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I also tripped 5 times MDMA, 4 times pills, and 1 time pure Crystals.

For me when i tripped, the visuals got heavy, extremily the Trailing and Veiling.

As you mentioned the symptoms go away after some days, also for me.

I never had problems taking MDMA-Pills (Others here said they would never do MDMA again)

BUT since i took those crystals my HPPD got worse, and improved again.

The Trailing (Starring) got really worse, normally when it happens, the object i aim starts to get deeper and deeper.

After the Crystal-Trip my whole Visionfield started trailing after a while of starring, everything was blurry, not only the object.

So 2 weeks after the trip i can say i almost came back to my Basic-HPPD, unfortunately i see some Veils sometimes on Cars and Trains, but only if i concentrate on them....

as i don´t have Panic-Attacks, Anxiety or Dp (Happily Pre-HPPD i think) i think MDMA is not as influencing as on a Full-HPPD.

ever heard about MDMA can give you Sound-disturbances??

I could swear on the trip i heard voices like echoes, my friends told me MDMA doesn´t influence that, but i never had sound disturbances on my HPPD.

If he´s from germany we could do a phone call then too, my friend doesnt wanted it because he doesnt wants to sit there and : ÄÄÄÄhhhhh, Öhh sry i didnt understood .....

I will give him the mail adress, so if they need him he would participate, but we cant travel so i think it only would be the phonecall worth But better then nothing

this could may interesting for them: My friend has Visual Snow too, but no HPPD.

He got that since he´s born and didnßt noticed it till i told him that those white dots aren´t normal.

I mean how to realize somethings going wrong if youve been born with it?!

The problem is we can´t speak english that well so

If you aren´t sure and really only want to chill, Kratom should be good for you.

But seriously don´t take drugs while having HPPD ..Anyways, you drink it as a tee and its cheaper then weed.

You can compare it to a light Opium Flash.

But : if you get addicted you´ll have big problems, because getting clean of it is as hard as getting off from Opium.

And you know what that means??

Headache, Stomachhurtings until youll drink the tea again, bad sleep, longer sleep, depressions.....i only took it for 2 weeks everyday, the Cleaning-symptomps are worse then anything else seriously, now i can imagine how it is to get off Heroin!

So it wouldn´t block the receptors...hmmmm...Is anyone else then Kozin doing researches on HPPD?.. i mean hasn´t anyone at least found a bit of hope ?

No no, that´s not an RC, you dont get optics from it, after bbrewing LSD you have to Bröme it, no one would do that because that would destroy the effects of the LSD , it blocks the receptors, its a antagonist , so it may helps at HPPD?

So why do the Cluster-Headache patients dont have visuals or else?

Edit: And what if you would be directly on the trip?

Do the Negative afterimages only appear when light is going into the eye?

you should have a look at the psychedelic section there, may a look worth http://boards.420chan.org/psy/

What are you doing exactly at the medication??...Always when i medicate the symptoms get worse, what do you think about??...The only postivie efeect is that i feel for 5 minutes like i feeled before HPPD....Do you got this too that your feeling is always the same??..i mean before HPPD i had different feelings and so on but now i´m just feeling everyday same....The thing is that i can´t go to a doctor here, they´ll put me into psychatric house....and if i want to cure at home they wont give me any medicaments -.-.....what did especially lower your visuals??...Did the medication or the medicine reduce your visuals / DP/DR or what was the turning point`?.....May a stupid question but can you also get HPPD from benzo´s , Mirtazapine or Klonopin?

hahaha happily i did´nt get a cats vagina rubbed in my face hahah ...But on the "day of the open door" , friends of me written above my ass " day of the open door" haha, i just walked into the city to buy a new bong, i bend down to a bong and the seller (she) looked on my ass and breaked away, she was laughing so hard and i didn´t knew why Embarrasing moment haha ....So this is the wall i´ve got stucked on, made a 6 Hour stare marathon to it on LSD haha

Uoouh Neptun are you working at Königslutter?..If yes : HOLLLYY SHIIIAAT xD Have been there 2 times as a visitor hahaha sry that im laughing but what the fuck is going on there xD

Dj Hazard was the King of DnB ,(2004-2008), Supercharged :D.....If you like Hazard you should give Heist a try, always tripped balls to his music

So my favourite DnB artists are Callide & Cue, and best Drumstep comes from Heist

Best Dubstep is from Wolfman, Best ....Ajahjaha had my times with ska too, This town....is coming like a ghosttown...

