HalluciSofos

im in lolz

oh that wasnt for me hehe

im pretty sure none of the psychiatrists where i live would prescribe me with zopiclone even if i told them i get 100 panic attacks a day. they wouldn't even prescribe me xanax i believe

i have lexotanil which is also a benzo but moderate

about therapist yeah im actually in the proccess of finding one

thanks a lot

also i feel like getting completely drunk wasted today

can that make hppd worse long term. visual wise

yeah thats why ill keep of any meds. or at least use them in extreme cases. fingers crossed

i guess u take zopiclone cause u have trouble sleeping ?

feels better that i can relate to someone...today wope up with slight dp/dr which feels like a miracle since i was living a movie the past weeks

has anybody else actually done this?

Well basicly i've come to realise that i have had hppd since i did LSD and misdosed 2 years ago but since i was stoned 1.7 of these 2 years i never noticed until the dp/dr stroke.

In other words i never paid attention to it because i was never sober and constantly doing something (when i say constantly i mean every single minute of my day ).

The olanzapine i got prescribed for my dp/dr attacks and induced the lsd like panic attack probably made the whole thing like 10% worse but yeah look at me. i went from recovered to ill just because i got dp/dr attacks and stayed sober for 2 weeks and i can now identify every single distortion of my vision which brings me more anxiety and more fear of dp/dr. how is that...?

Hmmm i still don't get it. So the antagonists like olanzapine , risperidone block the receptorst while the inverse-agonists try to re-adjust restore the settings of the receptors to default? XD

Enlighten me

tried to to some reserach on this but brain fog and shor term memory problems fuck me up

Drugs ive used: 3 times LSD 3rd one being full out of body with ego death and all (2 years ago). Cant say was a bad trip though would rather say most amazing experience of my life. Lasted around 30 hours or 35. Looads and loads amounts of weed since then as well as before and during the trip. (stupid i know) Like MDMA once didn't even feel it. Salvia once very bad experience never affected me though. Cocaine like 10 times.

After 2 years of the lsd trip i start having extreme anxiety and some panic attacks due to college stuff... Start re-experiencing some psychedelic feelings while on weed. I go to a psychiatrist tell her i am re-experiencing some lsd like psychedelic feelings and i get prescribed olanzapine while told "don't worry these ones will help you, you will be able to go to college on monday and continue your life". I take the olanzapine for like 3 days small dosages 2 times a day until she tells me to  take 2 in the night. I take the 2 pills and in a matter of 20 minutes i have the same feeling of numbness at the back  of my head just  like when i took LSD. I have a full blown LSD like panic attack and end up in a psych clinic where they insist to give me more 5ht2a antagonists which i throw in the trash immediately and leave. And this is how i got mine... Since then i have

1) Floaters (very mild and rare though)

2) After Images (Pretty Moderate)

3) Trails (most annoying and most noticable)

4) Visual snow

5) Wavy like corners of objects 

6) 2D Perception : Feel like im just  experiencing images like a movie and not living in the 3D world ( I guess dr)

7) Anyways again DP/DR. Sometimes especially if im not on Lexotanil i feel like im ready to leave this reality or someting and go complete ego death

8 ) Bright colors that look alive

9) Halos especially around human heads but in all objects in general

10) Pattern recognition ( Not to the point where they move but to the point i find myself staring at them for 4-5 secs )

11) Breathing surfaces ( very mild though ) Only becomes moderate if there is lots of light

12) Double vision not at all times  though mostly if i leave the house

Edit: forgot some of the most disturbing

13)Problems with time recognition ( but i guess thats included in the DR )

14) Short term memory issues

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12) Problems falling asleep

13) Very intense dreams which my mind seems to have hard time forgetting ( Since the olanzapine and lsd like panic attack day i remember like all of the dreams i had )

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It has been 8 days since the olanzapine thingy and at this point i would  be happiest person alive if only i could fall asleep in deep sleep and no dreams and at last have some rest.

Even lexotanil (benzo moderate thought not xannax strong) which helps greatly with some visuals and dp/dr doesn'tseem to help me sleep well

I take 0.5 morn, 0.5 lunch and 1 in the night... still cant fall asleep easily

Also afraid of what im going to live/experience when i have to cut down on them since ill eventually have to ( tolerance )

I believe thats pretty much it

Last week has been hell. Taking olanzapine which triggered an lsd panic attack and then hppd has been the worst decision of my life.

I need something to relieve from DP/DR

Please help....

That gives me hope... which i need right now... already feel better, seems that early morning is the most difficult part for me with most of dp/dr , haven't gotten out of home at all though 

also ordered lions mane any idea on dosages? it comes at 500mg capsules

Woke up early again didn't manage to sleep well. Visuals seems pretty much the same...Feeling of DP/DR again the same

My dreams are somewhat very real and i cant get into deep sleep. Most troubling thing about all of this is not the visuals nor colors... Its the loss of self DP/DR... I feel like im losing sense of time...Days feel like months and then the next day i can't even clearly remember what i did yesterday...too forgetfull both short and long term Im guessing this is the brain fog!?

