Purgatory Posted March 5 Report Share Posted March 5 Okay so for a background of why I think I may have HPPD. I've been a pretty consistent cannabis smoker for a little under a year and a few weeks ago I bought some mushrooms (about 3.5 grams). The first few doses I took where micro doses and over the course of a few days leading up to me taking a decent dose (1 gram) I took a micro dose probably every day. Eventually I took a dose of 1 gram, these where some strong shrooms as well (albino penis envy) after taking the dose I did experience some anxiety but never enough to reach the point of panic attack thanks to my girlfriend being my trip sitter calming my down, the only visual affects I experienced where slight morphing of things, the most prominent rememberable one being the dark gaps in between my girlfriends closet expanding and shrinking in thickness. after the trip calmed down, I didn't notice any changes with my vision, I still had some shrooms left over and decided to take a few more micro doses over the course of a few days which I also pared with a few bowls of cannabis. I really don't remember when I started noticing this but when I stared at things they appeared to be slightly morphing, but in a way that wasn't as prominent as I remember on the shrooms, and it also wouldn't affect my central vision only (the direct point of focus), this is the only symptom which makes me believe I may have hppd, things slightly morph but it's not super Prominet and its really only in my peripheral and sometimes my depth of perception would seem to zoom in slightly or out slightly, these affects where never enough to cause me any anxiety and they have had no effect on my life other than being slightly annoying, they don't even show up unless I stare at a point for a few maybe 10 or more seconds and it's been almost a week since I took a break off of smoking and these affects have only seemed to decrease, I don't know if its from me taking a break or if there naturally doing that but I really don't know if its hppd or not since its just this and it's way less severe compared to any other story I've read online. I also suspect that these symptoms may be a side effect of derealization or depersonalization which I feel I have experienced during these days of these affects, and i feel i have had slight episodes of depersonalization from weed before these events, but these things (Derealization and depersonalization) are also side effects of hppd so I don't know. The only reason i really want to know is because i enjoy smoking weed, it was something i loved to do not just getting high but the smell, the community, the kind of friends you make, everything about weed i loved, but if i have hppd i know weed is not going to be something i can enjoy anymore so i just want to know the truth, if anyone thinks they can help me with figuring out the answer to this id really appreciate it, i also have mental illnesses such as anxiety and major depressive disorder and possibly ptsd from past childhood trauma which i believe was triggered during a slight panic attack while opening up to my gf about these traumas like a few days before these happenings and wanted to know if what i am experiencing could be a side effect of one of these? if anyone has any answers or advice id rly appreciate it, and I really hope i don't have hppd because god do i love to smoke :(. or if i should just go to a doctor to get diagnosed, and if so what kind. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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