help123 Posted February 22 Report Share Posted February 22 So,I have what I think is HPPD since august 2022 from a period of consuming on a daily basis marijuana,ecstasy and cocaine(which I think was cut with somethig harmful).I think I have HPPD because I have done all investigations I could,I was hospitalized,did all ocular,blood,IRM,CT,EEG,EKG exams and nothing linked to vision came out).I went to ten neurologists I think and numerous ophtalmologist(all of them in the capital of my country) and they say I am fine but I am not.I have numerous visual disturbances,that in the lasts weeks are being worse(which I don t understand).I have a bussines to run,I am only 21 years old,I must have a familly,I feel I destroyed my life.I was at the point of suicide numerous times.I am on clonazepam and a antidepressant which helped for a time but now I feel I can t carry on.All normal things are harder like driving.I am extremely scared and don t understand my condition...I feel extremely bad that I have done drugs ever despite having all the chances to live a fullfiled life........I would do everything to turn back time,even though I try to repair my life because now I work at my father's bussines which I love doing(my life was a misery for a few months,I dropped out of college,I lose a lot of things,imagine gf leaving you when you have such problems).I try to live a healthy life,I work out,I eat healthy most of the times.A mistake I made was consuming a few lines of coke in the New Years Eve and little marijuana a few weeks ago.Imagine none of my friends know that I have visual symptoms and nobody except my familly(in our country if you do drugs you are extremelly judged and I have a reputation to keep in my town).I also have extremely pain in the liver in the last weeks....I am extremely scared and I don't know what the future have for me because I have so many things to do and I need good vision......Man,I don't know what to do because I don't understand why my symptoms are becoming worse....I have done all I could,I think...Please,help 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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