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stop drog usage inmediatly bro, thats the better thing you can do, many of us didnt like to hear that cause we used to be drugies, i used to be a pot head from my 16s to 22s where i had to stop, cause yeah, it only makes it worse thanks for sharing, its really interesting to hear the journey of others through this madness, and its helpfull for others with the condition to have a point of comparison, thank you very much, i wish the best for you man, HOPE!!!!

I had pain in my eyes and my head, like two months a go then i got tinnitus, now all of that is almost gone but my visual disturbanses became a lil worse, dont worry too much about it, this is a very common fase, and HPPD its a fluctuating disorder, theres nothing written to be a law about this.

But anyway check your back cause its common too that some symptoms that are not related with HPPD can exacerbate visuals and anxiety in general, cause we are in a extreme alert state of hypervigilance, im a lil hypocondric too, im not saying its your case, but for example i got a flu weeks ago and my visuals got worse and my headache apeared again, im fine now just with the shity visuals, take care bro, You will get better, hope!!!  

5 minutes ago, MadDoc said:

Be patient.  Healing can take a long time and the severity of visuals can vary from day to day.  You're not taking drugs now.  That's the single most important thing you can do.  As the last post suggests, focus on trying to get your anxiety under control.  I realize that's easier said than done.  I find that exercise is one of the best ways to deal with stress.  I've also found meditation to be very helpful.  Don't stress because a month has gone by with no improvement.  It takes time.

Hang in there.

Thank you very much, your answers to my topic had relaxed me a lot, everybody here had  been so helpful to me i can thank you enough!, i cant give up i just cant i love life this wont ruin my life Thank you everybody !  

I cut drug use one month ago and my visuals everyday are sligthly worst is that normal guys?

5 hours ago, Jay1 said:

25 years in June! What a morbid milestone!

Just remember those first months and years (hopefully you don't get into the years part though) are always the toughest. Keep on fighting, Jay.

oh! man how tough must had been, thank for the hope bro. Peace

7 hours ago, Jay1 said:

I would say the trippy thought processes.... It makes even the simplest task or conversation into something where I feel i'm clinging onto my sanity. 

ohh man, for what i had read from you, you have several years dealing with this disorder rigth? oh man i can imagine how strong you have been, im in few months and i feel like im just so tired. 

9 hours ago, Fawkinchit said:

Anxiety, it was literally insane for me, it wasn’t from the other symptoms either, it was a thing of its own, it destroyed me every day, it was literally crippling. I never knew it was possible to suffer so much, back pain from herniation isn’t even close to comparable, maybe severe pain from a tooth infection, but i would even take that any day over HPPD, its not comparable to a physical pain.. The anxiety was so bad I wanted to just die, i remember the only time I got any relief was when I went to sleep.i spent so many years in so much pain that even today it effects me emotionally, like I’m scarred, sometimes I enjoy life so little because it was so bad that I think maybe I should still kill myself, like I said I never knew it was possible to suffer so much.

Ohh man thats terrible, i totally understand you, i rather take any phisicall pain i had experienced  instead of that horrible feeling, its like you are about to die every minute but death just dont come, i think you suffered more than me so i cant imagine, but i understand you completely, i hope you get better bro, maybe  your sufering post traumatic disorder now but it will go away, hope the best for you man, peace 

4 hours ago, LaersZ said:

Well caffeine and nicotine don't seem to make it worse for me, alcohol and pot do make my symptoms worse when I am under the influence of them, but yhe day after it returns to baseline. 

when i drink a beer it gets worse at takes a lot to go back to base line :C

Whats is the symptom you (or symptoms) its harder for you to deal with (in my case: palinopsia, DP, Anxiety, uncertainty of where im gonna get, dizzines) ?

4 hours ago, LaersZ said:

Thanks man! That actually helped a lot.. 

One question though, what about stuff like coffee and cigarettes, do i have to quit those too? Because they are actual drugs. 

Its better if you quit stimulants for a while like caffeine or nocitine, i smoke a cig some afternoons and doent seems to afect it too much but, hey, everybody its diferent bro, and this disorder its really unpredictable, better if you stay clean for a reasonable time, your body will thank you! peace!

Your are very young and you will be fine man, just dont overthink about it too much, it sounds to me like you are exacerbating your symptoms with the anxiety, tahts very common, i think you may have a mild case of HPPD so, stop drug use for a while, do excercise and drink watter, have healthy food and you will have a great chance that it fades away completely, just focus on other things, and dont think too much about the visuals, acept it is like reality is going to look like for a while, i know it feels strange and mmaybe creepy but it will pass away if you take a break from substances and stimulants, remember not to think thing like "im gonna be like this forever, ohh gosh" just keep cool and you will be fine bro, if you are lucky you will be able to smoke pot ocasionally again and youll recover to your normal life again, i hope for you the best, and i wish you recover completely that im sure you will, and if you accept an advice just stop the psychedelics, remeber if you pick up the message hang the phone! Hope !!!     

Like three weeks or so, anyway my case its not steady, somedays its like im on 100Ug of lsd some others is less noticeable, i had to quit pot too

Antidepresant use to make symptoms worse, i took Mirtazapine or Remeron and it made my symptoms sky rocket, i passed trough VS to double image and trails in vision, it helped me to disminish anxiety though, but made visuals worse, then i stoped the use, and my HPPD is starting to be on vase line again.

 its better if you look for natural remedys like lion mane, to say at first i didnt realize i was sufering HPPD and continue to smoke weed while using the antidepresant wich made everything worse. Try to meditate and be patient, its seems like only time and natural healing is the path with this living hell. Keep in mind that this is only a disorder, it wont let you blind or make you lose your mind completely, although is harsh the most of the time, let the disorder do wharever it wants with your vision and dont resist it, like Carl Jung said, what you resist it persists, i hope your HPPD gets to a bearable level and stays steady so you will be able to heal completely. my best wishes, keep up bro.

5 months with this unpleasant partner HPPD.

Well its hard to tell, it changes from one person to another, many people can stand drugs of any kind anymore (not even alcohol), some others keep smoking weed with ligth use, but definetly my advice for you its to satay sober for a while at least, let the hppd show its face for you, cause this disorder its so fucking unpredictable its better not to mess with it, i was at the same point at the beginnig afraid of not be able to smoke weed again cause i just loved it so much, but man we can live a completely happy life with out substances, at the end you will do what you want, but keep in mind HPPD its very unpredictable, what may have worked for somebody may not work for you and vice versa, stay safe and i hope your HPPD stays steady and you can recover completely. Hope