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I took keflex and flagyl for my foot infection. Never worsened it.

Im an example of someone that mdma helped a lot, before i got hppd. My hppd was getting better, i got it from lsd no dpdr no anxiety just mild vs and ghosting And some patterning and my cevs were basically gone. So i thought maybe im in the clear? I was wrong. I did the mdma felt the anxiety pile on, i was extremely itchy. Flash forward to now, i now have tracers longer afterimages, ghosting is worse and vs is worse. Im glad i did it now tho, because i was mentally addicted to it, before i did it and worsened my hppd i kept saying i cant wait to do molly again. Well guess what? Never again will i touch it. Just my personal experience. I likely wouldve been free of hppd by month 8. Now i dont know if itll ever go away.  

Does anyone or has anyone tried cbd oil? What has it done for you in terms of visuals

Alright, i bought a supplement called gaba by now off amazon, because i know gaba plays a big part in hppd and it also has relatively positive reviews. I posted on here and on the facebook page and i didnt get any responses in regards to people using it so im going to guinea pig and let people know the effects in the in my post on the medication forum.

Has anyone used this supplement? I know gaba plays a big role in hppd and i havent seen many trials on this supplement. Its only $10 so if no one has tried it, i will gladly guinea pig. So, please let me know! https://www.amazon.ca/gp/aw/d/B0013OVZAG/ref=pd_aw_sim_121_2?ie=UTF8&psc=1&refRID=2VHBYAHDRPDTKMXFFKFJ&dpPl=1&dpID=41gIOd1BtwL

My hppd is usually always stronger when i first wake up period

Im looking to get some ppinions on this, does anyone think if you refrain from pharms and/or illegal drugs you are more likely to make a 100% Full recovery in the future? As in only exercising and taking supplements and healthy dieting, no fap. I feel like in a way it only makes sense, your brain chemistry was altered and continuing use with any powerful mind altering medication will only slow things down? I am now no longer looking to go on any benzos or medication long term. My goal now is to only use a clonazepam in a dire situation. I feel like your brain needs to rewire which i do believe it has the power to do. 

37 minutes ago, TheMythos said:

How much were you taking?

2400mg

Wrong forum whoops

A few nights ago i decided to take mdma idiotically because my symptoms were so much better after 4 months of abstaining from drugs, well during the trip and afterwards i can say i believe i know whats it like to have the full 9 yards of hppd. During the trip it was horrifying, faces everywhere on my floor on my dogs fur on my wall, my feet were itchy i could feel the anxiety and paranoia but i think the mdma helped me manage to stay happy. The next day i learned of all the severity of symptoms that other people have that i dont, my ghosting was not just only above like it usually is, but it was below and side by side, 4x as worse as what it usually was. When people talk about starbursting, i used to think that was normal, but no i saw what it really was like, and i saw afterimages of literally everything. My visual snow was creating flying cars or weird hallucinations that i couldnt completely make out, my anxiety had been almost the same as it was before. Thankfully 4 days later it seems as if im back to the baseline as to where it was before. Guys, mdma used to be my drug, i used to do it every day before work but now i cant stomach it. So my message to you is, if you have hppd, DRUGS ARE NOT WORTH IT. 

After taking it the last two days i am ceasing use with it. It makes me so sick and beyond nauseous its not worth it. I know you have to give ur body time to work with it but its too much. 

7 hours ago, TheMythos said:

I could have easily abused my script but the horror stories I've read about benzo withdrawal and the fear of addiction kept me from it.

Yet im the one sitting here who doesnt find them all that helpful in the least

Like unlucky said. I wasnt trying to be rude or belittle you, but if you ceased everything for a year you might be surprised. 

I thought it was odd when you said no drugs then you mentioned your thc use. If its something that bothers you i would cease all drugs including alcohol, cigarettes and coffee, and yes that includes shatter and bud.

15 hours ago, Rye said:

Hi guys, just thought I'd post a quick update.

I had my eyes and optic nerves checked and they're completely fine. My brain MRI came back normal as well. I'm currently waiting on a referral to an ophthalmologist, so we'll see how that goes.

As for symptoms, I'm noticing the flickering I described in my first post less and less. I've gone full days without it even crossing my mind, so I think my brain is healing rather well. My anxiety levels are almost back to normal, no doubt helped by getting checked out by doctors and ruling out more serious causes. Right now I have mild tinnitus (which I've had for a few years) and a single dark-colored floater in my left eye which is rather annoying. 

Things are slowly getting better, and I wish everyone who comes across this the best of luck on their journeys.

- Rye

Did you have visual snow at any point? Do you still?

