of these drugs back at the start down to the HPPD ever starting!

Its funny too, my major anxiety I suffer is of 'that night' that I had the worst time i've ever had on this planet, and the worry of it happening again - literally my life ( connection to neality! ) feels like its on a a knife edge, and i'm working hard to tell myself its not, and manage the anxiety - in general thanks to this forum! But I never or rarely ever think about other mind-bending nights i've had on LSD and E's, which in all honestly and at the time, were some of the best times covered in good music and lifelong friends!!!

Who knows, the answer will never be clear but I really do think the water ( for me anyway ) is a bit muddier that simply being one night giving me this condition I live with every minute of every day. One night definitely changed me, but maybe a decade of misuse after that really made me......

We shall solder on, and for ref, if I could go back in time I would never, ever touch any of these things back in the 90's and 00's we used to call 'recreational'.

 

x

 

 

Your story sounds very similar to mine... I can pinpoint one specific night on LSD that changed everything (microdot at glastonbury festival, 1995)... But even though I use that night as the start of my serious hppd battle... the mdma use after that added a lot to the overall nature of my hppd and made it a much darker place. 

9 hours ago, Robbiebanks said:

So did you get hppd from lsd or mdma or did you already have hppd and then took mdma and it made it worse?

I had mild hppd from LSD, then started taking mdma and made it severe. 

What about something like Pregabelin? 

You've provided one sentence worth of information, so it is very hard to say.

Speak to a proper doctor, try a higher dose of klono, try other meds, try a talking to psychiatrist, try joining an anxiety group, try mindfulness and meditation, get outdoors,  exercise, eat well, cut out caffeine, cut out alcohol, try all the other options that are available for anxiety.

LSD is about the last on the list to try. 

You need to give us more info on why this would be your last resort. It's unfair putting the burden of such a decision on forum members... You seem to be hinting at "lsd or kill myself" we would then have to say lsd. But there are near infinite options between.

Sadly not

Nah, doesn't sound like HPPD at all. Maybe drug induced panic attacks with some DPDR. 

Not sure SSRIs are a wise move though. As these are sporadic episodes, i would just ask for a fast acting anti anxiety med like Xanax for when they occur (just be very sensible with them).

I can't see smoking being anything but bad for you if you had a bad reaction to edibles. If you do go ahead, my only suggestion is to go for a strain that is very high in CBD and low in THC.

I have smoked weed a few times post-hppd and it's always been a horrible experience. I get the allure though!

I've been on it for a month or so after my anxiety went totally out of control...

My anxiety has since gone down but my dpdr and visuals are slightly higher. Trying to determine if the pros outweigh the cons. The cons are currently manageable, so will try another month.

I'm interested in this, as i live a long way from a city though, it is a bit difficult. If more people get success though, I will find a way

I get this too, it's one of the few symptoms I don't hate, as I just sit back and almost meditate to their movement as i try and sleep. 

Chill our @Fawkinchit ... Help the OP understand where they got it wrong rather than berating them.

BTW - HPPD is a disorder, not a disease.