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not to mention you may get a placebo to make sure the study is found.. imo, unless ur desperate and need a pill for power of suggestion.. dr. A is a fucking moron if he finds anything that would even help hppd at a 1% level..... id be so amazed and dumbfounded, cause trust me... fuckers a moron... he makes money offothers misfprtunes, just cause he quoted the term hppd dosent mean he knows 'anything'.. he will say that to you personally . and if you do talk to him, tell him tyler said hes a joke, a curein 3 years? its been 11 mf. wait, imo-"in my opinion" theres not gonna be a magic bullet for this disorderuntill we stop spending oney on bombsand more on the brain, cause in the end, we dont even 100% know how psyches work, how can we cure something we dont understand? im sure its his payday tho lmao, read his books on teenage drug addiction.... not a open threat cause i really dont care for him, but if i was desperate and found myself turning to DR. acid... you may have more then hppd... HPPD is as controllable as HIV, as long as you dont miss ur pill(think itss called haart?).. ull get a wierd look and theyll either say your homosexual and you did it to yourself, or like me

funny, my brother was the one who told them, in my youth you were strong or you die.. if i admitted weakness , id be a easy target for the rival gangs, not to mention GU would fuck with me more)..so i never said anything, but since my brothers nosey & knows my passwords, he read all the stormloader shit and hppdonline post(his quote? "damn i was reading a diff person, you sounded mellow") ( anyones thats been around awhile will find that halarious. all tho i do represent myself better on paper, ill still stab you for fucking me over. ) but back on subject.. my brother told um, "man he sits around for hours trying to promote a not well-knowen disorder"... of course my father(good man) was like no fucking way he'd have anything to do in the medical(not that he thought i was dumb, just i have disorganized schizophrenia 'basicly schizophrenia' without delusions of any form(for thoes that dont know the diff, it basicly means i cant make up my mind, and when i do my iq rivals einstein.. dunno why its a schizo disorder, feels morelike a learning disorder ya know? not being able to grasp a math problem on the board after teacher showed it to us, but once i get it... i master it.. was a chess master who got to play alo tof foriegn chess masters when i was pre-pubisent and i won 30% of the time... in fact i feel its more of a gift then anything... sorry amphetamine got me ramblin), and i do things i regret or feel i wasnt on point or rather insulted someone for no reason. Back to subject... when they finnally came to realize thats why i dropped out of school and basicly didnt talk to anyone but my keyboard for years(nowadays i got a great relationship with them) and when id talk to them id sound like a thug when i was younger so they were feeling i just wanted to spend more time in court then a t home heh. my point is, if ur parients respect you, then tell um.. it willl make life 90% easier, no tip toeing, no bs.. it all matters who your parients are, mine are X-hippies(well they still toke a good deal a day and my mother lightly drinks... lightly to me anyways.. 4-5 shots aday + a 3pack a day of 120's habbit with stage 4 copd) point being, wasnt that much for them to grasp... if you rparients are strict with anti-drug logic, sux but ur better off on ur own, and if they are fine with it like mine.. no change on this end.. i cam to this conclusion.. only tell people that are in psychedelic abuse, also media to get the word out... but besides that sadly this is a solo disorder, as the doctor who know about HPPD say, "the patient knows more then the doctor" and that shits rare. if your begging for acceptance... then you should redefine who you are wake up and move on.. if your parients are good people, dosent hurt to let um know.... worst response i got was "figures"

yep, must say worst pic ive ever had, and its urs, just so i can fuck wit ya. BTW-LSD,Mushrooms, Meth, Clonazepam, tramadol, Alcohol and good old pot.. yes i have a home, yes i am a bum

yes i have earned the right to say im slow/terminal from pancreatitis problems....good things always come in 3's.. switched to e-smokes. juice/v8 blend replace of pop/sodai dunno if its my high end anxiety disorder or what but i feel uncomfortable about this place now, had a disccussion with a sea SSin a couplr days.. i recommend it, if anyones addicted to the act of smokeing and not the smoke itsel.. should be fine

glad to see things so alive round here, lol.. very odd tho dosent everyone thing? i always spat what came first hppd or the website for ones personal condition.. website went away for while now i see 'atleast, 50%' of the people i always felt had some form of hppd and not just latent schizo type disorder from use of psychedelic drugs.. not gonna stroke my own ego but thats a thought ya? heh, 1 hr from the WA rain forest(where hte rainbow gatherings at this year) and i missed my fucking bus so to speak.. fuck tweak. i cant fucking imagine a better place... lame.. ye, my lifes boring nowaday's, im not here to entertain you, heres a challenge, entertain me. lol.. time to goto sleep i think, what kinda rat bastard psychotic "HST" would place stimulants in the hand of one who's slowly looseing mental and physical health lol... i dunno, i always felt i was eccentric, now i feel like the only normal person on the block heh. scary times.

