TheGman6072

Yeah I feel happy now but this morning I had a panic attack for some reason

Yes it is the only visual that I noticed a change in

Light sensitivity seems to have worsened. I'm typically sensitive to sunlight but now artificial lights are a huge annoyance as I'm on the freeway and there are lights everywhere !

But I skipped one of them so I am only taking it once today

5mg twice a day

my visuals seem exactly the same. I hope they don't worsen

Today I skipped a dose and I am suddenly very angry and raging !

Nope. Just buspar. I tried asking for Effexor and my parents were like "oh no ! Already asking for more meds. That's a drug addict mentality !"

Day 3: I feel so happy but I'm also getting sick. So weird lol

Thanks Jay

So today I am feeling happy and less anxiety but I'm starting to come down with the flu.

I just go on bike rides to the wetlands. Nice and peaceful. I hope to move to Hawaii or to the Mountains later in life cuz the city setting sucks

Lucky ! Must be nice to be around nature. HB isn't that fun to be in. Despite being a good area, It's a tweaker town lol

Yes I do live in Cali. The Orange County area

Well I don't feel terrible at all. I actually feel normal. I don't feel like posting daily updates though

I'm starting to get sick so I will be taking some allergy medicine (diphenhydramine) cuz I would rather risk it than deal with a flu

I believe the dose said 5mg on the bottle I'm not sure I think that's what it said. I'm supposed to take it in the morning and again in the evening. I plan to take this for 6 months to a year if it works out

Finally picked up my first prescription. I will keep updated.

I often have those Depersonalization moments but anyone ever have those dp/dr moments where you lose basic motor skills ? I have had this happen many times where I would forget how to use my hands. This becomes quite annoying and I'm like "wtf?". Sometimes I would even be eating and forget how to swallow which is scary af. Anybody else experience this ?

I enjoyed the strange trips but damn it fucked me up more than LSD did it feels like. It has bad hangover like effects for the next few days. I started with minor HPPD but now it's terrible plus worse depersonalization and derealization

I was an idiot and knew about HPPD but I always had that urge to trip. I did diphenhydramine because it was a cheap high. Allergy pills right in the medicine cabinet. I would take it in smaller doses before around 250-300mg and it wasn't too bad. I took 400mg 3 nights in a row so I was too fucked up to noticed the first time. I noticed after the 3rd trip and it was awful

My symptoms are permanently worsened because I took 400 milligrams several times lol. I don't even take it when I'm sick hardly

Diphenhydramine is one of the drugs known to cause HPPD when taken in high doses. I used to trip on diphenhydramine by taking 400+ milligrams and it caused hallucinations, visual disturbances, trouble speaking and trouble walking and much other fucked up shit. I already had HPPD when I started abusing diphenhydramine but diphenhydramine made all of my symptoms 10 times worse. made my HPPD go from a minor case to a very severe case with depersonalization ! the symptoms you just discussed are of a very weak haze and you shouldn't be taking 100 fucking milligrams ! i only take diphenhydramine now when I am sick but in the correct dosage

Thanks

Jay, I'm not on any meds right now. Another HPPDer did give me codeine, tramadol, Keppra and Buspirone a few times. Was supposed to get a 2 months supply but we got caught. Also maybe I should do something. I know when I get out of the house, I barely think about HPPD but when I get bored, I sit there and stare at my visuals