Jsut as a question: How does a typical DnB-Head looks like??

I mean every music-kind has it´s own style, like hip-hop gangsters and Grunch emos or whatever.....I´ve never seen a typical DnB-Head, does he exists outside of fucking germany?

Ah yeah Germans love Techstep, but its waaay too dark .....Mostly i hear Jump up and Atmospheric DnB, but i also love Drumstep and Drumfunk ....Hearing it since 6 Years now, was doing party the first time in my life,i was 14, after the party i´ve found a MP3-Player with only one track on it: Roni Size - Out of Breathe.

The first DnB track i´ve heared.

Since there i never changed the genre ...DnB just covers all: You can chill with Liquid or Atmospheric, go Party turning on some Jump-up or kill people while hearing some Tech-Step haha ....

2much, seriously, Thats one fucking Banger of a Photo for the Yearbook haha, just see it on one look, you´re a chilled one

I always sprayed at home on my wall with my friends before HPPD, still doing it, got a Big Gen-A on it now, this one is the old one, my omage to DnB, Best Music-Genre! DnB is not too fast, you´re too slow!

hey there ...

so i just looked into my light of my room, always when i look into it i jhust recieve those sunburns or afterimages ...but reaaally strange,....

after starring at it i and looking away i still se the light, but not in yellow, it becomes green and slices from the left of my sight to the right....it´s kind of trying to get out of my visionfield....but if i move my head with it´s direction, it still appears to be there and resets then to it´s "spawnpoint".....if i dont move my head it just goes away...is that a sunburn or a afterimage??....I also got this with the colour lila, when i stare to long on lila i still se a lila lightray in my field, it needs 4 to 10 seconds to go away.......I dont have any afterimages or something also no CEV or anything...so what could it be?

I also heard that weed has a special cannabinoid that supresses hallucinations...if that wouldnt be in ur ganja you would have optics....But no one can proof that, its fucked up that it´s not allowed to do researches on drugs, thousands of people need to get healed from HPPD, and no one cares about them...Here in Germany the state treats you like you would be "A waste of Money" if you have HPPD, they´ll put u into psychatric station and thats it....Thats how they solve problems here..just go into fucking Psychatrist-station....They don´t interest in your problems...is there a country where researches on LSD or whatever is allowed?

And yes, be carefull with this spice shit, i accidantely smoked 2 heads directly in a row, and wondered why it´s not tripping...mate, 15 minutes later my heart was pumping so hard that it hurt, i feeled how it touched my chest-bones, i got dyzzy and fell down on the floor. my shoulders and arms where hurting and a flowing pain went from upper chest to my figers.....I really thought i would die....The herb has been called Chrome...So if this legal chrome can do that, i think ur herb can do visuals and DP/DR too.....Drugs just evolved too hard...

Yeah they put it in here in germany, a friend of me said he just got stucked because he had weed punched with LSD....Maybe he´s talking shit and just dropped a ticket, but it´s not the first time i hear something about Weed + LSD...They´re punching everything, even Crox reached us here in Germany...It´s in ecstasy-pills called "Black Diamond", they made an analysis and that showed it contained Desomorphine...You must watch the "Gesprenkelten"..they´re always bad

So, i´m really new in this forum but that doesnt sounds like normal weed, definately it wasn´t only weed....Here they also put LSD on weed, if you don´t know it ur fucked up....So im smoking bong since 2 years now every day and i never recieved any symptoms like those....If you stare at something it wipes away?....And any changes about you personality?....So are those points flickering or are they just floating around in your visionfield?

so i think a big reason i reccieved HPPD was that: I was sitting with 2 friends at home awaiting the LSD (First trip) ..i told them it was my first time i taked it...so meanwhile i throwed the "avatar-paper" into my mouth, he said if i´m scared i shouldnt take it, i can get stucked on horror-trips....

