I got hppd (visual snow syndrome symptoms only) after taking an edible and having a panic attack during the high. This was in November 2022, I got severe brain fog and dpdr December 2022, and visual symptoms January 2022.
Now it's October 2023 and I have had improvement in my depersonalization, but not my visuals, derealization, or severe brain fog. My worst symptoms are mental ones as I'm so slow it's hell on earth, I don't care about my visuals anymore.
Does this post mean that my mental symptoms could be permanent? It makes me so depressed knowing I could've destroyed my entire life and future with an edible. The most important thing to me was my cognition and now my memory is so bad I can hardly remember something from a few hours ago, literally feels like theres a fog/wall in the way. Thinking about staying in this zombie state forever makes me suicidal:(