Oisin

I'm not entirely sure if I had VS before HPPD. I noticed the snow at first maybe a month after I took MD, but I asked my friend about it and he misguided me into thinking it was normal. I continued on smoking weed until eventually in October realized my vision was getting worse. My DR doesn't seem too extreme, although when it does happen it scares the shit out of me. It makes me think really existentially, which you might think would be pretty cool, but in reality the question of "am I real" is terrifying. I gave up drinking for about 2 months, but then started back at it. I had my first hangover since HPPD a few weeks ago, and I found myself staring at a towel blowing in the wind, only the realize that there was no wind source. I was just imagining it moving I guess? Luckily my symptoms went back down to baseline the next day. I'm in the middle of exams at the moment and am fairly stressed over it, studying like 10 hours a day. Yesterday - presumably because of this stress - I had a panic attack. I was watching movement on the ground, wondering if it was BFEP or a new symptom. Soon enough, the little black dots that were moving on the ground went crazy and were more pronounced than I had ever noticed them. I went panic mode and my heart started pounding. Hey, at least the government are dispersing vaccines! Things will be back to normality soon enough. Do you have after images?

Oh! Nice to see someone Irish on here. I first found out I had HPPD when I was asking my mom whether when she looks at and away from the light does the blotch of light stay in her vision. I was extremely surprised when she said no, so I started the Googling.. How debilitating are your symptoms? Can you continue on with your college work?

Hey guys, My name is Oisín. I'm a software developer from Ireland. I've been lurking this forum ever since I got HPPD 4 months. Since then I've stopped smoking weed and doing hard drugs. I stopped drinking alcohol and coffee for a few months, but I've recently started back - although not nearly as heavily as before. I got HPPD 4 months when a few friends and I took an MDMA-like RC, followed by an edible the next day. I didn't notice anything much until 2 months later when I started noticing slight afterimages. Luckily I noticed it in time to improve my lifestyle, because now 4 months later the afterimages are still very weak(and improved I think). My symptoms are as follows: As mentioned, I have slight afterimages that last maybe 1/3 of a second. Most apparent when I read Reddit for a while and see horizontal lines across my vision when I look away. These have improved slightly since getting HPPD. I had DPDR for a few weeks while I was really anxious over the idea of having HPPD. However, as soon as the anxiety passed, this symptom went away(thank god). Sometimes if I'm really anxious I feel a bit disconnected, but I have good control over it. At night time I see solar flares and star bursts around certain lamps. This hasn't improved much, but It isn't that debilitating. Visual Snow - the usual. Hasn't improved much I think, but it isn't noticeable at all during the day. Only at night time when I am tired. The worst symptom for me just appeared recently, and that is experiencing baffling sensations while I go to sleep. When I try to sleep, I lay in my bed for a while, and as I slip into a relaxed state I start having reasonably strong CEVs. Just last night I was watching Minecraft videos on YouTube, and when I went to sleep I could see Minecraft with my eyes closed! Makes it really difficult to get a good rest. I also get these really annoying shaking sensations as I fall asleep that build up to a climax where I am jolted awake. Does anyone have experience with this? This just appeared recently. At first I was worried that I was having a seizure :P Thanks for taking the time to read my post. I hope to be posting here more!