OZZZ Posted September 26, 2014 Report Share Posted September 26, 2014 Hello, I'm 36 years old, am an ultrasound tech, have experimented with drugs in the past when I was younger but stopped everything other then alcohol on the weekends for over a decade. A few months ago (july 20th) it was my brother in laws 40th bday and neither of us had done any kinds of drugs for a long time. He recently got married and is having a baby on the way, he wanted one last horrah so to speak as we were friends when we were younger. we decided to eat some mushrooms. I think it was around 3 grams or so. The night was ok ended up getting pretty intense but I white knuckled my way through it. Heres the weird thing that i feel is important, I was fine for a month or a month and a half after! Took a trip to see my grandparents with my girlfriend, working on my house... Normal stuff, I was fine. Looking back I was very restless and I had previously had trouble sleeping for over a year but i really believe it was due to a drinking lots of coffee. I had developed a bad coffee habit over the last year or so. Anywhere from 2-6 cups of strong coffee a day or sometimes 4 shots of espresso in a sitting. My memory is foggy ATM but I don't recall having any issues until I got an anxiety attack one day working in the yard. Still though,even after I felt "ok". I decided to cold turkey the coffee and stopped the next day. That's when shit hit the fan. I have had severe symptoms ever since and I'm scared to death. Its been 3 weeks or so,and the days are tolerable but I'm dizzy. At night i have crawling visual hallucinations when I look at flat surfaces, get crawling OEV's and without sleep for almost three weeks the trip to the grocery store an hour ago was hard. No social anxiety really, but everything is just so bright and audible hallucinations don't help. When it gets dark it becomes UNBEARABLE. I can't sleep,I'm trying not to take anything to knock me out because I read on this forum its better to be clean and like I said, I haven't used anything for over a decade previous to this. I had surgery last year they have me hydrocodone, I did take even one through the whole recovery. I've always worked out quite a bit and do feel better, but when it gets time to sleep the electric buzz grows stronger and stronger, thoughts loop faster and faster, and the ringing in my ears becomes deafining. I sat shaking for 4 hours straight last night. I'm sooooo scared and try to calm myself down, and I can sometimes, but other times it consumes me and I sit shaking in an electric vibration that rips apart my soul. I've been scared to go seek help, due to how it occurred but more prominently I'm worried about my job finding out or it leaking into the community. Front desk and medical assistant personnel are chatty Kathy's and I don't believe for one second anyone cares about HIPPA when it cones to juicy gossip. I've taken .25 mg of xanax that a concerned friend gave me, that seems to help, but after taking it 3 days in a row I was having weird thoughts so I'm not sure I want to try it again. Last night I took some nyquil, it put me down and allowed me to sleep but today things seem worse. I'm exhausted, getting delirious somehow I'm ok to do my job but nights are horrific. With all that being said,when I workout,for a few hours after I feel almost normal so I'm hopeful I may be lucky and have this go away. I've consulted a MD and told her about the anxiety and coffee but not the mushrooms She's running labs, waiting for the results. She referred me to a naturopathic MD. I didn't tell her about the mushrooms either but she gave me an herbal cortisol blocker (ashwaganda) to take at night and an herbal adrenal and liver support product. She even called me to check on me today and says I should go to medical school,she says she thinks I'm to smart to be in ultrasound my whole life. I joked with her today and said let me get my brain better and we'll talk. Little does she know.... I wasn't joking. At this point I don't think I'm gonna make it through this without help, and am considering confiding in her and see if she has any ideas. I called two psychologists today and left messages but no returned calls. If I get really drunk it all goes away for about three days, but then comes back with a vengeance. Because of the dramatic reduction in symptoms when I exercise, I'm hopeful I can exercise my way out of it, but I'm not gonna be able to if I can't sleep. The daytime dizziness and off kilted feelings are bearable,but the raging inferno that appears at night is wearing me down night by night. Please, please tell me how you guys get to sleep? Is there anything I can take. If I have to I might take the xanax again tonight. I know I shouldn't, and I don't want to delay recovery, but I'm getting close to my breaking point. 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Create an account or sign in to comment
You need to be a member in order to leave a comment
Create an account
Sign up for a new account in our community. It's easy!Register a new account
Already have an account? Sign in here.Sign In Now