r.trudeau

My room is pitch black right now and It's great, no fuzz, snow, static just darkness! Keppra is still doing its thing, thankfully.

My pdoc said screw the neuro and gave me a script for Keppra on the spot. Contrary to popular believe, Keppra is actually a pretty safe med, only 10 percent of patients feel side effects, so it's really not that hard to obtain. Right, hate to say this, but I don't feel like the only idiot now, no offense man. Were your thoughts really jumbled during/after the trip? Well, if things start getting overwhelming, get the help you need while your still ahead, unlike myself who waited 2 years in complete misery. And yea I do, know I shouldn't, but yeaaa...I get into the bezos, oxys and a little bit of hard a now and then. Those are the only drugs that don't mess with my HPPD. . I wish I would have found this site, I went insane and faked an attempt to kill myself because my parents wouldn't believe me. Back fired on me though, the people in the ward thought I was crazy and stuck me on really harsh loony pills, as I like to put it. They had no idea what HPPD was, they just thought I was a lost cause then sent me to rehab....awesome docs, huh?

Likewise! I forgot to mention the weed and hard a, as well. It is really comforting in a sense. Just hope no one makes the same mistakes as us!

Don't give up man, gather up the courage to tell them, trust me the support and acceptance will help you, tremendously.

Oh what! The last LSD trip I had was mixed with some coke too, I had the EXACT same reaction as you. Well, guesss there's a lesson to be learned here. LSD+cocaine=HPPD.

I know, I'm taking a vitamin B6 complex. Read somewhere that it helps significantly with the side effects. How much did Keppra help you Jay?

Yep, I'm in the same boat as you, I had about two maybe three good trips before the two acid freaks outs that caused the HPPD. And yeah, I think I had some personal issues before the bad trips, but it was nothing major.

Thanks dude, you give me hope! I'm stating back up next fall, so hopefully my brain will be ready by then!

Right? Sometimes I would wake up and be like "damn, that molly must have been cut with some bzp, ooh nope, never mind, it's just the HPPD, seeing that I haven't rolled in months, fack my life." I miss it too dude.

Yea, that's true. The old me has been here all a long, just waiting for the "current" me to snap out of it and carry on with a normal life without drugs...and new friends and some new hobbies to replace the "reckless" one I use to live for. It's hard to get along with people who don't take part in the "scene," it's almost as if there's two different worlds out there.

Just been taking the nootropics, vitamins and sometimes I'll take some etizolam or k'pins, if I'm having troubles at night. (3x a week, roughly) I'm feeling about 70 percent back to my old self again, so a big WOOOPIEE for that, but the only side effects of Keppra so far is a suppressed appetite and little drowsiness after I take the first dose in the mornings.

I tried telling my parents in the past, and of course, they said it was normal to see vs at night and sometime people talk "funny." (yea, right!) Also, when I told them about my memory problems they just blamed in on the weed, the weed clammed me down, helped me focus and remember things, as I have bad ADHD. So they basically ignored their own daughter falling apart in front of their eyes and refused to get me help, until I faked an attempt to kill myself so they would get me the proper care I needed. But, sadly my planed failed, the doctors thought I was going nuts so they put me on loony pills for a bit, which only made my symptoms worse. When I finally got out of the ward, rehab and the recovery house I was finally 18, meaning I could see doctors without my parents consent. After searching high and low for docs who didn't think I was a nut like my family, I found one who exactly knew what was talking about, and now I'm on my way to recovery thanks to Keppra and a low dose of k'pin. Also if you're parents/doctors/friends don't think HPPD is real, print out information online on it, forums, wiki, dr Abrahams stuff and wave those papers in their face, trust me, they will have a change of heart and a bit of sympathy for you.

Yeah the jaw tension started going away in about maybe a month and a half, wouldn't be too concerned about it. It should dissipate once you stop stressing at night about your anxieties, if it doesn't go away, buy a mouth guard.

I was the exact same way, super chill, witty and also always had something funny to say. bummmmmmerrrrrrrrrrr I want that old Rene back sooo bad. I'd rather get beat up ten times than get HPPD lol

It sucks a bitch, but Gmo, you are so right about how reading helps. After I read for a couple of hours it helps my speech so, so tremulousness much, and my stutter is almost non existent. Sometimes I wish I could just type everything out, then I wouldn't sound so illiterate, even though in the back of my mind I know I'm not. But ya, glad to know that I'm not alone, too! Also, the Keppra is still doing it's job! Memories are coming back, thought process is more normal, life feels almost real again (lol!), speech is improving daily and I would say I'm 70 percent back to my old self.

