SlavicPsychonaut

Actually, people who use and abuse psychoactive substances traditionally are more intelligent than non-users. Intelligence is completely benign when factoring in substance use/abuse.

  

One of the reasons I left the forum was because of that. I was pretty tired of a lot of users whining about their HPPD while doing all kinds of irrational risky behavior.

I can understand perfectly why one can relapse to a given drug even if you have HPPD. It happened to me a few times due to cues and very strong cravings. Others I just disregarded the probable negative outcome and fell short of rationality and biased/rationalized myself to drug consumption. We are humans and we are fallible. But what I never experienced was rationalizing and being complacent with the fact after it happened.

Consuming synthetic weed, which is known to fuck you considerably in the short-term, it's negligent. Doing it while consuming psychiatric medications and suffering HPPD is completely dumb, idiotic, and worthy of the results that it brings.

Humanity judges correctly when allocating the resources. People with the genetic disadvantages toward addiction and a low level of meta-cognition, intelligence, self-control, emotional regulation/awareness, whatever.. are a bunch of losers in the criteria of the sum of total humanity. And I don't find any dumbness in the application of said criteria.

I was being facetious; rehabs are atrocious in the U.S.

Bro, you should admit yourself into a rehab.

I don't know the probability of deleterious effects on your mental health if you roll again, haha. Personally, I started smoking weed again a year after I developed HPPD, and it helped for a short duration, then psychologically I became more impulsive and unstable than I was before.

I don't know the probability of deleterious effects on your mental health if you roll again, haha. Personally, I started smoking weed again a year after I developed HPPD, and it helped for a short duration, then psychologically I became more impulsive and unstable than I was before.

True, but brain damage mostly occurs when 3mg of XTC per kilo is consumed. I'm 203cm (6'7") tall and weigh 92kg, so I should be safe to around 276mg of XTC. I however plan to do 50mg-70mg. So I was wondering what effect it has on my disorders scientifically speaking, and with that I mean what hormones and other body-native chemicals are influenced to what extent. I don't think that a 75mg dose has much influence on my condition.

At this juncture, dose is irrelevant, dude. You're irreversibly fucking with your neurochemistry, and HPPD is an indication to slow down. MDMA releases vast amounts of serotonin, norepinephrine and dopamine and inhibits their reuptake in the synaptic cleft of the neuron....any further experimentation will more than likely exacerbate your psychological issues.

It's typical for me.

Yup, proponents of drugs espouse their propaganda just as much as anti-drug activists. The only enlightenment I experience is a hallucinogenic existence; I guess I'm fortunate that I'm still partially sane; I lost a portion of my sanity to that fucking LSD trip five years ago, and I know I'll never recover. There is no hope, LOL

Stay the fuck away from MDMA if you have HPPD; personally I've never indulged in the alkaloid, albeit from anecdotal testimony from others who have it exacerbated their HPPD to demonic proportions. MDMA induced HPPD is the most debilitating variant of this disorder.

This fucking condition isn't even worth living with. There's tangiby 0% chance to enjoy life the way it's meant to be experienced again once you contract HPPD. I don't want to get acclimated to being psychologically sodomized in a PTSD saturated, visual anomaly proliferating bad trip.

Oh I didn't mean smoking with hppd just in the future probably a few months after I'm cured I just hoped to smoke again

Lol

You dose them with a thumbprint.

FUCK THAT, LOL

Yeah, the blatant lack of perception of time dilating or contracting is fucking weird.

I keep fighting the urge to trip or get high and I've been successful for several months but I keep getting asked "wanna smoke weed?" left and right

Temptation exists in any contemporary society, I wasn't even peer pressured into doing drugs, I initially started to smoke cannabis to self-medicate/experiment when I was 19. Two weeks later I was ingesting LSD and attending renegades and massives, lol. A month later I was blazing literally all day, everyday, and intermittently dabbling in various tryptamines, phenethylamines and cocaine. It's a phase, albeit you probably have an addictive personality; addiction is a lot more insidious. Have you contemplated talking to a Certified Alcohol and Drug Counselor, attending an IOP program or NA? I'm attempting to get clean from cannabis and alcohol for a THIRD time. KEEP FIGHTING.

Perhaps instead of microdosing you can try some nootropics in the racetam family, Kratom, Kava, Lion's Mane, CBD or Rhiodolia. Lucy can be a mystical, introspective teacher, but she can also be a spiteful bitch.

I don't condemn psychedelics at all, I'm just being objective in stating that further exploration can be detrimental to your recovery, but if it's bearable and the microdosing is beneficial, you can keep dosing?!?! I dunno, lol...I had a bad trip on three hits of some cosmic, white fluff back in 2011, so I'll be abstaining from Lucy for life; no more tryptamines or phenethylamines for me. Legally, you won't suffer any ramifications; I still drive, go hunting and sport shooting, etc.

I don't condemn psychedelics at all, I'm just being objective in stating that further exploration can be detrimental to your recovery, but if it's bearable and the microdosing is beneficial, you can keep dosing?!?! I dunno, lol..I had a bad trip on three hits of some cosmic, white fluff back in 2011, so I'll be abstaining from Lucy for life; no more tryptamines or phenethylamines for me. Legally, you won't suffer any ramifications; I still drive, go hunting and sport shooting, etc.

HPPD always has a potential to get incrementally or exponentially worse. If you enjoy it, you're probably on the pre-HPPD echelon; I can smoke high THC cannabis without any deleterious effects on my HPPD, but the vast majority with this neuropsychological illness cannot. I even indulged in psilocybin mushrooms last summer to assuage my persistent pessimistic trip state to no avail. The vast majority of HPPDers on this board would advise you to remain entirely clean and sober for a minimum of a year to see a reduction in symptoms. Using drugs post-HPPD just isn't a conducive scenario to your psychological health; I deal with co-morbid drug addiction so it's difficult for me not to be enhanced most days. I do have two years of complete abstinence post-HPPD without much amelioration in symptoms without taking Klonopin.

Don't trip anymore, bro. I can't fathom why people continuously want to slowly commit psychological suicide with this condition; buspar won't negate any deleterious effects of a trip you need a benzodiazepine.

Yeah, this forum can be pessimistic and detrimental to your recovery, albeit it's become cathartic for me to vent and impart wisdom after avoiding making an account here for three years. Currently, this forum is pretty stagnant; I anticipate you'll be back, lol.

It still seems unfathomable that LSD or even an RC can do that severe damage to my cognition. The only drug I abused was cannabis; I've never even indulged in MDMA.

Eh, I probably ingested some synthetic substance being marketed as LSD, I don't fucking know! When I contracted HPPD, I was literally retarded; I remember going to the movies with a friend a week after my traumatic LSD trip, and I couldn't even retrieve money from my wallet to pay for a snack without using all of my prefrontal cortex. I felt literally fried; my three friends who ingested the same blotter had no dilemmas. The only thing that ameliorated the severe brain fog was Klonopin, and I still felt like a fucking shell of my self, and still do. It's depressing knowing I fucked up my brain on an empirically non-neurotoxic substance, and I just feel worthless.

Imo