Mate you don´t believe how i fucking shitted my pants, i had it in my mouth already and knew it´s too late...after 3 hours i didn´t noticed a change, and the freinds went home...

i said to them they should stay, its my first trip on LSD.., but they went home ....i swear you directly when the door shutted visuals started and all that....i was so scared and didn´t knew what to do, i couldn´t leave the room , who knows what will happen??....so i had a 20minute fight with my minds, deciding for : Going out call a friend or stay safe at home, but alone...finally i stayed home staring 7 hours to my grafitti-wall....because the visuals didn´t stopped i thought ok go to sleep....so i went sleeping and the next morning i saw that the wall was still moving like a flag, there i realized i got stucked so i was crying all day...I think the Key that opened the HPPD-Lock was that i had the trip in my mouth while i was scared as hell, and even someone telling me i shouldnt take it if i am scared....so yeah then i was so smart to take LSD again, after the second trip i was able to control it, but now after around 3 months all got worth -.-

Holy shit, if you are still playing you must be God in the game, that was Cod4, if you are still playing and reached to Cod 7 or 8 your skills should be very nice, i would like to play against you but some idiots robbed my Xbox and Tv -.-...Keep Shooting

before a month or 2 i recieved some peripheric sight while drinking alcohol, now i have a snowy sight, and the last time i drunk the snowy sight went stronger and my field of vision moved up and down like an earthquake, not like a normal dizzy from alcohol when everythings moving in a circle-movement, it was only up and down but so fast and heavy, you know the phenomenon when you swing your head left and right on LSD that the room moves so strange?...it was that feeling just up and down....i also didn´t had to vomit or feeled bad from the alc, so it was clearly my HPPD.

oh yeah, avoiding drugs was too late, i had a list of drugs id liked to take, just finished it, wasn´t the best idea of me :F

I tryed to stop smoking weed* ( I´m also stoned since 4 years every day now, i´m kind of a "Broker" for weed, if anyone needs some i just take a little "Tax" for it so i dont have to pay my consume). * but if you only have friends wich smoke weed you can forget about that. Ist schwer hier vernünftige leute zu finden in Braunschweig ...did it got better to you by avoiding the drugs?....I just stopped after my drug-list and noticed then that i have a snowy-sight (before finishing it i hadn´t snowy-sight), maybe the result of the whole shit-list...god i was so stupid -.-....

I also have been at my Hausarzt, Dr. Schlei, just told her the history, instead saying i´m the one i said it was a friend, ...you should have seen her face, they really hate you here if you had contact to drugs...

I don´t think i have anxiety or depersonalization, i´m just a little depressive that the HPPD hit me....Ich hab nur Halluzinationen, keine Charakteristische veränderung, die depression die ich grad hab kommen nicht vom LSD sondern von mir, weil ich halt noch nicht ganz darauf klar komme das es so lief ...How was your first year?....Did you noticed it got better or did you had to wait like 3 years to have clear results?

So yeah after a while i just realized: I´m fucked up, seriously.

It got worse now, i just wake up and have those white points all over flickering, its so fucking annoying.

Also i´m noticing how it makes myself unstable, i just think all day about it.

it´s eating me that i have HPPD, i just think all day about and i dont know how to stop that.

Always when i want to avert, like playing Xbox, i can play it normally yeah, but those white points are flickering to it, and that always remembers me on my HPPD, and then i think on HPPD again. Its one infinite loop, i cant avoid thinking about it.

Dont know what to do...I cant go to a doctor here because they will put me in a psychatries, thinking that im crazy and dangerous to others...

Also i dont have anyone i can talk to, because they cant imagine which pressure it is for me.

I just thought about to tell it my mother, but she will be so disappointed and i dont want to see her crying, so ill let her in believing everythings well.

But i will have to say it one day to her, so when and how?...I just read the topic "Telling Parents", but it doesn´t fits to me...

I just dont want to disapoint her....

I´ve been an idiot the last weeks, not realizing how it influences me...for first not but now it just fucks me up ...

Also i dont want to use benzoides or any drugs calming the HPPD, i dont think that drugs will help against drugs....

So yeah thats it i think, like always sorry for my english, and have a nice day