Ima start coming back around here more often, ive missed the study.. But im not gonna play diagnostician anymore hehe, im over that no worries. good to see some of you are still around

i use opiates everyother day almost(well tramadol a codiene analoug not really a opiate but tickles the receptors and works better then hydrocodone for me personally for some reason) for pancreatic pain and to subdue urges toward alcohol and other nonsence... the pupil constriction does provide a clarity, but hppd def still dominates the visual field.

i had a condition called "saturday night palsy" 'Radial Nerve Neuropathy' that i just got over (paralyzation of my right arm/hand/fingers) for 3 months and the only way to help it to heal is vitamins, so i studied, sampled etc, and now am a fulltime user of them.. not multivitamins but fruits and vegitables topped with a liquid multiconcoction along with juice, and it really did make me heal faster and i noticed a million other benefits with them. i also added fish to my diet etc more fish oil and feel the benefit. Id suggest to anyone nowadays to keep your nutrition in good condition, everytime i relapse for a week or so on alc or somethin i really notice how much taking care of yourself with nutrition is mandatory for a healthy mind/body. find what works for you tho, dont need to take everything, look at your diet and see what your missing. its hard to be malnourished outside the third world, but making sure you got a proper balance of everything is a great idea and even tho my nerve healed 100% now, im never gonna stop this path as ive felt better then i have in years. unless you have a bad reaction to one, they couldent hurt anyways .

i may be biased cause i never much liked cocaine, i mean ive put oz's of it up my nose in my day, but the comedown was always hell and i didnt even enjoy the high unless i mixed it with alc to make cocaethylene. imo that up and down and fiending nonstop cant be good for anyone with mental issues.

its all how you look at it man... many people with severe hppd are fine with it. do whats in ur heart, but use your brain first.

i play games about 5-10hrs a day (its how i quit drinking ha) na i have no problems with it.

its kinda fun... feels like your in a movie.. kinda like a light dissociative mixed with absinthe. nothing i ever got big on tho. as for treatment value, i highly dought it. may take ur mind off things a bit

superhuman powers of perception. increased IQ , did for me anyway. many many more. but those are the 2 that amaze me to this day heh.

ive been on some form of benzo(normally clonazepam cause a friend gives me 3mg's a day) tho i find lorazepam works better (as needed) i take one dose of kpin in the morning 1-3mg depending how im feeling, it lasts the hole day for me, benzos dont intoxicate me much at all anymore but they block panic attacks like a charm, ativan is great for bringing myself out of one. but ya ive become so anxiety ridden the last few years im on disability for it (mostly) benzos only lessen my anxiety maybe 25%.. alc would drop it 100% but i cant drink anymore

i take them rarley now.. im more into strickly sedatives, clonazepam for anxitey, pot for stomach problems and to make dumb shit fun, tramadol script for pain and relaxation.. ive ceased all other drugs, Psychedelics are a rare treat these day even tho i have more access to them then ever heh.. the wow effect is long gone(i find lsd boring now lol, good movie and music enhancer is about it), mostly all for nostalgia now. still always fun tho, but find no reason to abuse them as much the older i get.

This site kinda felt like a hangover to some people they'll come around. i decided to come back for awhile and observe, done with banging my head against others tho hehe.. ive mellowed out the last couple years more and more, most of my attack were prolly due to my own insecuritys of seemingly having an intense form of hppd.. who knows i dont remember much of the last decade hehe

ya hppd def sucked the energy and spark outta me .. now with recurrent acute pancreatitis hitting me all the time ive slowen to a crawl heh. alcohol caught up to

prolly something similar to when i first got hppd.. freak out at such a different world