2muchmandy

My family is pretty good gene wise. No shit like that, the men have had heart issues but bar depression my family are pretty solid...so they tell me. I do.t care about pd or that in 40 years time. I just want to live my youthful years without a haze of fucking snow around me

I wondered about decreased blood flow to the head or something like that, explains all the pains etc and preasures

I understand about the very low doseage. Im thinking even about valium or something just now. I need to get a new job so I cnt be having panic.attacks and all that. My worst symptom by far is my visual snow, my trails and my anxiety. Which I feel as justified seen as its been almost 5 months and I have baseline.

Yeah Im really upset about that. I need to go soon its a childhood dream. I hope bmw bail it out. It doesnt need too much cash. itd be such a shame to let it die

What's the Nurburgring?

Most famous /longest / most dangerous race track in the world. U can to go on, the bmw factory is there.

should do ot ferret. Travelling is really good for u

isnt L dopa sinemet?

see thats what im worried about, i dont want to end up taking sinemet or even a klono and becoming pyschotic or mental

i reckon wev possibly fucked up blood flow to our head and eyes, if i stand up too quick and the blood rushes outta my head the visuals go fucking crazy. Would also explain the pressure and all that, the pains.

magnesium is a nice suppliment to try, i suggest you try it

Why did ur hppd worsen? Through drinking or weed or?

I still get processing issues like wuwei, I cant multi task but then again I never could. I definately thinkni could persue my dream again ( stand up comedy ) before.my speech and memory was so impared there wasnt a hope in hell

Iv had this with red ones. It comes and goes. This is one u really just need to tell urself theyr not there and ignore

Ativan whats that?

I love how you can put a light note on it. I just had a panic attack outta nowhere bui managed to cope and stop it goimg on too long ( im learning ) my snow is very very thick right now though so obviously im still a bit distressed

But u were tripping after u got hppd eh jay? I wonder if theres something in my environment pooluting me. Worring cow I always avoid fumes etc.

What exactly is extrapyramidal syndrome

Yeah im in scotland mgrade. Would love to do a big usa tour one day when money allows but europe shall do for now. The reason I want to drive is I want to visit the nurburgring, also taking my bmx. Drivin also helps my hppd cos I dont focus on it too busy concentrating. I want to see italy germany, switzerland. Juat see where the road takes me

If anybody's got some ideas for a road trip or life-change adventure, I'm not doing anything, and I'm a little scared of doing it by myself, but I'm down to give it a shot.

This is my thoughts too. My bmw is finished now and i want to go a tour of europe, there are 3 spare seats in my car and the company is more than welcome.

mine came from 2cb/mdma, i have also used dmt once, i didnt feel any effects

fractal like patterns when bad that turn into like DMT trip images. google dmt images, like that after 10 mins of shut eyes.

when good, VS that gets a bit patterny

Its nice to do so every now and then, gives a break from the crushing depression. Itd be mad if some of the hppders on the board managed to meet up somewhere in a pub drinking beers laughing at how a cure for hppd was found...ah what a dream

I hope so dude. I dunno its just shit u know....its hard to know what makes me worse when I naturally worsen and improve anyway

Like, u all probably think im stupid for freaking out all the time but this is why. One week im cured next week I have like 2 new symptoms and feel insanr. The fact iv had hppd 4.5 months and have no baseline is harrowing

Yeah im really confused and pissed off. My snow is 24/7 as usual and its really bad this week.