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How was your life before hppd dp dr?


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Had a job at Google. Living in Spain with my girl. I was skateboarding a lot. Had lots of friends. Sold drugs. Money wasn't a problem. My life is still fun sometimes, but in a different way. My life has changed for the worst, but I still appreciate life and what it has to give. Never give in to the depression. It's a state of mind that can become chronic if you don't fight it any more.

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I was bound in a very carismatic Christian movement. I still believe but dropped that part. Trying drugs that got me in to this was something of breaking free. I liked the stands at tge local sport venue.

Sadly, my dreams were never fulfilled. I started to dream about packing a bag in my early 20's and just leave for asia. Dreaming about discovering all the flavours of the world. Working with something creativity.

So a part of the mental trauma has been that i an still in a state of never broken free from my parents, a feeling that i am not were i was supposed to be. Money and career never bothered me.

I am at a point today were i am a lot better with my meds and have studied music and still is. I feel ready to start travel. When i got this i couldnt dit on a domestic bus for 30 minutes without freaking out. Now i feel ok at times to take a flight for five hours without "backup".

My goal this year is to do a trip to the U.S, India or Japan. I am also gonna finish my studies and try to make something out of it. Dreams are worth waiting for.

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I was bound in a very carismatic Christian movement. I still believe but dropped that part. Trying drugs that got me in to this was something of breaking free. I liked the stands at tge local sport venue.

Sadly, my dreams were never fulfilled. I started to dream about packing a bag in my early 20's and just leave for asia. Dreaming about discovering all the flavours of the world. Working with something creativity.

So a part of the mental trauma has been that i an still in a state of never broken free from my parents, a feeling that i am not were i was supposed to be. Money and career never bothered me.

I am at a point today were i am a lot better with my meds and have studied music and still is. I feel ready to start travel. When i got this i couldnt dit on a domestic bus for 30 minutes without freaking out. Now i feel ok at times to take a flight for five hours without "backup".

My goal this year is to do a trip to the U.S, India or Japan. I am also gonna finish my studies and try to make something out of it. Dreams are worth waiting for.

 

Japan sounds fun! Lets go on a HPPD team-building :)

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About to become senior programmer, worked tirelessly on music, went gym stoned 5 days a week and running after.. not as bad as many peoples stories who my heart goes out to, 2c-i seems to be a big contributor I hope you guys get better. I've not come across one satisfying hppd full recovery story yet, stay away from all psychedelics for their incurable nature if things go wrong. 

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Mine has been pretty rough the whole way through.

 

I had a good childhood but had some anger issues.  Pre-teen and teen years were filled with anxiety and depression (the depression continues- the anxiety is mostly related to my HPPD/DR).  In my early adulthood I got into hard drugs and got HPPD.  Been up and down from there.

 

I think of getting HPPD as part of a continuum of my mental health struggles.  It's a hard road.

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