jimmyb84

Totally removed my VS for about a minute or so.

How did you discover this?

My boyfriend doesn't believe me when I tell him about the things I see, saying I'm a hypochondriac and its all in my head. I will admit that reading into HPPD has left me scared and it feasts on my anxiety but it makes me feel a little less crazy because I know other people are seeing it too. I know something isn't right because when I smoke weed I don't get the normal weed high but like I'm back on acid and then tree bark starts glittering and lines fall from the sky, and everything becomes wavy and sharp pains erupt in my back and that is not a normal weed high. I sometimes wish I didn't look into hppd because ignorance is bliss but if I didn't, I would be harming my body more by not knowing the consequences. It is most definitely a blessing and a curse but all knowledge is.

God, I'm really over people talking about how fucked up their hppd symtoms are then saying shit like .."and when I smoke weed"

If your hppd is that bad you wouldn't dream about greeting high!!

Cut the shit for real.

Not sure which symtoms is my worst per say.

Tv is the biggest time out for me, sometimes exercise is as well

Nearly two years now

Ok cool, thx

not sure if QEEG is available in Australia?

I have just completed watching seasons 1&2 of Jersey shore.

I must admit I found the show entertaining however, I think it has made me noticeably dumber doing so! Lol

Personally I watch way to much tv and movies, it consumes me !!

Anyone else using tv as a major distraction ?

Hey guys Id like to throw a bit of info your way. I know its tough and easier said than done, but I was browing some drug forums recently and found several people talking about how psychedleics improved their visualization and spatial memory. Now had they had a bad experience or unwanted cognitive change they would probably call it HPPD. But because they have a different outlook on these changes they view at as an improvement. We need to learn to accept what has happened.I believe strongly that psychedelics change your perception with every use whether you feel you have HPPD or not and how you handle it is dependant on your psychology. Initially I was horrified, but after awhile I was asking myself, why? Why does this scare me? Now I actually wonder weather or not I would accept a pill to reverse what these compounds have done for me. Its been a long hard journey but I don't remember what I was like before it. I don't know if I was a better person. Im not sure if my cognition would be "better" or if it would be just "different". We humans adapt to what we are dealt with and now that Im used to my mind and how it operates Im assuming reverting it back to how it was before could be yet another shock to the system. Who knows though. All I know is that I don't mind my current state of cognition and I utilize it to its fullest potential that its capable of. Im just trying to tell you that I did have suicidal and desperate time within the first few years of onset but it DOES get better. So hang tight!

Ok..... You try some psychedelics and report back to us on the "benifits".

It's hard to adapt to something that totally consumes you 24/7

Stay off the drink and drugs

No, I'm not on disability and won't be eligible as I'm financially secure fortunately.

You won't have any success getting a pension stating hppd or dp/dr as your disability. You need to fit into a more medically suitable category such as clinical depression, skitzo etc etc

That friend of mine i told you about , is on a pension and he will be able to help guide you. He had to jump through hoops initially but once he got approved he was ok.

As I don't have his permission to drop his name on here PM for his contact details ok.

Big papa, not sure where your from?

(Only familiar with Australia disability)

Sorry budd

Miss Jess, not to get your hopes up but I'm pretty sure you won't have much of a issue qualifying for disability pension.

Having a doctor that is supportive is vital though!!!

The Australian government will assess your case on things like:

Past employment

Accumulated assets

Money in the bank

Letter/forms from your doctor supporting your case

Google; disability pension Australia (the site gives you a comprehensive list of criteria needed in order to qualify)

If you need my help just ask ok.

Jimmy x

Could this be explained into English please ??

Jess you crack me up !! Pissa

If you had all the money in the world how would you use it to help your recovery?

Can you provide us a detailed list of your symptoms please?

Fun quiz.....?

Nothing fun about it

^^^^^^^ well said hppd24years

Sleep is vital for recovery

If you're going through hell. . .... Keep on going

Good way of ptting it bigpapacrack

Thanks man

Also it's gonna be difficult explaining why I dont want to go under....

Any suggestions ??????

Tough times don't last....tough people do

10 years without knowing..... Gggggg that's tough

True friends will listen and try understand. The rest can go jump....

You should see the x-rays of my wisdom teeth. They have grown horizontally !! This shit is gonna kill