Raze
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Guys , relax , it was an overreaction , just a thought , when i was on coldturkey from quintapine.
Now i have alot of weed , and everyday on weed is a day where i can relax.
Ignore my text ,
I meant ending my ego , not life
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Yeah well, My visual snow is extreme , cant even read the text almost ,
And cant sleep to good.
My thoughts are screaming in my head always
When peeople talk around me , i hear messed up stuff even though they dont say it so my sound decoding system is messed up to
And it always hurts my stomach like , low emotions
Need music on 24/7 to even function.
psychotic paranoid stuff to , so
Cant enjoy time passing,
Last chance ... Im going to smoke weed now everyday , and if things dont get better
very soon , its Game over ,
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U know any easy methods to end life ?
, im 21 now , had this for 2 years
, gettin worse everyday ,
like im 50 % blind now
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Well , have u heard of anyone who tryed lazer after having hppd , and how many , whats the result?
Its important to draw conclusions from real data or it it a guess ?
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Anyone thought of that one ?
Cost about 2000 $
I have bad eye sight anyway so it will fix that
And the visual snow cant get any worse anyway
And if it does i will just end this life anyway.
Im going to start save some cash now and try it
Any thoghts?
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Its flashing lights/visual snow at the same time with light sensitivity. i dont believe they read my mind , its just a feeling.
u get any meds ?
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My vision is exactly like that video, flashing colours 24/7 .. and i hear mumble from ventilations when i try to sleep..
Flashing in the entire field of vision.
Anxiety so bad that i will probably never be able to work around people.
depression - sucks to wake up .. unless i have a beer. and be alone all day
dp/dr - unreal thoughts , paranoid about my messed up thoughts affects others .. when im around people
Other than that my psyche is pretty strong. i dont react to my thoughts .. and i have a grouded perspective of my true self
and self aware. i will consider advices and see what ill do from this point.
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I understand the odds. and yes its a kind of gambling like roulette.
What i know is that miracles can be possible in the right circumstances.
I will give it a try. and discuss the effect later this week hopefully.
Meds
Alcohol gives almost same effect as benzos for me so i dont see why it would be better to use benzo when its worse addiction pattern .. withdrawal..
Doctor thinks im psychotic cause i say that it feels like people are affected by my thoughts sometimes.. but thats quantum physics , meta physics and consciousness
laws of the universe, Even though i know its just a feeling most of the time.
So he have me risberdal.. and i flush them down the toilet..
I find these meds interesting
sobril
lyricaSRRISinemet .WellbutrinKeppraKlonopin -
guys before calling me stupid... when i say the visuals cant get worse >>
This is my vision when i vlose my eyes and when its open to , only time i doesent notice it is when im at computer / TV ... So now u understand it cant get worse ..As u know LSD/Schrooms can put u in higher frequency .. Probably a higher dimension, if u see the BIG picture. u know that our thoughts create reality .. so in a higher dimension it would be a chance to Heal it with deep meditation .. cant even meditate now , cause my thoughts are as bad as it get to .. so really it can only get better i think ..
Theres alot of other reasons that connect to these concepts, in a psycological . neurological . spiritual ,, subjective perspective.
That seems to be in a higher complex order of information in a holographic, digital , paralel universe. , when we step outside the program of duality , white and black point of view,,
Even though it can sometimes be a paradox when the pieces of the pussle is not fully organized with perfect ballance.
Im not stupid.. just see possibilities beyond the illusion of ego,
Thank you for advices,
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My Visuals cant get worse , my whole vision is flahsed with violet 24/7 .. and my thoughts are as intense , speeded up as they can be
so i think its a good edea cause it cant get worse ,, a nice trip on lsd or schroms or Mdma crystals , cant get it worse , only if i have a bad trip and then Dpr can get worse but its impossible
to get a bad trip if im alone in bathtub with sweet music =)
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Has anyone tried take lsd or mushrooms or DMT after u got Hppd to reverse it, ????
Beeing alone with perfect set ,,setting
At this point im really up for whatever works.
Make a drug list and short what u think about its effects ..
antipsycotics - NOT worth it
benzo - doctor wont give me cause '' history of druguse ''
Anti dep - Havent tried
opiates - how to get that .. seems to work for some
Weed - Helps in everyway except the visuals which CANT get worse in my case anyway
so i will grow some plants later
Alcohol - Drink about 1-2 beer everyday .. relaxing
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so how do you know if its kundalini or hppd?
, cause the symtoms seems to be very similar.
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well.. u can get kundalini from some drugs, it opens up third eye and releases the energy from the lower part of spine, and it goes up through all chakras , energy centers up to crown , and thats why u see colours when u close eyes ,, and expanded consciousness..etc
so whats the difference in your opinion?
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I sleep about 12 - 16 hours a night , cause all the speeded horrible thoughts,
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I have researched kundalini and the hppd symtoms seem to be just like kundalini, the visions.. seeing auras, expanded consciousness , hyper sensitivity etc..
Anyone?
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Trying weed again
in MAIN AND GENERAL FORUM
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My visuals cant get worse .
My feeling in stomach in normaly bad
But now i have alot of weed and everyday is going nice now
Good feeling of weed <3