Feeling Better

[TheGman6072]

With DP, I no longer feel anger or sadness, I just feel no emotions at all and depersonalization is like a shield against being angry or sad but right now I am feeling something but I don't know what it is but its not happiness, it's not depression and it's not anger or anything I have ever felt before. I feel like I'm not even me anymore. but I kinda like it. i am actually enjoying the derealization (refer to my "positive effects from derealization" post) cuz I feel like I'm high when I ride my bike around the wetlands. I no longer feel like killing myself. I can actually talk and think about HPPD without getting anxious. All of the visuals are still the same plus a few new visual symptoms have shown up but I don't really care about visuals anymore (except for when I'm going to bed and the colors start flashing at me lol) but since I'm about to start a new school year, the brainfog will be making it hard for me but I can't just drop out and let this take over. This will probably me my last post on this website for a while but I might keep reading through and responding to some posts here and there ✌????

[mycall81]

Good luck with school.

No more drugs.

[TheGman6072]

Yeah hopefully I can manage to control myself but now I don't need drugs to feel high. I can just ride my bike around the wetlands and sit down and then I feel like I'm on weed or a weak acid trip.

[LethargicAcid]

nice

[trip into hell]

if school is too much for you just dont go there and leave it at that..just live your life its meant to be enjoyed..not to freak you out...so forget about disturbing things like school, work and shit..we are no slaves of the fucking system