Elly

On 1/9/2022 at 2:19 PM, DiscourseMage said:

For around a year I took either LSD or Shrooms once a month. My last dose of LSD was last May. It was scary (painful) enough to quit. I had enough robot monkey glitch time. There was benefits like I was able to grasp my paranoia, trauma, psychoses and sociopathy. This was amazing for me but it appears like I've made a sacrifice. My first HPPD incident was a month after my last LSD trip. I was already getting flashbacks and general shifts of perceptions in the aftermath of the dose and long term experiments. But the first uncomfortable incident was after I took a bong rip, then I squatted. I got light headed due to oxygen deprivation and thought I was just on a really big cannabis high. I was wrong because I lifted up too intense and it felt I had just taken a dose of LSD and the peak was ramping. I had the feeling of my brain skipping and being blocked from functioning like I'd dosed really intensely and my legs wouldn't stop spasming until the "Peak" ended and my vision "Paned". It was like this for approx 40 min and my legs still spasmed in little bursts after a few hours. I fell asleep after that and for weeks I had that aftermath feeling again. I had another episode a  week ago only I've been sober off tobacco and cannabis for about 3 months ish. I stopped the cannabis right after the first incident but it took a bit longer for the tobacco, so there was no instance of oxygen deprivation. It was the same thing only weaker. The spasms happened again though less violently and it past in around 20-30 mins. I've figured I have HDDP, fine but I've had goals in mind. The first incident was triggered by excessive drug use and the second was because I stayed up for two days playing a video game and you're suppose to have decent rest, I wasn't doing that. So health is on it's way I now know to get rest with diet and exercise, plus education.

Another thing I'm interested in is changing my gender M/F. One might not think that this relates to HPPD but in fact it may directly be related. LSD changes the 5-HT2A https://americanaddictioncenters.org/lsd-abuse/what-does-lsd-do-to-your-brain  receptors and that's where the mood altering affects come from. What pumps that receptor is Estragon  https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/7632610/ 

 

This comparison scares me because I really want to transition M/F with Hormone Therapy (No bottom surgery I keep the peen) but how I'm figuring this out is it may trigger more frequent HDDP episodes. Does anyone know if I'm right or wrong or is this more of ask the doctor sort of thing? Thank you for the time, sorry if my writing is confusing or grammar is off.

If you’ve been on a bad trip and you re-live it, it’s the worst thing in the world and it definitely raises your anxiety, it makes you feel disconnected and fearful, do you ever see colours around objects ect, if you feel like that then you do have HPPD, 

I would like to ask why you want to change your gender,   I am not saying that that is wrong but why do you want to do it, get back to me

It makes %100 sense 

On 1/18/2022 at 3:23 PM, Jaz said:

      Hi, my name is Jaz. When I was 16 I decided to smoke weird with my friends. It was my first time ever. I thought it was going to be relaxing. You know that’s what people described it as. Except that wasn’t the case for me.

     My experience was traumatic. I found my self in a dark place with no sense of who I was, what the world was or anything. Zero memory! It only lasted a couple minutes though. Until finally I was able to realize what was happening. Except everything was repeating. Everything looked like I was in hell basically. I thought I had dried. I couldn’t feel anything like my phone because it just kept repeating. But finally it stopped. Except it didn’t last long. I soon realized I was looping. I was completely fine for a minute and then boom back again. 
        I was unprepared for this. This was not something I even knew was possible. It was so fucken traumatic that I ended up in the hospital 3 times! No doctors were able to help me. They kinda just laughed.

 It finally ended though. I went back to school but I was hit with bad derealization and depersonalization. I was scared. Terrified I didn’t know what was going on! I went to hospitals so many times and they all just kicked me out because I had no insurance.
     Until I just decided to keep going and living my life and my derealization/depersonalization went away I still experience it sometimes. The worst thing to me happened though! I had a flashback of my drug experience. Exactly the same how it felt. The visuals the perception even the feeling in my body! After that I was afraid I would be stuck in it forever. I was afraid I had fucked up my head (btw I don’t do any drugs or drink).

 I went to numerous psychiatrist once I got insurance they all diagnosed me with something different. I was then convinced I had ptsd. I am doing therapy and have been for a while but I still had a flashback recently. I’ve now been diagnosed with hppd. I was told that before but didn’t believe it since I thought hppd was visuals everyday. I don’t have that.
  Anyways I’m now 22 and still struggle with this I feel alone in this. If anyone has gone through this please I beg you please reach out to me. Give me all the advice. Reassure me that I won’t be stuck in this trip forever. 
 

 

Read my post, my names Elly

On 10/22/2013 at 4:41 PM, wooshka said:

Hey guys, just recently I've been in contact with an Australian based psychiatrist who has heard of the condition and is willing to help.

His name is Dr. Bill Mantziouris

 

He is on  Wickham Tce, Brisbane. His phone number is  07 3831-2233.

Hope this helps any Australians going through this.

You will never know how much this means to me, I have been trying to help my son who has HPPD for years but not many doctors recognise this, hardly any.
I believe that he developed it from using hallucinogenic drugs. He suffers from schizophrenia, high anxiety depression and epilepsy.

He sees bright colours in everything, The trees, houses, cars people, everything. He over questions every single thing in his life, then he goes into a state of confusion because he can’t decide what to do. He sees halos and auras around objects, what’s weird is that his younger sister Who is 21 says the same thing but she has never had drugs in her life she doesn’t even drink.

I couldn’t understand this so I did a bit of research, and according to all his symptoms I can connect  HPPD to my son, he claims that every time they give him antipsychotics,  he gets severe panic attacks, he explains to me that he feels disconnected from the planet and is taken over by intense fear, he starts to see those colours but more intense, he says he feels hi anxiety, fear, lost, disconnection and depression. The panic attack makes him feel suicidal but he endures it but with fear of the next one.

this only happens to him when he is in the psychiatric ward and they give him antipsychotics for the schizophrenia, so because of his great fear of having another panic attack from the medication, he runs, he has escaped more than 30 psychiatric wards around Australia because of the fear of what the antipsychotics will do to him, get another panic attack. He’s on a treatment authority order.

Hallucinogen persisting perception disorder is caused by the over indulgence of psychedelics.

it is a condition of lasting visual distortions, The peripheral vision changes.

They get flashbacks of a bad drug experience mostly with LSD, but my son mixed LSD with marijuana and went on a really bad trip.

So when he is given  an anti-psychotic it wakens his brain and not only does he remember happy experiences he also remembers his darkest experiences and relieves it, which makes him have a panic attack, so you see that my son‘s panic attacks are hallucinogen persisting perception disorder.

So now he needs a professional who can help him because I don’t know how to.

My son is currently in the Capricornia correctional prison Queensland because he smoked ice and he said that he saw a man becoming too friendly with a child, Adam became very angry, approached the man and beat him up badly, he hates paedophiles and child molesters to a high degree, so when he saw this he lost his shit.

I’m  going to try and Call the psychiatrist that you recommended and I hope that she or he can help my son.

Thank you with all my heart

This is my Son, myself and his sisters, The Little girl on Adams lap is my grandchild

Elly

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