cs1234 Posted May 30, 2012 Report Share Posted May 30, 2012 Hey guys something's been troubling me recently. About 5 months ago I had a bad trip. It was terrible but I got through it and the rest of the trip was actually slightly enjoyable. Well since then I've always thought, "That bad trip really sucked, but at least it was really cool to trip that hard". I've also been really wanting to try more psychedelics since my onset of hppd. But in the last couple of weeks I've been thinking about that bad trip a lot. Now I'm downright scared and panicked whenever I even THINK about acid. Like its hard to breath and I start sweating. What makes it terrible is that whenever I stare at something for a little bit it feels like it's about to start moving even though it isn't. All of this makes my DR go through the roof. It wouldn't even be so bad if I wasn't constantly reminded of that trip by HPPD, but I am. I keep trying to tell myself that it was fun but it wasn't. I try not to think about it but I can't. I'm really scared all the time and I don't know why. All through my life I've always been really jumpy when there's a loud noise or when someone taps my shoulder, and it's been getting worse lately (symptom of PTSD). Should I go to therapy? I don't really want to tell my parents, but I will if this gets really out of hand. Any advice or similiar situations? Edit: I forgot to add that I believe this is a big part of what's causing my hppd. I feel like I'm finally starting to ignore and accept HPPD but this whole ptsd thing is holding me back. I don't even know if I have ptsd but it sure feels like it. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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