hppd long gone...but still getting panic attacks after taking moderate doses of drugs

[trip into hell]

you got it from one time usage of mdma??...are you sure it havent been laced with some shit or just too much mdma...i have a long drug history with psychedelics and every imaginable substance...but the trigger for me was an overdose of mushrooms...i dont know man...i dont live for others..my life has to make sense to me...i dont know if i will be able to enjoy every kind of drug again but these days i only enjoy microdoses of some drugs ..and this isnt possible...i just want to be able to smoke as much weed as i want again..just as i used to...otherwise my life is boring and makes me sick...cause the world is a dark, intolerant and terrible place to be..i just want to die...its not worth to waste my time.