Natalie87

Hi, I’m Natalie and this is my first post. I took mdma for the first time in May. Seriously. I took it once, and here I am.

June I couldn’t function. The derealization was constant. I was put on Zoloft. Things got worse. 

Then Paxil in August. Only some improvement.

I can tell that I’m getting better, but now I’m on Trintellix, and once again, symptoms are getting worse.

I feel like the only time I feel normal is when I’m between SSRIs, but my doctor keeps telling me that’s in my head or whatever. But there seems to be a pattern here.

The derealization has improved significantly since June. But these SSRIs seem to make me more anxious and depressed. The only thing keeping me functioning is the klonopin. I don’t want to go against my doctor’s advice but I feel like I should stop the Trintellix. 

I feel like the SSRIs are slowing my progress?

Any advice is greatly greatly appreciated.