5 hours ago, Brotherr said:

But they will just shut down him in madhouse and will pump antidepresants. My parents will be kicked out from job

A "madhouse" could be the best thing for him. Drug induced psychosis can be a very serious matter, im no doctor but it sounds like hes currently acting out as a paranoid schizofrenic. He could very well harm someone or himself, i beg of you to take him to a hospital  

On 12/07/2017 at 8:45 AM, TheMythos said:

I know what I need to do but my willpower seems to be failing around smoking, food, and porn. It's like these last 3 vices are the last thing to overcome but they are having a more powerful grip on me than any illicit substance.

Porn is f****d, sorry but theres no other way to put it. I didnt fap for the last 7 days and i felt better the only thing that dragged me down was wanting to keep watching it and fapping. Then today i caved in and i was a total dick to everybody. I couldve swore my visuals instantly got worse too. Im done with porn. 

It may just be me getting used to hppd but i find my all cevs to be fading, i find my visual snow to even be less when my eyes are closed as opposed to when theyre opened. Its like im getting a taste of what its like pre trip. Itll be 4 months in 5 days. Unfortunately it seems that when my eyes are opened the static is constant.

I took 4mg of klono the first night, no affects followed the next day. Took 1mg a few days ago and had extreme rebound anxiety and paranoia the day after. I also took 4mg of lorazepam(ativan) a week prior to the 4mg of klonopin. Im not trying to step on anyones toes but i see the argument wether or not if benzos are addictive or a dependent, and if i had to choose id say dependent. I dont see how anyone would want to long term use with these. As a matter of fact id almost prefer not to take benzos. Ive read that in most cases whoever has taken klono has been extremely helpful to them, i for one am not an example. I wonder what that means in terms of my "hppd" 

My doctor prescribed me 0.5 mg of klonopin to take when needed, how should i take it so it reduces visuals.

I have read from most people while they may suffer from visual symptoms it does seem that dpdr does taper off in most cases

This is mainly to the newcomers like myself. For those of you just entering your days of hppd, take it from someone who also hasnt had it for very long, ive only had it for 3 months. The first month to months could very well be a hellish ride straight to satans throne. But one thing id tell you is to not lose hope, insert yourself into discussions with friends and on forums(not just about hppd but anything) take some recommended vitamins like vitamin d3 and b complex and magnesium, get a therapist you can talk to and stay active, all these things will help you get better. While my visual symptoms have not subsided, my physical symptoms on the other hand have. Ive always had social anxiety tho, so for the most part i would say i definitely feel like myself again. I attempted suicide in my first month and its now my third month and im so glad i never did. If theres three things of most importance i could tell you to do 

1. Acceptance(accept this is your life as of right now, you cant dwell on the fact you MIGHT have this for the rest of your life because you also MIGHT NOT. My girlfriend told me i just need to take it one day at a time, we live day by day not month by month or day by month, you dont know if youll have this tomorrow or a month from now or a year, which leads to my second)

2. Never give up hope (Accepting that you have it in my opinion is a great step to recovery. But also being hopeful in the possibility of recovery is very important) 

Acceptance and being positive/hopeful are two great things to feel towards hppd. Its at that point imo you can feel true improvement and recovery.

3. CEASE ALL DRUGS. I cant stress that one enough, let your brain rest.

Those in my opinion are the three best things to do when faced with hppd. Granted i may have it milder than a lot of hppders but i do want you guys to know i havent smoked or dosed since the onset, i drank maybe 3 or 4 times(avoid that too if you can) i also have a foot injury right now but most of my improvement came when i was going to the gym and running and sweating like a dog. Hppd isnt the end, but in a lot of ways its an eye opener. 

Does anyone here order any kind of prescription drugs from a website? I saw one from lucid a few years ago but it seems that site is no longer working. If anyone has any please comment or message me

On 2017-6-5 at 2:58 PM, Patthebat88 said:

Also forgot to mention that I have tinnitus that comes and goes. My symptoms in high school were what I am feeling now but it was a little worse then. Thank you for the input. If it is anxiety and depression, why do I think it is HPPD? I definitely have a depression problem but I think that something is wrong with my nervous system which is causing the tingly feeling. I am seeing a neurologists in about a week. I also forgot to say that I am quitting a personal bad habit right now which I think is giving me some anxiety. I was addicted to looking at porn for about a decade and now I don't at all which is making me feel not good. I think that is causing me to have anxiety as well. My brain is rewiring itself without porn. Another symptom I have is when I look at patterns on walls, I see lines that are not there. It is hard to explain, my brain creates lines in an odd way. Anyone else have that? I know they are not actually there. 

 

Thank you for the feedback. 

Hey man i have the patterns on the walls too. Do they create any shapes or detail? You mentioned severe headaches/migranes?? That sounds like something that could be causing your visuals. Make sure you see a neurologist about that. I know people who see static who havent even taken drugs. Imo its common to see with certain illnesses. 

You likely wont get an answer from anyone who is completely cleared up because they wouldnt be on these boards anymore. But youre getting better, so keep fighting the good fight