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Hey man. I too have that extreme pareidolia. When you look in your jeans is it only faces you see or can they have bodies too? 

8 hours ago, MadDoc said:

I realize my visuals aren't real and I've never been delusional.   At times they're wearing and at times entertaining.  It's just who I am and I don't worry about it much anymore.  The strange thing is that when I'm focused (driving, working, etc) I don't notice any visuals.  

It's good to hear that your symptoms have subsided some.  That's a really positive sign!

Do you have visual snow? 

10 minutes ago, MadDoc said:

I had some visuals after my first trip but only when I smoked cannabis.  At first they were "isolated".  I'd see one or a group of strange shapes and then it would go away.  I remember seeing them on speaker covers, my jeans, carpets, etc. So, to answer your question, It was before my heavy psychedelics consumption.    

Thx Doc! My drug days are definitely over. But im still able to see patterns in stuff if i allow my brain to recognize it. In a way i dont exactly see that as a bad thing other than the fact my mind is creative. I dont notice anything in trees or leaves though. But yes anything with swirls, wood grain or patterns on a wall my brain will make its own pattern. I do find that its going away. At the start of it all i could see it in my hands and in my bed covers. But after 40+ years i can imagine wanting a break. But just know the world is only as you percieve it. Just because you can see it and someone else cant doesnt mean its not there! 

9 hours ago, MadDoc said:

"Looking at your jeans I can see ... "  This was one of my first symptoms.  I would see strange shapes and designs in my jeans.  It graduated to everything with a fine grain (sand, tar, etc) all the time.  I take that back, when I dream I don't hallucinate.  Yes, be careful with supplements.  I don't know why but this condition makes me very sensitive to them (or it's all in the head, not sure).  Needles to say, sobriety, especially from hallucinogenic chemicals (including thc) ,would be my advice.  I hope your symptoms subside.  I really do.

Is that before you continued to do drugs or after? I got hppd from my last lsd trip but havent touched any hallucinogen or weed since. 

Edit: i will also say that there is a bathroom in my sisters house with swirling patterns and in that flooring i have 3 entity like figures burned into my head every time i look at the floor. 

7 hours ago, mgrade said:

Yeah.  When you eat weed, the normal sort of reaction for people like us is a cold sweat plus a major bug-out.   And it lasts longer than smoking it.  

 

You need to be sober is the only answer.  

 

The best you can do is not do any more street drugs.    

 

Some of us were psychotic or drug-related psychotic for many years.   If you look at any serious psychiatric issue, it usually involves the baseline of 2-3 symptoms:                           1.  Anxiety/Panic   2. Depression  and/or 3. Memory/Attention/Cognition issues

 

Just remember whatever it is you have, all you can do is treat the symptoms.  

I agree with this. It may not be full to what your saying. But i believe hppd stems from an underlying disorder. I dont hppd itself is an actual disease you give yourself just because you did drugs. I think its the way drugs manifest your disease and temporaily or permanently make your disease and/or visuals worse. 

1 hour ago, Rye said:

I just read your thread and I can't imagine the hell you're going through. Personally, I don't think the benefits of psychedelics make up for even the mild symptoms I'm experiencing, so I'm likely leaving them behind for good. Hopefully in the next couple of decades there'll be more research into psychs in general and their long-term effects.

You have no idea what it was like at first! I believed i fired up some schizophrenic gene but eventually it died down. Im so much better than i was two months ago which is why i like to follow hppd pages and sites so i can tell people no matter how scary it is you can plow through it.

2 minutes ago, Cjb007 said:

And do you Think it Will go away if i just stop smoking and Doing drugs and stop drinken. And start running a bit

I have no doubt about iy. I also believe because youre so young your brain still has growing to do so that right there should help. But like i said, dont push yourself further down the rabnit holr

After psychedelic use youre very prone to flashbacks if you smoke weed. Your case isnt even the first ive heard of where people dont get it till their first thc use post trip. Theres a good chance every time you smoke weed now at least for a long time, your high will be more psychedelic like. If your visuals are only mild now i think youll be okay. But its likely that your drug days are over. Im not as experienced with hppd as ive only had it for over two months but theres guys on here like jay and doc who have had it for a very long time and continued to do drugs when they first noticed their symptoms and they likely will have it until they pass. 

Its likely because youre so young and your brain isnt fully developed yet. Im on the hppd page on facebook and there was a 16 year old who got it from smoking weed like two or three times but he took a thre month break and he was back to normal. Youre only young so im sure youll wanna experience drugs when youre older, but if youre prone to hppd i encourage you to stay away.

36 minutes ago, K.B.Fante said:

Be careful with taking too many supplements, especially if you're already on other pharmaceuticals. Often times even one supplement can make your symptoms worse, but combining a lot is almost guaranteed to exacerbate your symptoms to some degree. 

I will be sure to look out for it. Today was my first day taking all of them and i actually had moments where i had no visual snow at and very little ghosting. Ive also noticed that it usually contributes to my mood as well. 

Hi all, 19th of march this year i microdosed 3 tabs of acid(my second time doing lsd) after my trip i had a really bad time(felt like tv shows were attacking my insecurities, felt like something watching me, hallucinating a white demonic looking face in the centre of my eye) that has all subsided now, and i am now left with ghosting, visual snow, afterimages and very minor palinopsia. As far as dp/dr goes i no longer feel like a zombie when im in crowds but as long as ive been alive ive felt numb so i cant say i really "feel" things. Anyways, as far as progress goes im feeling pretty good about it. My paranoia is gone and i dont have a whole lot of anxiety. I do tend to have mood shifts an awful lot(between angry-neutral) ill get jolts of happiness but they never really last. My hppd i fine also comes with a weird type of pareidolia where if i look in my jeans i can see little tiny people with weird faces. I also have the ability to see reptiles and demons if i stare at floor with pattern long enough(which makes my visual snow worse, i think its kinda like colour shifts??) Im definitely open to the idea of being schizophrenic or bipolar(i do believe im bipolar tbh) i saw shadow people on my lsd trip. Anyways recently ive started taking the supplements:

NAC

OMEGA 3

LIONS MANE

L TYROSINE

GINKO BILOBA.

I am very interested in taking piracetam with choline as ive heard some good things but also some bad. My doctor prescribed me lexapro and seroquel but im not interested in taking those until at least up to or over a year. I will be trying to take keppra or lamotrigine after the 6th month mark. Anyways thats my story for the most part. I look forward to hearing your responses.