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(Again, sorry for my english) And that's it guys. I got HPPD 7 years ago and it was a real torture at the beginning. I remember how bad I was freaking out the first years (panic atacks the whole day and paranoid as hell). I believe it got better after some years, or I don't know if I got used to it but the fact is that I didn't mind a shit about the visuals. It took about 4 years for that.. I can not say that I was recovered because I've never been able to carry a normal life due to the DP/DR, brain fog and anxiety. Some days ago I took Hydroxyzine for two days, which caused me a flare up and I'm in hell again tripping as if I had just done acid. Now I feel the visuals (specially the trails) DP/DR and brain fog even stronger that when I first got HPPD. During the last years the visuals were not bothering me any more although the DP/DR and brain fog never went away and it was always bad. I've been struggling with DP/DR and brain fog during all this years but now it also got worse. I'm really pissed off. Now i'm 29 years old and worse than ever! Now it's not so much about panic like it used to be when I first got this, it is about that the visuals are really, really bothering me and making me extremely depressed because I can't percieve the world normally and this is somehow scary. I don't even want to move my hands and I avoid looking at them because I see some insane trails. The trails are driving me crazy!!, they are VERY strong. I don't know if I got permanently worse, I'm scared... I feel my brain so fucked up, so confused. I feel lost (the brain fog is so intense) How the hell can I get back to reaity?? My mind is in another world, just like when you trip. This is disgusting..... I'm considering trying Keppra, but I don't know. What would you recomend guys?

I forgot it! I was about to edit my post to mention that; My DP/DR and brain fog are pretty bad at this moment... the insane trippy feeling..... In fact that was one of the worse symptoms of HPPD for me, much worse to handle than the visuals... It was definitely the hydroxyzine, no doubt about it. I've been tapering off klonopin for over a year.

I answered myself and I stopped taking the hydroxyzine, I only took it for two days. But now all my visuals are worse and this damn trails are really strong again. I'm afraid this could be permanent, I can't believe it.. This really sucks. Is incredible how unpredictable a medication can be, even after all this years.

Hello guys. First of all, sorry for my english as is not my native lenguage. I have HPPD for 7 years. I was an old member of the old hppdonline forum... I've been taking Hydroxyzine for two days for sleep and for Klonopin withdrawal (I've been struggling with a serious addiction during many years). Hydroxyzine relax me, make me very sleepy and helps with my insomnia but the trailing vision is definitely much worse. In fact, I was not even noticing the trails (I don't know if I got used to it or if they were gone), Now they are as agressive as the first day when I got HPPD. As always, I'm afraid of make this permanently worse. Does anyone know if this kind of medications can permanently worsen HPPD? Or should this be temporary? I don't know if I should stop taking this. Of course I don't want to run any risk. I would apreciate any comments or advice....