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I'm sorry to hear that Jay. I'm glad you're fighting through it though.
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Loukas, did you try it and are you alright?
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Hi J.L. thanks for sharing. Have you ever seen a nuerologist? What you have seems different from my experience but terrifyingly similar at the same time. Do you see after-images (palinopsia), trails, and starbursts? Any kind of cannabinoid throws me into a panic attack. Has the naltrexone helped with visuals?
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Hi Julia, thank you for the response. My coping mechanisms are hot tea, vapor rub, and sleep. Basically anything to reduce anxiety helps a little. My symptoms are all day, everyday. Sometimes it flares up for a couple weeks and those can be pretty dark days. There are times I feel in control and others when I feel completely alone, like I'm watching my life pass by. The palinopsia and depersonalization are the symptoms I fear the most and unfortunately they are the most prevalent. Just like you, it becomes more intense with lack of sleep, stress, and being inactive. I hope someday soon we can at least find a treatment to help. Even something to stop the after images would be a blessing.
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On 4/1/2019 at 10:04 AM, jbalsa2 said:
Honestly I would say that keppra is your best option for that aspect specifically. You can always start slow - even 250 mg per day to guage the effects. Bear in mind it'll take a week or two for you to get used to the effect. If it's tolerable you can increase to 250 mg twice daily, so on and so forth.
Keppra is the better of the meds for treating the depersonalization and brain fog that comes with hppd.
Il put it this way - I've been on 1000mg of keppra daily for about a year now, and I don't even feel any side effects when I take it anymore. It's just become a part of my daily routine.
I'd be scared to say what the outcome of my life would or could be if I wasn't on the keppra.
Keep in mind as well the occasional use of clonazepam or any benzo for that matter isn't a bad thing either, as long as you're not taking it too often. For example you can easily take clonazepam two days per week, or Ativan 3-4 days a week in moderate doses and not face any repercussions.
Just bear these things in mind. Medications are medications, they all carry side effects - in this case I'd take the side effects of these medications over the side effects of other commonly prescribed psychiatric medications any day of the week, having been on more then a few myself.
So has Keppra gotten rid of your visuals? Please reply.
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All I know is when I'd smoke weed.... Just 1 or 2 hits, I would lose it and everything became worse. I'm not sure I'd try something that is a long acting psychedelic. Be careful. Good luck.
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Thank you for the reply Jay! I just want to enjoy my child's life as a "normal" person. I settled with coping a long time ago but I'll hate myself if I don't try anything I possibly can to make this stop. If you don't mind me asking... Have you tried lamotrigine or levetiracetam?
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Thank you for sharing!
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Keep your head up and keep searching for a doctor to diagnose and treat you. Be agressive with the doctors and let them know what it is you have. Make them read the DSM5.
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Hello All, My name is Allen. I've browsed this site randomly over the past couple years but was afraid share. I'm in my 30's and have had HPPD 2 for 18 years. I was diagnosed 5 years ago after a seeing countless doctors through the years. Recently I found out my wife was pregnant and I became determined to find a treatment or, god willing, a cure. When I was in my mid teens I took lsd about 5 times and I was a chronic marijuana smoker. The last time I took lsd I smoked weed at the same time and I had the worst experience of my life: My heart began to race uncontrollably, my arms and face became numb; I saw long blury trails on everything and I felt hot and cold all at once. It was so intense that I thought for sure I was going to die. In desperation, I curled up in a ball on my couch, closed my eyes, and began to pray to god repeatedly to make it stop and let me live, until eventually I fell asleep. I woke up the next morning and thanked god I was alive. I swore of lsd forever. Unfortunately that didn't stop me from trying to party with my friends as usual. Every time I smoked weed after that I would have severe panic attacks and almost black out. When I'd drink alcohol I felt like I had a lump in my throat and couldn't breathe. A couple weeks after that horrible trip I woke up to a dull version of the same type of visuals I had the night of my bad trip, I was petrified and began having random panic attacks. I finally told my mother what I did and what happened since and she took me to the doctor. The doctor swore it was depression with anxiety and completely dismissed any lsd involvement. She prescribed me Effexor and xanax. The effexor didn't help at all and it made my heart race. The symptoms were not going away. I was afraid I damaged my brain beyond repair. Shortly after I withdrew from school and became a hermit. The xanax helped a lot with anxiety but the visuals remained. Through the years I saw about a dozen different psychiatrists and none of them knew what was wrong with me and continued me on benzodiazepines and ssri's. I lost my insurance and couldn't afford all the doctor appointments and medicine, so I began getting zoloft and Vicodin off the streets to self medicate. Eventually the visuals became less intense and my panic attacks were less frequent. Although the visuals and anxiety are a part of my daily life, I still manage to function. Some days are worse than others but I forced myself back into society and I got a good job in construction, and married my girlfriend who has been with me through this whole experience. I got off the vicodin with suboxone and continued the zoloft. With the news of our first child, I found a new determination to get rid of this horrible disease for good. I told my doctor that I wanted to try anything we can to make this stop and she agreed to start prescribing me different medications to see what, if anything, will work. She prescribed clonidine last visit and I started it 6 days ago. Unfortunately it hasn't helped my visuals at all and last night I began having strange thoughts and seeing weird images when I closed my eyes. I'll keep everyone updated on how it goes. I'm really hopeful that something will get rid of this for good. Wish me luck and good luck to all of you.
P.s. I am thankful to whomever started and maintains this site. I hope we can get this horrible disease more attention and find a real treatment for it.
18 Years Later: Hi! My Name is Allen.
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Thank you for the words of encouragement. I just wish I didn't feel like a stranger in my own body. That terrifies the most.