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Oh god, yea I had (still kind of have) speech problems that I got after having two bad acid trips, back to back. I have the same issues as you, stutter, say the wrong word, say a word that sounds similar to the word I wanted to say, mumbling and sometimes my sentence structure is out of wack. Thankfully, it's gotten better since I started to take the medication. But before Keppra, I hated talking because I thought I sounded like an idiot and I paid too much attention to my voice, causing me to fumble over my words even more.

I was just curious because ever since I got HPPD my dreams have been very vivid, but weird. Before HPPD my dreams were normal, they made pretty good sense and were through my eyes. And now my dreams are wild, sometimes it feels like I'm watching a movie, like I'm having an out of body experience in my dream. And the weirdest thing is that my dreams usually don't make sense, at all. They're like a billion random movie clips put together as one, and sometimes I'm the main actress and sometimes I'm not.

Surprisingly, it's kinda the same over here if you want to see any type of doctor beyond a psychiatrist or a general doctor. Once, I wanted to see a neuro and was told I needed a referral, got one from my doc, called the neurologists office and they told the next available appt was in two months. AND most people have to pay a 20 dollar co'pay every single time you see a doc, depending on your insurance. It's really not that different over here, unless you're uninsured.

Thanks man, hope you make the decision to try it for yourself. And to answer your question, yes, my eyes were very sensitive to light when I first got HPPD, but the sensitivity slowly got better in eight months, I would say. And nope, I don't notice any side effects from Keppra, unless you consider a self confidence raise as one. What do you mean by "ghosting?" And yea, there was a lot of little black stars bursting in my visual field. I don't know if they became less frequent or if I just learned to ignore them, but I haven't noticed any since I began the medication.

If I were you, I would skip the shrink all together. Tried that route once and ended up right back where I stared, at the psychiatrists office. Just find a whole new doc, if you can, as it would probably make things a million times easier for you. Also, if you get on Keppra there may be no need for an anti anxiety medication because I haven't been taking mine since I've started. And my anxiety was pretty bad, but the medication differs per person, I guess.

I wouldn't mess with it, made my head hurt, legs were restless, body was shaking and my appetite was suppressed.

hope not

The whole 9 yards! When I first got HPPD the carpet would move, geometrical patters would appear on white walls, stuff on tables would swift around and peoples faces in the dark had either an orange or green glowing neon color outlining their face, cheeks and eyes. Had those and below symptoms for about 5 months I think Had these symptoms until I started keppra: VS, CEV, halos, trails after images, the area where the wall met the ceiling was "wiggly" and sometimes color hues would look off. The only symptoms I have now are the snow and light closed eyed visuals.

I did drugs pretty regularly too, just different stuff every other weekend...until the LSD Happy you figured out how to cope with school, I've tried going back four times and was forced to give up because my brain fog was just way too much to deal with. I'm thinking about going back to med school next fall in hopes of being all the way better by then! Keep up the good work and have a good last year of school, unless your going for your masters of course. It's funny that you mentioned that! About 6 months ago I was having one of my typical "I'm a blithering idiot freak outs," so I took an IQ test and scored an IQ of 133, which is considered "gifted." But of course, the panic attack still continued afterward... You should go to a pdoc who specializes in substance abuse and tell them that you're having reoccurring acid flashbacks, in a sense. (they will know what that is, if they don't, leave and find a better pdoc) My best advice would be to print out all the links bellow. Once they're printed, highlight the important information. http://www.ionchanne...p?pmid=17095897 http://en.wikipedia....eption_disorder http://www.neurosoup...n_interview.htm http://www.keppraxr....out/safety.aspx https://www.ncbi.nlm...pubmed/11475916 http://www.biopsychi...m/clonazlsd.htm https://docs.google....1h0BMk_PjxV2nDi The last link are the testimonials, and for the study please, please don't give out the link to the study to others, as I don't want to get into trouble for giving it out, considering I paid $31 dollars to http://www.jns-journal.com (Journal of the Neurological Sciences) for it. I'll pm the study to you. With all that info in front of a pdocs face they cannot say no, it would be way too ignorant for them to ignore hard evidence like so in their faces. OOOH yea, one more thing, if your doctor is reluctant to prescribe you benzos, pm me and I'll give you a site to help you out. Only, if you are in direr need, of course. Benzo addiction sucks big d from what I've read.