Im trying to keep humble especially towards people who have struggled with it in a far greater degree than mine but there 2 things that i can't help but to think about.

1) how the f am i going to finish my college studies next fall and do my thesis with such a disorder

2) what am i going to do if this gets worse... my parents are both elders and i feel like im going to need parental help for the rest of my life...

On 1/6/2019 at 4:45 AM, Aspiepj said:

September: tried LSD and weed for the first time. 6 tabs over 2 days. Idiocy, I know. 

September - December: text wiggling and sliding down page, movement in peripheral vision, curtains rippling, roads looked like rivers, disequilibrium, felt like I was walking on a bouncy castle, bed felt like it was moving 

December: given transcranial magnetic stimulation 6 times and the following medications:

 

Breakfast:

1 x 2.5mg Olanzapine

1 x 50mg Sertraline

Lunch:

1 x 2.5mg Olanzapine

Dinner:

1.5 x 100mg Lamotrigine

1 x 15mg Mirtazapine

1 x 10mg Olanzapine

 

January: recovered

Greets sorry if bump or anything ( haven't been a forum user at all in my life ) 

You can find my personal story that i uploaded today

Did the meds and especially olanzapine made you worse before actually making you better?

Asking because i believe olanzapine gave me HPPD

Greets again and thanks for the answers and advice. I have stopped using cannabis, drinking cofee / energy drinks etc. for about 1.5 week now pretty much since i first saw the psychiatrist for the panic attacks. Can't quit smoking at least 4-5 cigs per day though.

I stopped taking olanzapine on last friday (was the last dose tha blew me out). Since then it has been pretty much the same visuals i guess not sure though.

I made my mind , im not going to take the rispiredone at all not even going to go buy it, im just going to stick to the monk lifestyle for as much as it takes.

Hope it doesn't get worse. 

Bright side of things 1) i finally opened up to my mother about everything and i have great family support 2) we live in the mediterranean so lots of foods available that help with health/neurogenesis/well-being.

I am still considering CBD supplements to sleep better but not sure since i read they mess with some inhibitors 5-ht2 which are the same that these anti psychotics mess !?!? Not sure enlighten me

Greetings to everyone,

I am currently typing next to my mother to whom i opened up about a big part of my life very recently due to HPPD. I am 21 years old and have been abusing weed for the past 5 years, did LSD 3 or 4 times the last one being a rollercoaster in 2017 (2 years ago). I think i misdosed or something because the whole experience lasted more than 24 hours and was a hell of a ride. Other drugs i have tried but only tried are cocaine, salvia and  MDMA. I am a senior at the American college of my city and i would be graduating very soon with great grades and holding my scholarship if it wasnt for HPPD. So here is my story.

About a month ago i started experiencing severe anxiety. My lifestyle was generally unhealthy with lots of coffees and energy drinks little sleep and lots of weed. I had my first panic attack outside while smoking mary and drinking an energy drink. This went on like that for like 1 or 1.5 week with lots of panic attacks and severe stress until i saw a psychiatrist. She helped a lot with my anxiety until i started having flashbacks of my LSD experience. At first it was more of a feeling and not an experience. It gradually progressed until i opened up to my psychiatrist who prescribed me with olanzapine (biggest mistake of my life). I took the olanzapine for 3 or 4 days and  boom. I've been having visual hallucinations and DP/DR for the past 5 days. At times it feels like it is getting worse and at other times it feels like it is getting better (Mostly has to do with time of the day, environment, anxiety etc). As most of you can imagine i suppose it is mainly not about the visuals but the re-experiencing , DP/DR, panic, and loss of self in general.

The past week or more (cant really tell since im easily losing focus and sense of time-space) i have changed my life completely. I started eating healthily , sleeping well (trying to at leasts) and generally focusing my whole diet towrads neuroregeneration and well being. K.B Fante's Routine that can be found here (http://hppdonline.com/topic/5344-a-routine-thats-helping-for-newcomers-especially/) is something i try to stick to and follow.

I am also considering CBD oil pills for stress as well as other supplements.

It is important for me to note here that my visuals are not that intense. They can get pretty irritating and distracting but never completely covering my field of view.

So i have some questions to the more experienced individuals.

1) Is there any chance it gets worse until it gets any better?

2) Olanzapine made me way worse and today i saw another psychiatrist who prescribed me with risperidone. What are the chances i have different results? As far as i can tell both drugs are of the same type and act in similar ways so i am very cautious about taking it or not. 

3) is there any chance both of the drugs make things way worse before starting to "cure" the receptors ?! 

I am desperate for answers and losing hope day by day. Please help...