mybiggestmistake

pretty straightforward question.

i have tried lamictal too and it didn't do much for me besides even me out a little. i was never too happy or too depressed on it, i was just indifferent and empty. i quit it along with all my other meds so i could learn to cope with my depression naturally without the use of medication. a while after that i got heavy into psychedelics and got my HPPD. i still have terrible anxiety, paranoia, panic attacks, and visuals. the only drug that seems to help is alprazolam. ive never been prescribed it, but i buy xanax off my friend sometimes when i start having a panic attack or if im tripping too hard and its a borderline bad trip. i really wish i could get a prescription for it but im 18.

You might be one of the lucky few who can still carry on smoking. I would recommend giving it a break and seeing if it helps, but there are a few people on here that can smoke weed without any ill effect.

What would you consider your worst symptoms? Visuals? Anxiety? dp/dr?

probably anxiety and visuals. ill only get dp/dr episodes every once in a while, but ive had those as long as i can remember, even before the drugs.

Each person is different, but weed absolutly kills me, my anxiety goes through the roof. Do you get relaxed when you smoke it, or trippy?

I've never had any problem with alcohol (other than hangovers),, If I go really over the top, i'll have a benzo to get over it. I think the benefits of having a laugh with your friends, or feeling relaxed at a social event outweigh any negatives. Some people here have seen their symptoms get worse after hitting the booze though, so be careful. Stick to the beers, where possible... I find bottled beer the best for not gettin hangover.

i get relaxed when i smoke, not trippy. ive never had any problems with anxiety or paranoia when im high. i smoke primarily to relieve anxiety. but i guess chronic use has made my anxiety worse. i have noticed that my visuals get a little worse when im high though.

wow, i hope to be as successful as you all some day. thanks for the encouragement and inspiration, you have no idea how much better i feel.

so is weed really that bad? can it exasperate my HPPD? if stopping it will help me, i am all for it. but damn is it gonna be hard haha, seeing as im a self medicating psychonaut. also, is getting drunk every now and then that bad? if so i plan to cut back on that too. im not a heavy drinker but i like to pound some brews with my buddies every once and a while.

i wont bore you with the story you have probably read a million times, but basically i now have HPPD from taking large amounts of benadryl and DXM. i have realized that the more i freak out about it, the worse my visuals get so im trying to just chill and forget about it. but its hard because i have terrible anxiety and paranoia. what are some tools or skills i can use to combat my anxiety? (aside from medication) i feel so alone in this struggle and im wondering what i should do from here. should i see a doctor or a psychiatrist or something? im telling my parents soon but im not really worried about that. i have stopped taking all drugs besides weed. im attending college and trying to make a positive change in my life, but i feel as though my HPPD is holding me back a little.

also, i am very glad to have found this website. i had no idea this condition existed and that other people had it. thanks for any answers you may have.