Pregnancy journey.

[Jayly]

I just found out I am pregnant. I got hPPD about 4 months ago. I’ll keep y’all updated on my journey!! I used to have terrible symptoms but I have been healing and life was getttibg better for me. Now I’m pregnant and I’m scared it will hinder it. I see there is next to nothing on pregnancy and hPPD. So I’m here to help. 

[Beefol]

I wish you all the best! Stay in close contact to the doctors! 
 

 

[cosmiccharlie]

Stay strong and enjoy! Parenthood is amazing (coming from a dad not a mom).  

[Jayly]

So far I have had a few flare ups! Pretty minor compared to others. Nothing too crazy. I mostly suffer from visuals like afterimages. In the beginning tho, I literally would have these flashbacks where I would feel like I’m tripping intensely.. I’d have panic attacks and wouldn’t be able to breathe. My body would get extremely hot and then extremely cold. I would sweat bullets and then be cold. It was terrible. For weeks I could barely function. I thought I’d have to commit suicide to escape. I’d have to lay down and wait for the tripping feeling and twisted stomach feelings to pass while I was feeling on fire.  I’d land in the ER but they never found anything. I’m going on 4 months and those feelings subsided, ( they subsided a little over a month into my hppd .) . I get really hot when I drink coffee. But it always comes in waves! So I stay away at all cost, what’s crazy is it would happen sometimes hours after I even drank the coffee. I never seen anyone on this forum have the issues with body temp. I don’t have visual snow, not unless it’s dark I will get it occasionally. I occasionally get closed eye visuals which are colors moving or I’m seeing shapes. Mostly blue or yellow. Lately, I’ve been having some shitty headaches that are terrible. Also, In the beginning, I never experienced visuals. But as my triply feeling went away, is when I started getting my visuals.. so now today, I for sure have afterimages. But not too severe ( depends on the day) I stare at a wall after looking at my phone I’ll see a black shadow of my phone screen. Like black rectangle. If I look to Long at taillights at a red light I’ll see the lights everytime I blink. Things of that nature. I’m currently 8 weeks. I was scared when I found out I was pregnant that I was gonna end up really having some serious issues bc of my hppd but I’m doing well! Wouldn’t consider anything to be much worse at all. Besides maybe the headaches. But they are coming a little bit less often this week. 

[Jayly]

On 2/13/2023 at 3:53 PM, Beefol said:

I wish you all the best! Stay in close contact to the doctors! 
 

 

First appointments on the 28th and currently no docs know about my hppd. Been just dealing on my own, it seems they just give benzos to you.. I can’t have that prego and I’ve taken them before I got prego when needed! I feel like they didn’t help me much. If anything felt more scatter brained and I would sometimes get anxiety or be too lost about being “ fucked up”or “ not okay” maybe it made my derealization worse ?? It would make me question if I was okay and I just wouldn’t have a good time. I don’t think it made a big difference in my visuals. Maybe some nights it made them worse. I feel like I might have had more closed eye visuals. Which I really hate.  but I’ll be sober for the next Atleast 14 months as I plan to breastfeed.  And I’m praying and hoping and having lots of faith I’ll be healed completely by then! From my first day with hppd I’d say I’ve made a lot of progress. 

[Jayly]

Also wanted to add I did get ringing in my ears rarely. Started in my 3 months only happened a handful of times. but I haven’t gotten them in a month almost. At the least 3 weeks. just hoping my body is going thru different healing stages which causes random short symptoms. Xoxo. Until I come back on here, feel free to ask me anything. I’d love to support and be here for others in this situation. When I bring it up to others they look at me funny 🫣 and I hate that. Especially feeling judged in such a vulnerable state.