Lambchop23

Back on here 1st time since my last post a few months back. I see a valid debate comparing symptom free or acceptance and I think acceptance is ambiguous. Do I still have the occasional tracer yes, visual snow no. But my post really dealt with for me what was the unbearable parts of this disease which was the Anxiety, dp/dr, and feeling like I’m always 5 mins away from tripping. So am I HPPD free by the terms I see here I guess not. But does this hold me back whatsoever no. And it had me not leaving my room for a year. So I think relativity is important when reviewing this disease. Yes I have floaters but tbh I will sign up for that 10/10 times as opposed to feeling ur going insane. So idk if this clarifies but I stayed away from weed and negative thinking and indulging myself in the victim mentality and things got better. All of the major ailments of this disease are gone for me and I did that facing them head on and making myself uncomfortable ( cheesy, I know) but what’s the alternative?… so to me coming from Hopeless to fully functioning as I was before is a Success to me.. wish you all well I won’t be back on here for a few more months

Holy Shit. Can’t believe I’m finally posting something after reading this thread for years. Feel like I owe it to people tho. long story short lol did acid once nightmare bad trip. Thought all was good month later smoked a ton went right back into the trip. Best way to explain it I was in the shadow realm while my body seemed to continue moving not by my direction. I know absolutely fucked. I was the biggest pot head ever very much engrained in me, smoked all the time after work. So just the fact I couldn’t smoke anymore was terrible but than as my anxiety increased I started having panic attacks without smoking just thinking of omg I hope I don’t start tripping outta nowhere. Tracers, floaters, whole 9. Very very bad depersonalization. I type this to say I went thru it. Heavy heavy Xanax use was the only way I could leave my house, OxyContin just to enjoy a night out. so it’s 2 years later I’ve cut the drugs out, occasional Xanax when I feel uneasy. Work on Wall Street ( very stressful, very testing) but you know what I stopped feeling like a victim although my life was in shambles. my advice please please monitor your thoughts, content you consume and please don’t fucking smoke weed.( IK it’s heart breaking) I still am anxious at times but through focusing on work, laying off drugs, and attacking challenges head on my life is 1000X better than it was even 8-12 months ago. hope this helps someone, lord knows this took almost a year to have the guts to post