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you should go on the benzo groups and see what they think...if you take two weeks off and dont have any withdrawals that doesnt mean the benzos are not working i the backgrund continuosly...you need to go far longer to see if withdrawels kick in   im guessing you have never gone longer than two weeks   ..look up the kindling effect with regards to benzos...taking them on and off and on is  like waves in a pond   the more infrequent the use   the bigger waves you create and ultimately the more damage you do to yourself in terms of neurotoxicity...by taking a lower dose at regular intervals the waves are less and the waters are calmer...iv seen you advise this schdule on here a few times and i believe your heart is in the right place but the advice could be damaging...also if you were to ever taper off you have no baseline as to how to conduct a water taper other as such...this is fact... a lot of people have got in a lot of trouble thinking taking as needed or thinking  breaks are cleaning their ssystem,. its nonsense   your body is dependent on benzos whether you like it or not and eventually it would hit you if you persisited past two weeks...as i said it can take up to 6 weeks for withdrawals to kick in in some people...

To cut to the chase I have made my hppd ultra severe after 2 years of messing around trying to fix it with medications. I wont go into details but every day it feels like my visual cortex will explode and tbh i am suicidal every day. I have used benzos off and on for 2 years when things got bad but now i have no option to take daily. Its either i off myself or ride the benzo train as far as it goes.  Im in my 40s so if i could get a few years id be happy and if the hppd heals in the meantime then t will have been worth it.  I dont believe in regimes for benzos  3 days on 4 days off etc  it doesnt work like that  iv spoken to experts   taking as needed is just as bad as taking daily. It takes 6 weeks for a benzo to leave your system so either your on them or your not.  Obviously  the lower dose the better to avoid tolerance but would like to hear your thoughts...agan its not about adapting to my level of hppd  its far too extreme to live with wthout medication...thanks all !

Did you go n benzos becasue of hppd ?  has your hppd healed over time.  was it severe. I have really severe hppd and think about suicide daily due to my visual cortex about to explode.  I have been on and of benzos for two years but now thinking fck it and go on daily and ride that train as far as it goes.. if i could get 13 more years of life i would be happy  be good to hear your thoughts

can i ask wht your symtoms are   have any meds worsened your symptoms.. are you planning on trying any ?

hey man  i think i do  

Hi  I have had hppd for 2 years and its been a dessent into hell.. It started very mild  then anti histamines celexa made it worse..then i tried for a year to make it better  clonapam was always my go to but was aware of dangers os treated with respect.. The next big spike was lions mane... gabapentin as working untill inclusion of lamotragine and then boom up another level.   im no longer ina space where i can just live with it.  intense snow visuals  flies buzing around  tactile bugs 247 makes my life unbearable..  gutted as two years ago i could barely see any snow let alone the rest... I decided as a last resort before ending things to move to a hot beach and see if the weather and see might rebalance my nervous system.. every spike i have had never came down  just pushed me up...

Right now i started keppra 1000  take clonaspam every other day  and started risperadone for tactile ahllucinations (  i am aware of the risks but i have no choice)

I have carbomazapine clpbazam topimerate and phenoarbital as back up. i am thinking antipeileptics are my best chance for relief...  

Would appreciate any advice  i eat well relax  etc  but ignoring my visuals and ignoring the tactile sensations is not piossible..I need treatmentt I know some people used peptides.. Im basically trying to save my life...so any thoughts ?

Hi  I have had hppd for 2 years and its been a dessent into hell.. It started very mild  then anti histamines celexa made it worse..then i tried for a year to make it better  clonapam was always my go to but was aware of dangers os treated with respect.. The next big spike was lions mane... gabapentin w as working untill inclusion of lamotragine and then boom up another level.   im no longer ina space where i can just live with it.  intense snow visuals  flies buzing around  tactile bugs 247 makes my life unbearable..  gutted as two years ago i could barely see any snow let alone the rest... I decided as a last resort before ending things to move to a hot beach and see if the weather and see might rebalance my nervous system.. every spike i have had never came down  just pushed me up...

Right now i started keppra 1000  take clonaspam every other day  and started risperadone for tactile ahllucinations (  i am aware of the risks but i have no choice)

I have carbomazapine clobazam topimerate and phenoarbital as back up. i am thinking antipeileptics are my best chance for relief...  

Would appreciate any advice  i eat well relax  etc  but ignoring my visuals and ignoring the tactile sensations is not piossible..I need treatmentt  my head feel like its gunna xplode  I know some people used peptides.. Im basically trying to save my life...so any thoughts ?

Hello

Not sure if anyone is still monitoring ths but i feel like i am at the edge f the void right now..my formerly mild hppd was made ultra severe through antihsitamines and lamotragine ?gabapentin..my snow is ultra severe tgether with head pressure and tactile biting which makes life unearabale

Lamotragigne, antihistamines,gabapentin made it worse

Levedopa  celexa no change 

Xanax and kpin help a it but not long term viable soln

Sulpride i tried for a week  no change

Im now looking at maybe sertaline an antipshc or low dose naltrexone   

I cant survve with current level...my last option was maybe to go live on a beach somehwere eat fruit and veg and see if the brain resets itself

im pretty desperate  if anyone can provide some advice it would be really helpful..sometimes wish i would just die but i keep on fighting..i wish i hadnt messed with meds but hdsight is wonderful

Thanks !!