@cosmiccharliethankyou so much, I sometimes just have the feeling that this is the end.. that my life ended at 22 and hated drugs was always so careful with it and still got fuc.ked. I just can’t believe it it is so weird. I want to be the normal me the guys who people loves to be around funny, kind, outgoing and not thinking about this disorder.. just want to go to a party and not think about how I feel or how uncomfortable I am in my own skin. Just go to school thinking about the unimportant things the girls, homework, the weekend and not have the disorder feeling showing up everywhere I go.. it follows me and never leaves me.. Just wanted to be that kid/guy again just me. Jacob. Not wanting to feel ashamed of my disorder and feeling proud of me again of the person I am and the great friends I have and smile.. I just want to fully recover again and live like I have never lived before! Disorder disappearing and just travel and work sorry needed this out of my system