Schizo699

I have enough. Have been 3 years unaware after heavy psychedelic drug. I still sleep on the street - don't know where I am who I am. I want to try either Keppra or Levetiracetam.

I have 0 income, I cannot work in my condition. Do you have any medication to give away?

DP/DR

Wenlafaxine, Sertraline, Mirtazapine, Citalopram, Olanzapine, Quetiapine, 

Tried Lamotrigine once (got heart pains and stopped)

Tried psychedelic exactly 3 years ago. Died right after. Lost all my thoughts, for a year I could not speak. Since then I am fully unconsciouss. I don't know where I am, who I am, I don not exist. Don't have subjective reality. This is Agony. Have been 4 times in psychiatric hospital and 4 times in jail. Also, all 3 years I have been homeless... This is the most bizarre experience that you can ever imagine. I don't have beliefs, personality, past memories, I am left with my body, there is no one inside anymore.

I tried 6 meds so far, maybe in next few months doctor will give me Keppra, this will be the last shot. After that I will be 99% sure I will be like this forever...

Before ego death I was already a vegetable, I had the most severe, life long mental disorder, I have been living in a limbo. I could not accept it so I decidec for the last resort which was psychedelics...

That's all I wanted to post