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Jayly

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  1. Breathe. Deeply. Look up calming exercises. I even used lavender oil essentials to calm me down. I was very desperate and would hope for anything. It gets better. talk to God about it.
  2. I pray. And talk to Jay on here when i has bad anxiety flare ups. I also like to read the users page on here. K.B Fante I really like the info put out and will give you tips.
  3. Im20 and pregnant with my second. I got hppd 4 months ago and I’m 8 weeks. I’d love to hear about the pregnancy journey
  4. Also wanted to add I did get ringing in my ears rarely. Started in my 3 months only happened a handful of times. but I haven’t gotten them in a month almost. At the least 3 weeks. just hoping my body is going thru different healing stages which causes random short symptoms. Xoxo. Until I come back on here, feel free to ask me anything. I’d love to support and be here for others in this situation. When I bring it up to others they look at me funny and I hate that. Especially feeling judged in such a vulnerable state.
  5. I also have my own business and a daughter. A kid on the way ans have been in a very abusive relationship. Imagine while literally feeling like ur tripping balls. But I’ve gotten better. I don’t feel like that anymore, I just get visuals. My body is getting better. I promise you for this. If anything you could maybe stop taking the ssri that you are taking. But slowly. If you think you can handle that. I’ve only hade this 4 months and I’m not doc. But I do know ssri ( depressants) can make your hppd worse ! I recommend talking to Jay on here. He’s helped me a ton. And pray. That has helped me a ton as well.
  6. Go look at this user K.B Fante I got alot of inspo and tips. You got this.
  7. First appointments on the 28th and currently no docs know about my hppd. Been just dealing on my own, it seems they just give benzos to you.. I can’t have that prego and I’ve taken them before I got prego when needed! I feel like they didn’t help me much. If anything felt more scatter brained and I would sometimes get anxiety or be too lost about being “ fucked up”or “ not okay” maybe it made my derealization worse ?? It would make me question if I was okay and I just wouldn’t have a good time. I don’t think it made a big difference in my visuals. Maybe some nights it made them worse. I feel like I might have had more closed eye visuals. Which I really hate. but I’ll be sober for the next Atleast 14 months as I plan to breastfeed. And I’m praying and hoping and having lots of faith I’ll be healed completely by then! From my first day with hppd I’d say I’ve made a lot of progress.
  8. So far I have had a few flare ups! Pretty minor compared to others. Nothing too crazy. I mostly suffer from visuals like afterimages. In the beginning tho, I literally would have these flashbacks where I would feel like I’m tripping intensely.. I’d have panic attacks and wouldn’t be able to breathe. My body would get extremely hot and then extremely cold. I would sweat bullets and then be cold. It was terrible. For weeks I could barely function. I thought I’d have to commit suicide to escape. I’d have to lay down and wait for the tripping feeling and twisted stomach feelings to pass while I was feeling on fire. I’d land in the ER but they never found anything. I’m going on 4 months and those feelings subsided, ( they subsided a little over a month into my hppd .) . I get really hot when I drink coffee. But it always comes in waves! So I stay away at all cost, what’s crazy is it would happen sometimes hours after I even drank the coffee. I never seen anyone on this forum have the issues with body temp. I don’t have visual snow, not unless it’s dark I will get it occasionally. I occasionally get closed eye visuals which are colors moving or I’m seeing shapes. Mostly blue or yellow. Lately, I’ve been having some shitty headaches that are terrible. Also, In the beginning, I never experienced visuals. But as my triply feeling went away, is when I started getting my visuals.. so now today, I for sure have afterimages. But not too severe ( depends on the day) I stare at a wall after looking at my phone I’ll see a black shadow of my phone screen. Like black rectangle. If I look to Long at taillights at a red light I’ll see the lights everytime I blink. Things of that nature. I’m currently 8 weeks. I was scared when I found out I was pregnant that I was gonna end up really having some serious issues bc of my hppd but I’m doing well! Wouldn’t consider anything to be much worse at all. Besides maybe the headaches. But they are coming a little bit less often this week.
  9. I just found out I am pregnant. I got hPPD about 4 months ago. I’ll keep y’all updated on my journey!! I used to have terrible symptoms but I have been healing and life was getttibg better for me. Now I’m pregnant and I’m scared it will hinder it. I see there is next to nothing on pregnancy and hPPD. So I’m here to help.
  10. Anyone willing to send me klonopin or Xanax? I’m really struggling. I’ll pay !!! I’m doctor gave me hydroxyzne and on this page it’s really nothing but bad news when it comes to that.
  11. Sorry I’m still trying to figure out how to use this website. But I haven’t started the medication and I’m likely not going too. I’m just gonna tell my doctor I don’t like it and need something different. I want to bring up benzos bc that’s what I think I need and what I originally went to her for. I want them to take as needed for panic attacks and when I have flashbacks but I don’t want to seem like a crackhead trying to get drugs. I just know benzos seem to really help these situations. I’m gonna continue being drug free til I see her
  12. I haven’t started it yet!! And honestly now I don’t think I’m going too. Seems I’m healing without it. I was trying to get benzos so I could keep them. Incase of my panic attacks or flashbacks become to much sometimes.
  13. And when I’m going thru out my day and I’m distracted I totally forget about hPPD and I’m fine. I don’t see these things.
  14. The longer time goes by the less frequent I have these terrible feelings. I’ve never seen visuals. Like when it comes to seeing this warp and change. I can read and no words move. But I feel like I catch myself seeing glimpses of small little circles of light and maybe some weird colors every now n then but I feel like this is when I’m focusing on hPPD and when I have bad anxiety about it. It could totally be my brain jidt playing a trick on me.
  15. My doctor prescribed me lexapro and hydroxyzine. Should I take it ?? I took shrooms almost a month and half ago and I had terrible dr/dp. So many panic attacks. The first month about I couldn’t even cook dinner. Eat well. Anything. I could barely take care of myself. But I didn’t really experience visuals. But now it’s been 7 days I haven’t had any flashbacks and the feeling would always come and go.. even from the start. I used to smoke a lot of weed but it would make my anxiety worse so I stopped. I went to the doctor for my anxiety and this is what they gave me.
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